long din hear abt them..maeb im busy ba to know news abt them..but oh well, they still my best fav band grp in Spore!! haa..yeah really..my idol..the best thing abt them is their vocals..super nice..wonder if they frm choir last time?? hmm..but i think they are able to become a choir instructor..eh, if they really become one, come work at Pioneer Sec! haa..me crazy ler..will never forget Revalina..n Shauna Simon too. haa..

i found Naza's frenster..haa..but u noe me la..i usually felt scared n shy to meet someone..especially if dat person is an idol..haa..so i showed my sis his profile, my sis was like,''u don wan add? i add lor..'' haa..i was like add lor..haa..she 20..of course can make fren wit him..As im only 15, he may think im still so childly..haa..they can make better frens..haa..



well, today, supposed to go out wit my lil bro...so now, im waitin fer him to come back frm sch...haa..he kept on remindin me dat 31oct is the day to go out wit him..ya la ya la..eventually, i budget myself...5O dollar to spend..yeah..wahhaahaa..watch movie wit him(The Seeker) n erm play arcade meeb...gee..

original or spicy?

haa..watch cicak man for alot of times alrdy la...sianx la..yusri is super good lookin n erra fazira is super pretty..haa..serious men...watever..

my two bestfrens seriously gone wild..fight n fight all de time.im alwys de neutral one...haa..but funny la..

Daphni, im so sorry i cant go ur dance performance..i was sad dat my mum says ''no'' to me..haix..soorry lor..i really cant go ma..

oh well, i go study ler..chey guai orh me?

see ya..

tomo headstart again...haix

muack.

haa..choir is ridiculous..totally..haix.im soo tired nowadays..well, my stomach ok la..gettin better..thx xueting fer findin so much information on my sickness..haa..much appreciate it..im ok now..haa..

well, jus now choir sang all kind of chinese songs..my frens n juniors will laugh at me whenever i sang..haa..i behave really like a clown men during choir..haa...but one song de last one..it very very memories..it make me cry cuz i rmbr abt him..

yup, the song is ''Dan ni gu dang ni hui xiang'' by Zhang Dong Liang.it really reminds me of him..He's sweet, nice, gentleman, caring and definitely rock..haa..well, he is Darrius Sia kwan ee..my first boyfren in Pioneer.

Haikal aka Shates was the one hu introduce me to him..haa..it was Sec 1 dat time..haa..he oso sec1 so we same age la..actually im not really hav so much ''love'' to him..really.but i think back then it was jus a crush..i like him cuz he look like Riche a bit..haa..

So we spent time singin together..dat time when we are steady..de song was my fav song last time..haa..den he send me home..1 full day wit him was great cuz his passion for singin is same like me n we hav alot of thing in common...haa..
den next day, we spent for some time day together den i went back home..i felt sth missing den as i think dat it was a big mistake to be wit him..my mind was blank.. den at nite, was when i tot of breaking up. but im scared, scared of hurtin him.
he called me at nite..i told him and he told me too to break up dis relationship..i was like, ''u think so too?''...den we both agreed. it not because he frm NT dat i despise him but jus not the right person for me. so after dat, we still became frens..haa..we two still can joke ard wit each other..frm there, i noe dat he is perfect to be my fren.

hmm..k lor..like dat la my story of my first bf..cool rite?haa..seriously Darrius is a nice lad..he loves his sistas alot..he a very loving brother..haa..he may be behavin for wat he is rite now, but i noe dat he still carry on his responsibility of fetchin his sistas. becuz of dat, i salute him.

k guys, see ya.
i wanna slp.
muack!

hey guys, just came back frm market..haa..evry sunday i will usually go help my mum out..hee.. ok, jus now, i sat down while lookin at the mirror..reflecting myself..well, i must say, i make alot of mistakes..so is no doubt dat i been blamed..i also tot of my loved ones dat i've lost..i din expect dat is was my doin dat i lost them.. so therefore, i don blame huever in this world hu make my life miserable.

frm now onwards, im gonna be the person hu free frm world of vengence n hatred.. all my life now is happiness.. im gonna bring smiles to ppl n dat wat i born for..

so, a great big lesson for a 15year old gal..haa..my ambition is to become a counsellor..yeah..haa..cuz at the age of 15, i hav alrdy learnt alot abt life but not all cuz there's one thing dat i wan seek out. dis one thing is very important in our life n i wan to seek the ans on why is it so important though one will felt hurt after experience it.

tomo got sch!! haiya..heardstart prgrmme..haix..leceh ah..don really feel like gg men..haix..but watever, i still must go.

k then.
see ya..

i don wan be a bloody fool anymore and i mean wat i say.

yeah rite now, watever life i had is my fault. it all my fault! i caused this life of mine.

Everything starts of wit me!!

i caused the fire!

i starts the fight!

ok? its me to blame. thousands apologises to u k?

many2 alot2 of sorries to u

it my fault. im the caused of all this trouble!

MY FAULT!

haix..money money money!!!
is money really dat important in the world?
well, if u guys were in my shoes,ur ans shall be yes.

Since primary sch, i was complimented dat im a lil rich gal. let me tell you guys dat im not. i may hav lots of branded stuff wit me, appear rich but actually inside my wallet n pocket, there's nothing.

my mum wil buy for me anything i want when she gotten her pay..n i could get more stuff if i get Edusave Awards money..haix..dat why u guys(my schmates whom noe me) see me using lots of expensive stuff..

dat is why i felt reluctant to lend to ppl my money..n felt despo for ppl to return my money back. but, if i hav alot of money wit me, i wouldn mind not doin dat stuff.

so pls, try to understand my situation here.
frm now onwards, im not gonna eat out or watver..im gonna save money.i cant afford to ask her for money...i noe, she got none.

i now relying on the scholarship money..dat why, i wan work hard n get good job to get good money..for wat? for supporting my mum..she a single-handed mum dat i must must MUST take care of her..i studied hard for who? for my mum..nobody else..

dat why when ppl say im money-minded or stingy or watever, of course la they can say dat..they are not in my shoes..they don noe wat my family status..they don noe how i was brought up...

one thing i noe for sure is when i hav lot of money, i would donate n treat my family. no one else..

wat im tryin to say here is i love my family alot n will do anything fer their sake..i even tot of not gettin married cuz i wan take care of my mum...

''money is not everything''..haa..of cuz those hu agrees wit this are rich ppl!!

so, dis is me. money means everything to me. for me, n for my family.

those hu oppose dis. dis is the poem for u.

have u ever live my life?

spends one minute in my shoes?

if u don den why,

u judge me as u do.

i hav my reasons for behavin who i am.

anybody hav any idea how stomach pain occurs? cuz i hav been gg to the toilet for 6 times!!! after eating the KFC, i felt like vomitting..i din eat fer one whole day n suddenly my mum orders rite after she come back home..den i ate dat for my dinner..den my stomach super pain after eating it! haix...wait! i wan go toilet again..cant take it anymore!! argh!!

I NUR AZMIRA AZLAN HAD HER RESULT BACK!

Ok, all i can say fer my result was, not bad. seriously..not dat excellent but ok la..can la...haa..wat am i tokin? ok here it is..

English : B3

Malay : A2

A. Math : D7

E. Math : A2

Chemistry : B4

Science(phy/bio) : A1

Combined Humanities(s/g) : A2

CME : A

how? it jus an OK rite? haa..i knew it..even my mum says its OK. haa..well, i did get promoted to Sec4 Express..well, mrs seah says i must MUST practice Amath cuz i must MUST get B3 FOR OLEVEL..haa...too high the expectations..haa..

my new class is jus next door of my old class..haa..we some more beside 1S3..means beside sec1???!!! everyone like ''huh??!'' wth..haa..

my new class is 4V5? sounds ugly..alot of my classmates don like it..i don like it too..sounds ugly men..4v6 is better..haiya..nicer...4v5? oh well, it still sec 4..haa..but really, i don like the class name..very ugly..i confirm still thinks dat im 4v6 next yr..haa..

next year is the tougher year fer me..i must be well-prepared..haa..

jus now, rehearsel was badly done. i hate it.. haa..im feel sad..see mun, ur new chairperson neh! sheralin!! cannot quit cuz ur the new vice-chairperson! wah haa haa haa!! yeah..but den im thinkin of someone else of becomin a leader...i think xiao yuan ba..haa..

xueting!! i found my pencil box..wow..dis mornin im totally sad n devastated cux i tot i lost my pencil box..den, ive found it! at home..wah haa haa! sorry xt! haa..i told her to search for me my pencil box in the music room..haa..but it ended up in my room!

ok..dat all fer today..

see ya!

muack.

i noe u wan make my life miserable

i noe u cant wait to see me sad

i noe u wan to put me down

i noe u wan me to lose all my frens

i noe u wan me to be left behind

i noe u hate seeing me smile n in success

i noe u

u turn my life upside down

i meant u

u will see me rise one day

u will be awed by me some day

n i meant wat i say

im not scared of u

i hav my mother wit me

u?

back frm choir!! it absolutely great..i wonder why my choir members seem not to like it n find boring..they only likes my entertainment..haix..thinkin abt myself, oh ya.i am a clown during de practice..that is why when mr oon say im a quiet gal, they like,''yeah, right'' den a sarcastic looks..''like real''...ok fine, i hev to act good ma sometym..haa..dis is life. we got to adjust our behaviour to every place. haa..

Dan dan soy a philipnes song was super nice..we sang well for today..haa..only 11members singin..dat is like so sad..my alto parts only 4 ppl singing...wah lau..choir gettin smaller after theSYF..haix..

i felt moody as i walk to sch today..Mr tan was like, why u so tired today? i say no la..it jus dat sheralin is out n quit n i felt sad...n Mr tan was like ''WHAT?'' haa..i guess it..dat will be his reactions..hmm..haa..den like dat lor..i lead the choir warm up..i felt great when they all sang well...haa..

well, good news fer me..after Olvl i had a chance to work in Mrtan's music sch!! yeah..haa..is his sch..haa..cool huh? i can learn as i work there..im willing to take the courses there..i wanna learn, guitar, piano, drum n many other instrument la..haa..k la.i got alot of plans after Olevel haa..but den still long..haa..

kla..i go eat my lunch..for those loyal readers, thank u for reading my blog. much appreciate it.

tata!
muack.

PIcs on 23Oct outings..me n seemun..=)sheralin n yanhong playing games..they really addicted..at SWENSEN!!

me n seemun masterpiece..we're the last to eat ice cream..the rest all don wan, then is coffee ice-cream..sux so like dat lor..we mix ard..haa
thank you Mr oon fer the ice-cream!!
my spaghetti!! so nice..haa..thx seemun fer the pic!

the ''dry ice'' very cool..
yest sch was ok..i was angry n sad when Sheralin is quitting choir..i cant stand it!! im so useless..i cant make choir interesting..haix..im so useless..i felt sad thinkin abt it..sheralin is a great member...n she left choir for? volleyball. yes. choir is boring..im trying my best to make it interesting..haix..when she say, she go choir for my sake n attendance sake, i felt sorry..freakin bad mood now..but im not angry wit her..im jus angry wit myself for not bein a good leader.

irshad, im not thinkin abt it..he jus there whenever i tried forget it..forgive? dat definitely a no. i willl not forgive him jus like how i din forgive...u noe la..watever de case, i wish him dead. dat all. its better if he drop dead in front of me..when i cried dat painful nite, i swear he hav a miserable life jus like wat i hav rite now. but im not gonna hav a sad life in future, but he's gonna hav dat.

dis is not real me..damn it..he turn me into someone else. a devil.

yest after sch, decided to hav lunch wit sheralin, seemun n yanhong..but hu noes?mr oon my former physic teacher was there too. haa..he treat us SWENSEN!! ice cream n spaghetti for me!! yum..haa..

after dat off shoppin wit them, mr oon tag along too..how sweet..haa..

yanhong is jus like her brother, tend to go missing..

eating dinner was at mac..see mun cried dat time.dat when i felt more useless..see mun, no matter what, im here for u to be a listening ear n don care wat ppl think of u. jus one thing u shld hav in mind. let get on wit life. dat all..n stay on cuz one day u will be the happiest gal in the world. i promise.

k guys, off to choir..hmm..
muack.

muhd faiz haziq bin zainal!!!

if ur readin my blog, pls. go away.(to faiz only)

it not dat i don wan u to read but u creatin more probs for me..u hate me rite?u dislike me rite? den good. u obediently go fcuk off n continue wit ur life heckin care abt me..i heck care abt u liao..u makin me stress seein u all de time!! u think i like ah seein u? i oso don noe ure there..ur there at the path wher im always at! ok fine, jus get off la..continue ur bloody study la..i wish u bad results in ur Olevel! but i can see u already hav bad result huh? haa..u think i go for stupid person?pls la..im blind to like u..blind! ur not smart, clever, nice n gentleman or watver..definitely not my type of guy n im definetly not ur typre of gal..but i don care now. wat i wan now frm u is to jus fuck off la...stop gossipin n telling tales ard..so pls. leave me alone..don behave like an idiotic gals..go ard gossiping..i suggest u wear skirt ba!

well, choir gettin fun..im lovin it..az the chairman of choir, i must must MUST move on the choir n do my job..haa..im proud to be in choir..so fun!!

haa..sch is great recently...well, i made new fren named, Raffian..cool huh his name? haa..he very frenly..n my old fren, pri 5 classmates live near my sch!! ZHARIFF! i hope i bump into him walkin to sch or walkin home..dis guy here is damn funny..will neva fail to make valerie n me laugh dat tym in pri sch..haa..chung aik! aka hell! diao rite? but quite original..he ah..i usuall see him very blur de..haa...no offence..haa..

now, pri sch done, next is sec sch, too tired to talk frm history but few ppl dat i wan to say..
First is , miss pok xue ting!! my best de best de best fren..haa..we will alwys talk craps n walk ard e sch like nth better to do..haa..got la some time we fight, but alwys ended up a failure! we are fightin but alwys disrypted by sth..den we two will laugh2 den won fite anymore..haa..cool..i will oso never forget the memories dat we spent together..jus the 2of us..xueting, i cherish u too! haa..love you!

wenlong, the genius of the sch, he damn smart n im proud to be his bestfren too..haa..he will teach me Amath whenever...haa..as in whenever! haa..thx wenlong!

hmm, the other ppl like, huiyun, weeleng, yolanda, amanda and yilin..they are great! haa..ok.

im really tired men, bloggin..i promise promise, one day i talk abt my life. especially de past..weehee..

kguys, see ya..

byes!
muack.

ok, after dis, i was assigned to do housework. but wait, let blog first..wah haa!

the place wher i usually walk to my pri sch..

pic gotten frm fren...my pri sch..Gan Eng Seng pri sch..

i miss my pri sch..my pri sch fren don really miss this sch cuz they are near to the sch!! they live near ma..of course la..i so far..haix..i jus simply miss this sch..

will never forget my pri sch memoriees..

Henderson, Keng seng, pearl hill and alexandra pri sch all combine as ONE CALLED gan eng seng pri! haa

i was pri 4 when i went to Gesps..I was in class 409..haa..den 507 >>>607..haa..pri 5 was my best time of my life..my arm was fractured by KOH ZHI LIANG. haa..he push me..den he say sorry to me n my mum..how cute..haa..my first ever crush was RICHMOND YEO JIA HAO. haa..first time met him at staircase.. tell u guys, dat we always always always quarrel..haa..hu noes ended up..watever..last time, it used to be ,do u love me 100% la..or watever..love is by percentage dat time..how creative..haa..weiling used to supprt me beating Riche..haa..funny..

my bestfrens, adeline n yveena..haa...filzah..i love my malay class..all damn nice..all malay dancers! wahh haa! but Redhill malays are not as bad as..erm..4get it..i jus rmbr dem forever. FAREL!!! My malay class partner for 3years! pri456..haa..wahlau..mdm majidah make us sit together cuz he's good in malay.well, im not. He's aim in PSLE is 210. mine is 200, but we ended up get vice versa. he 200. i 211. hee..1 extra..

ASMAWIE!! my bestest fren oso..will neva forget him..haa..frequently call me n we chat fer long time..as in long time..will neva forget u bro!!haa..he ah, very flirt..i noe but hu cares? he my good fren..and dat a fact..i don care wat he is right now, but awie, u still my goody fren! chey..

i have lots of pri sch fren..band fren..i think i forget them but i won forget our memories n their faces! hee..see how dis sch giv me a great impact of my life? haa..forever rmbr them. if i ever had a choice of life. dat will be gg back to gesps wit all my frens. haa.

yveena(da jie)me is xiao mei..hee,adeline(er jie),the chinese grp frens(weiling they all) i everytym wit them, the malay grps gals, den diana, filzah, farel, daud, asmawie, the chinese boys grp den clement, yong sheng my hardworkin partner, calvin,kok boon, ziliang, tiong jiaming, ravinder the most irritating guy..haa..vignes, n many many more..Rina my best band mates n my best fren in pri4.heng ghee, dis sissy guy but very nice. super nice. haa..alvin, freakin gay..haa.. still got alot but im damn tired to type..next time den..hee..mis ya guys loads!

ok..dat it.see ya.

muack

hey guys! im back updating my post...oh well, im very thankful to Allah fer givin me dis kind of result..haa..well, they're no so well done but okay enuf to make my family proud n myself too.

will show u guys the result after i get everything k?

ok, today sch was ok..no difference..the only different is Daphni not there..haa..all my seniors..not faiz ah i miss..pui ah...haa..well, yest i talk to Daphni fer like so long..1hr15min8 sec..wee hee..talk a lot of the past n history too...haa..Daphni im counting on u fer teaching ne Organic Chem! haa..

i let ms yuen n ms ng down..n im damn sad fer that..especially ms ng..sorry ms ng fer makin u so sad..

ok..,azmira..u hav to wake up! so many ppl is helpin u n i must help myself..i must not let more ppl feel sad fer me..im gonna be the top student in pioneer!!
i could not be bother fer huever is interupting my life..wat im doin right now is to focus on my goal..i must!! i cannot let so many ppl down..cld not.

yes, azmira is a family gal.i love my family. i so does love the teachers...n im not gonna dissapoint them. fer year 2008, i will not tolerate all nonsense. huever don like me or hate me or despise me, let me tell u guys now, get a life. a good one too. u not earning urselve anything fer hating me. i be glad if u guys fight wit me in studies..i don mind u guys win me as u guys r doin ur ownselve favour.

few things i shld do fer next year..:

-boost up my self-confindence
-hav a great determination
-heck care abt e world(no gossiping all dat shit)
-focus on my goal
-appreciate all helps
-cherish the loved ones ard me
-chg my attitude
-no falling in love
-aim for gg TJC.

haa..i will be the new-born azmira..i hav woken up frm my impossible dream n i came to a possible reality. Ms Ng, ms yuen, mrs seah and mrschew..i will not let them down again..never..im gonna make them proud. n not fergettin my family.

huever anti-me, i shall advise u guys to wake up frm dat n bcome like me, go for the possible reality. the world out there is not a safe place. u can be happy and satisfied till u can put others down, but u never get that pleasure fer the rest of ur entire life.

leave the past, n go for the future. but still, i miss the past. all those happy memories..now all had been splashed wit red blood..a memory dat hurting to think abt. its all because of a coin n a guy.

k guys..tired ah..
thx fer reading. n to faiz,u r one of the reason dat wake me up frm my impossible dreams. thx.

haa..see ya! to my seniors, good luckfer olevel!

MUACK.

a video for baby-lovers! haa..im in the foul mood but this baby cheer me up! so have fun!



so does this video jus tickles u?

this video is freakin cute n funny..there few others more but i prefer this..haa

wah..phew..jus finish play game..mofunzone.net..dat one...haa..my eyes pain men..haa...

well, yest went out to spend of my collection money..haa..spend till im left wit 10dollar..woo..

well, i went to library first, borrow books den off to jurong point..go eat at Banquet, saw shikin, nad, jas and shahidah...haa..den..i ate same stuff..my lil bro too..for those hu think Banquet's food is cheap, well, fer me, is not.

haa..i spend $30 dollar yest..wow..damn it..anyway, the new Popular bookshop is like so big den i spend 1hr there...hee..

saw kamil, hazlan n krul while up on the escalator..dey were gg down, while i am gg up..in front of kamil was a small baby dat i quickly told my bro abt it..den hu noes behind it actually kamil hu ws wavin at me..i was like,''since when he's here''...he like''mcm tak nmpk''..bla bla bla...haa..sori le..im a baby-freak..i won care abt the world if i see baby..haa..it jus his luck to be behind dat baby...waa haa..

me n lil bro walk back home..while walkin we will stop by at the playground...den sit n read bks..chey..haa..ppl passes by tot we kuai but im readin chem n my bro readin comic..haa..too engross till we forget abt the time~!

530pm we reached our blk n i saw my sis n her fren at the lift. it a guy fren obv..haa..wit light blue car...wah..super nice men the car..haa..

today hav to eat maggi cux there's no food home n i no money..wah haa..
hmm..this year i din went out wit my malay fren raya cuz i really really no mood for Hari Raya.. my family din went out fer hari raya..onli my sis wit her bf..well, we all no mood fer it..we jus welcome guest..haix..well, guys, if u experience death in a family, u will not hav mood to celebrate any occasion..yes, i fast n i deserve a celebration but on the other hand, nth is more important den my family..

hmm..anyway, i borrowed chem guide cartoon book..damn nice..it so funny n makes me understand chem better..wicked..haa..

k guys, nth to update liao n oso time to giv my bro food to eat.
..see ya..n to those hu comfort me, thx!

byes!
muack.

i miss my grandfather..alot...i wanna see him..pls..the last time i see him is last year hari raya aidilfitri..i miss him alot...i wan see him...i don wish fer anything else..cuz of him, my family is in great happiness..i miss you atuk!! i wanna meet him when i died..i miss u alot! he the nicest man i ever know..

the doctor don even ask for my aunt money when they take him to check his body..

i miss u atuk..ur my family's inspiration. will never forget u..

u cant even see me wit my Olevel certificate..u cant even see me gettin good result n givin my family happiness jus like wat u did..why cant Allah jus gave u one more year! WHY!!!!

i love you very much...me n aliff will be waiting fer u to come to us..

u must be there when im takin my Olevel result.

i will get my very best Olevel result..for u n my family..no one else..

may u rest in peace..i miss u forever, ever...will neva forget ur kindness,
never!!!!

i wish u n ur son who is my father are restin peacefully rite now..

that my only wish...

ku peluk indah manisnya cinta, Semuanya terasa indah,
Bagai di alam cerita cinta,Hadir bahagia selama-lama

Katamu kekasih yang sedang kita alami, Takkan kekal 'tuk selamanya
Mengapa kekasih,Tiada kau percaya, Kebenaran cerita kita
Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku
Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri

Katamu kekasih yang sedang kita alami, Takkan kekal 'tuk selamanya
Mengapa kekasih,Tiada kau percaya, Kebenaran cerita kita
Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku
Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri

Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku
Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri
Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku
Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri
Ooooh... Percayalah bidadari.....
i cied when i heard dis song..



Baby we was making straight A's,
But we were stuck in a dumb daze.
Don’t take much to memorize your lies.
I feel like I've been hypnotisized.
And then that magic man; he come to town.
Whoo wee!
He done spun my head around.
He said, "Recess is in session.
Two and two make five."
And now baby, oh, I’m alive.
Oh yeah!
I’m alive

(Chorus
And if you want to be the teacher's pet,
Well baby you just better forget it.
Rock got no reason. Rock got no rhyme.
You better get me to school on time.

Oh you know I was on an honor roll.
Got good grades and got no soul.
Raised my hand before I could speak my mind.
I been biting my tongue too many times.
And then that magic man said to obey…..uh-huh
"Do what magic man do, not what magic man say."
Now can I please have the attention of the class.
Today's assignment... a hem... kick some ass!

(Chorus x 2)

This is my final exam.
Now you all know who I am .
I might not be that perfect son.
But ya'll be rockin' when I'm done.

haix..wat a great day today...well, tomo there's no sch but still i must come back sch for oral..haix..no16 is so long men..tomo i decided to go library...not today..cux im tired ah..i wanna play comp n sleep later on..haa..yeah..im very lazy one neh..

well, yest nite filing files like shit jus for checkin which is today...diao..haix...tired ah nowadays..wonder how my dears seniors coping fer their Olevel..nvm later i sms them..weehee..i disturb them..wah haa! chey..

Amath i skipped alot! as in alot..wah haa..but hu cares..i felt like givin up amath..haix..

bio..no comments!

im jus scaref i let my mum down..nothin else matters..

well, wanna play games den slp..see ya guys!

muack.

hari raye men!!

hey guys!! azmira back! jus finish helpin my mum cook..hmm..been long since ive updated. well, my memor isn dat good so i jus talk abt, last fri (12oct), sat (yest) and of course today! wee hoo..

the story of my life goes like this..

Once upon a time..chey! haa..well, on last friday, it was my chem n emath paper2 paper..damn..chem was tough..i don noe whether i could pass..haix..this is wat u get if u don study e first few chapters of the textbk..emath was ok..i find it average la..

after dat, went to my auntie house at 811 blk..jus right infront of my sch..well wit my uniform on..i went there cuz i was asked to take cake frm them..hee..hu noes,i spent there the whole day wit my uniform playin wit my cousin n takin a nap..wit my uniform on! haa..i even break fast wit them, wit my uniform on! haa..well, play ''bunga api'' wit them den at 8pm ciao went home.

my mum was worried sick but i did call her afternoon dat i spent time at my cousin house. my mum even sms xueting, askin where am i..haa..so cute..

yest was Hari Raya! i woke up early like 8 to well, decorate the house, clean n make nice nice swee swee..haa..

wear the eye thingy so weird! i look so emo..ee yer..mum act cool. i act cute! wah haa!
my family! haa!

hmm., well im lazy to update more..wanna see more, den go see frenster..haa..tired ah..i din study fer dat day oso..haa..hu cares..A math and bio paper on tues! wahhaa! how crap can it get? haa..watever..it not Olevel yet like wat nestor said..heehee..

stayed at home entertainin guest fer the whole time, but i did get to slp when guest come..huahaa!..

as fer today, my sis dressed up to go out wit her bf..well she dress so nice yet go out takin bus! wat the hell..i really wish she find a rich guy..if she cannot, i can..i must find a rich one..like wat my mum sae, during her time, rich tak main..meanin gals those days, don go for rich guy, they go for erm..responsibility, love..but now, all go for money.

yeah..money is a scary thing but a nice n will give us a beautiful life...haa..watever..all i noe is right now, i wanna study as high as i can to get as big job to earn more money..yeah...well, my job shall be helpin..like workin in hospital or psycology thing..cuz i wanna help. basically, im in this world to do one job. it called, help. im willin to do voulunteer job n help needy ppl..dis is wat my grandpa taught me..haa..i must be jus like him..helpin ppl without askin anythin in return..i will do it.

k guys, im not kind of gal hu hav no aim in life though i usually walk aimlessly, but i do hav sth in mind..i hav my plan. n i definitely workin towards my goal.

see ya! will update soon! meanwhile hav a look at my frenster! n do add me!

my mum cook damn alot! well, sambal goreng is the best!love it! ok..hmm..maeb..it takes 3 days to finish perhaps? wahhaa!

azz

muack.

phew..two more days, four more papers to go...haa..ok..im feelin better now..not really dat sick..i think its cuz of e weather..hmm..haa..anwae, oh well, abt exam thngy, im not gonna talk abt it..too risky..

haa..many coincidence thing happen to me dis year..haa..ok..look.

rui lian got the same pencil as me n same birthday
khairil(a sec 2boy) got the same bag as me..exactly some mre.

talkin abt dis khairil guy, he has the same bag as me..so we got the same taste..n dat cool..haa..wth..i din noe he existed till dis year, though he's my junior..haa...wth...hmm, a captain of rugby, impressive..my im more, im the most headache cca chairman of choir..haa..cool.

alot of ppl keep buggin me n teasing me abt havin the same bag as him. tell me, wat the big deal?

right now, i only love my family n frens..

talkin abt frens, i miss my pri sch frens...well, one more day to Hari Raya..n dat so fast..wah haa..i alrdy booked one day to spend my whole day time wit DAPHNI!

she gave me her word. haa..

k guys. go back study fer chem.

see ya.
muack.

''atuk, mira akan belajar sungguh -sungguh untuk atuk.. mira akan selalu doa kepadamu..mira akan jage mama dan aliff..mira takkan lupa segalanya yg atuk bilang..''

as the day nearing to Hari Raya, i missin my grandpa more n more...sometym, i wish dis year i could ask for his forgiveness...thinkin of him really makes me sad..nowadays im feelin damn mooody..haix..

it true. u only realise how important the person is to you when they passed away..

cherish the ones near u..

as for me, i cherishin my family..

if i achieve n become successful in life, i noe i made a lot of ppl proud of me.

my grandpa, grandma, godma, godpa, mama n my siblings..

i work hard, study hard not for me, but for them.. i still rmbr the blessin dat my grandpa gave me last year hari raya, which is to be successful in life n take care of my family..

i won let him down...never...

dat y whenever i failed, i feel i let them down..not me..

i must be successful in life. i must make them proud.

k guys..off now..

see ya.
muack.

okay, malay paper was ok..haix..im jus feelin not good nowadays...flu n fever n sore throat all dat stuff..i hate it..it usually come durin exam time..hated it..but ala..fastin help me to prevent further sickness n im thankful for dat.. haa..alhamdullilah..

tomo emath paper1 n geog paper..haa..sianx..

not in the moood to blog..

see ya guys..

i slept till 12pm men..too tired..haa..luckily tomo paper is english paper 2 n malay paper 2..if not, i die cuz i din study today..too tired..i felt pain in my throat..gosh, guess im gonna be sick..ah..betta don expect too much..

hari raya comin n im seriously felt no mood fer it..i felt sth missing n my mum solve for me the missing part in my heart..it my beloved grandpa..he gone..i felt terrible..the most terible thing is he died at KL..i din even get to see him for one last time..n to go to his grave is like so far...i miss him so much..haix..

well, yest i went to geylang..haa..very fun dok! waitin fer my mum to come back home..den at 330pm she reached..i quickly bath n my mum dressed me up..haa..yeah dress me up..tell u wat, i don noe how to dress up..seriously..in fact i don noe how to use make up even! haa..my mum put on make up n dress me up till i feel sick but oh well, jus to make her happy.

the MRT ride was so damn long..Paya lebar..it like 15 station..damn..haa..i felt so restless men..

the weather is hot but not dat bad la..haa..went to first lady shop to see wat clothes i like..but too bad, im no clothes-freak. i don really like to go shoppin-clothes..totally not interested..haa..but if food..haa..yeah! i was like lookin forward to break fast..my mum was like, ''k la, after break fast, den find clothes for u la..r u sure nth catch your eye?'' yeah..seriously..nth..when empty stomach. haa..

i like the roadside food..my mum was like very angry cuz almost there's no place fer us to eat a sumptous meal..haa..but me n my lil bro said,''no nid la..eat while walkin betta..''haa..my mum behave so kiddly..she kept searchin fer a place..

after i received 250 frm my sch..i spent it like as if it is 1million..i ''belanja'' my family food n pay as much as i can so dat my mum won hav to take out her money..haa..she like,''ah mi(dat wat my family called me), don nid pay la, dat money is for ur sch..''
but still, i spent fer them.haa.

saw my schoolmates n 2 of my pri sch frens..haa..

wow, i like the crowd! haa..my bro was behind me den i like say, ''the person behind me pls don push'' haa..den got one boy beside me says,''sorry'', i replied,'no no, not u..'' den we two smile..somehow, i find him familiar but i cant figure out hu is he..

i got a grey baju kurung..damn nice..haa..it frm the roadside one..nice leh...haa.

i generously bought snacks frm dis small boys..''4 for 10 dollar''...my mum had no small chg so therefore, i bought frm him..my mum gave him 2dollar n he was like so thankful..so poor thing the boy. haix..

gg geylang, my money can really go wild..i kept on donating n buyin..till my wallet had nth..

i dare not tell my mum cuz i don wan her giv me money..i felt bad..i don wan to impose her..

den went home take taxi..too tired to take MRT.

k guys..see ya

muack.

k guys, later ill be off to geylang..now waitin fer my mum to come back frm work..haa..then, me , my mum n my lil bro will have a time of our life at geylang..yeah! haa.. hope will get to meet my sis wit her bf..haa..

hmm, i decided not to go jurong point and see Revalina...cux..i alrdy hav their autograph n it personally somemore..wat more can i ask? furthermore, im not de type of gal hu go all out fer their idol. ..im oso shy to see them..haa..k fine..

haa..the best decision i've made fer my life is to forget dexter..yup..im happy right now..haa! de thing is, i guess i will not fall in love again! haa..too young to say! im only 15 n proud of dat..i must treasure my life. furthermore, dexter is not my kind of guy..he got the look but he don hav the behaviour.. he so crude n he suitable fer dat type of erm...bitchy gals..yeah..no offence..cuz i don noe how to describe..hee.

haa..guys! im back! azmira back..she will no longer be the lazy, dreamy n emo kind of gal..haa..

k then, see ya..

thank you fer reading.
muack!

good news!! i especially got autograph of revalina!!

ok the story goes like dis, my sis's fren, is one of the revalina grp cousin. so, as i am a big fan of them, she got fer me autograph fer them!! yeah..it only said ''especially to azmira''cool!! haa..yeah! i like it!! thx!!

tomo wanna go jurong point to see them? hmm..don noe leh..maeb my mum tot of gg to geylang first den go jp..hmm see first.

but revalina! u rackx!

ji mei you di zhi de xin
zhe yang de qing xu, you zhong ju li

ni fang zhe shei de ge qu
shi zen yang de xin qing, neng bu neng shuo gei wo ting

yu xia de hao an jing
shi bu shi ni tou tou zai ku qi
xing fu zhen de bu rong yi
zai ni de bei jing you wo ai ni

wo ke yi pei ni qu kan xing xing
bu yong zai duo shuo ming wo jiu yao he ni zai yi qi
wo bu xiang you zai yi ci he ni fen li
wo duo me xiang mei yi ci de mei li shi yin wei ni

ji mei you di zhi de xin
zhe yang de qing xu, you zhong ju li

ni fang zhe shei de ge qu
shi zen yang de xin qing, neng bu neng shuo gei wo ting

yu xia de hao an jing
shi bu shi ni tou tou zai ku qi
xing fu ta zhen de bu rong yi
zai ni de bei jing you wo ai ni

wo ke yi pei ni qu kan xing xing
bu yong zai duo shuo ming wo jiu yao he ni zai yi qi
wo bu xiang you zai yi ci he ni fen li
wo duo me xiang mei yi ci de mei li shi yin wei ni

wo ke yi pei ni qu kan xing xing
bu yong zai duo shuo ming wo jiu yao he ni zai yi qi
wo bu xiang you zai yi ci he ni fen li
wo duo me xiang mei yi ci de mei li shi yin wei ni


daphni, wish to meet u.
i hav to be strong. i hav to get on wit life.

So let mercy come,
And wash away…

What I’ve Done.

I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.

Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done.

For What I’ve Done

Naza's voice really rawks! i love it. haa. he my first ever idol. will support him all the way. Revalina rock on!

wah! the sun is killing me!! wat is dis? cubaan...haix..

today, went out early 650am n i din saw see mun on the way to sch..haa..but den i did get to see her half way frm reachin sch..haa...

yest my mood is like damn shit. damn. haa.. watever la.. devil dexter finally shown me his true colours..haa..yeah, i think he's right, i don really noe him well..well, i don even wan to noe him! haa..my mum ever tell me dat malay boys usually are not rich..their pockets are always empty..eeyer...no way will i go fer dat kind..no wonder my mum prefers chinese guys den malay one..hmm..i get it now.. but still im too young to talk abt dis! haa..wanna concentrate on my studies. i must make my family proud. i must go university! i will work hard frm now onwards. mrs chew ever says, i can get dinstinction fer each subject if work hard but if im in love den it will be down to B3..haa..nice.

hanaffi and xueting are right, don ever ever judge its book by its cover! yup guys...this is really true..but when i choosing book dat time, i always look at the cover..well as the saying, old habits die hard.

the term ''anti'' is my word..the meanin of the word is dislike sth or watever. so when i says, i anti-you, means i don like u n fought wit u whenever i can n don agree wit anything dat u say..cool huh me? i event dis word..it my copyright..chey..

i gave Daphni a letter right after i reached sch.she was my dearest senior in Pioneer. gg home dat tym, i hugged her..im feelin damn sad..haix..cant i jus go back the past wit her..haix..Daphni i miss u loads!

english n malay paper 1 was ok...fer malay paper, i wrote a damn sad story..it abt a gal hu had cancer n the parents had to sell her baby brother away to cure her..haix..even i actually cried fer dat story..well, im thinkin of becomin a director..haa!

went home wit don noe why my heart sank. fight wit wenlong again..haix..wen long nowadays keep on gettin angry wit us..haix..

the sun so hot..haa..i was dehydrating..but i must fast..don noe why some of them din fast..last tym when i was in Redhill, i could see no one eating in front of any malay...dey did fast n respect..guess the situation here is different..perhaps im a newbie in Jurong. haa.

i love kids! especially small kids! haa..there one small boy bang on me..i dah la was walkin aimlessly. yest was funny, mdm haslinda asked me during recess, why am i walkin aimlessly..haa.i was alone dat tym..i din noe wat im thinkin..

preparation fer Hari Raya haven done yet. i haven even bought new shirts..haa..guess is the last min thing again..im oso so busy wit my work.

din bring my key so therefore i had to wait outside the gate fer 30min fer my lil bro to come home...sianz...i was readin bk n feelin so tired..i slept like a log till 558pm!! wat the hell! i quickly wash up n go to Pioneer Mall to buy sth fer break fast fer me n my lil bro..haa..only the two of us home..cool huh?reach home at 620 so it only took 20min to pIoneer mall..so fast sia i walk..heehee..

k guys. will update soon. till then take care!

Bon Voyage fer my seniors!

muack.

yeah, i online early in the morning..well is dat so strange? i lived at 650 n how de hell i managed to be in sch on time? haa..

Yes,men, i still like him. but hu cares? n i noe the vice versa will never happen..but i don care. yala. im stubborn n stupid but hu the hell cares? ok watever. pretty angry dis morning. haa. watever. tell u wat, i gave up waitin but i keep on lovin. haa..now dat a nice phrase ive made. woo..my english is gettin betta day by day but all is abt love..hmm..maeb i shld chg topic..haa..but malay ah, bette don say!

yest mornin, i don noe wat happen to me but i sang National Anthem song very loud. as in very! haa..alot of them could hear my voice. haa..i don noe leh..in class, i still singin Majulah Singapura! n mrs seah says, ''why is she so patriotic today?'' damn.

the most embarassin moment is i sang the anthem near the window! lookin out of the window, i sang! n i don noe cikgu nooh was there!!! he says i like a pri 1 kid singin at the window. wah lau!

but, wat so strange abt singin ur own country song?

went library yest till 630pm. went home, jus nice is break fast time. haa.. cool.

8more days to Hari Raya!!

i fast for like hmm...don noe leh..wat i noe is 6 days din fast..haa..

k guys off to sch..see ya!

muack.

hey guys, jus came back frm sch..i was like walkin damn slow frm sch men..so tired.the sun so hot some more..haa..

today, reach sch at 719..cool huh? nxt tym i wan 720..haa! how late can i get? diao. haa.

chem test was super easy the first part den as u go on flippin.....no comment. A math haa! i leave one ques blank. haa..mrs seah was like, ''u giv up huh?''..den i replied, ''not really., but maybe.''..how dumb can i get?

dexter walk in front of me dis mornin! i miss out the chance to say hi!! damn. how blur can i get?

recess time was funny. i was doin my malay hwk, ''formal writing letter''..n damn there so many malay word i don noe!! i saw hanaffi and i quickly asked him,''wat interest in malay?''..at first he was stunned..den he say he don noe..den walk away, suddenly turn back,''azmira! minat!''..den i was like, ya! next word was more but den i managed to ask cikgu..haa..recess over n one word which i quickly think of.''jogging''...wat is the malay word fer it? i ask irshad n he don noe too. diao. k fine. my malay sux. haix, how stupid can i get?

hmm..farhan seems stress...hmm.oh well, how kpo can i get?

mrschew!! don retire leh!! i wan u as my geog teacher!!! oh, how despo can i get?

as i walkin back home, i saw a couple behavin disgustingly..in my mind i was like,''dexter is not dis kind of guy..he a nice lad''..wait. how stubborn can i get?

before gg back home, ill make sure i see dexter first. see how devote can i get?

haa..k guys..wanna take a nap fer a while..see ya!

treasure ur fren n love ur life!

i love only F.F.F in dis world!!

which is family, frens and erm..betta don say!

muack!

Time to update my blog!

wow. it seems really long ever since ive updated. haa..im too busy to go on the comp. haa...ok..many things happen but i don wan mention it all. too long haa.

yest, i was told to give out presentation for the Math stuff. ok. i was alright wit dat as i had overcome my fear on stage, geehaa. den Mrs seah asked me to ask someone hu could help me giv out the prize. as Natasya was beside me dat time, i quickly says, ''Natasya then!''...she was like ''huh??wat?'' mrs seah explain to her n even pulled her to the stage..haa!! funny.

english lesson was boring, cus thomas din come. sianz..i sat alone when i tot of writing a compo of myself titled'''my first love''..haa..fuuny. my fren was like ''wah, so long!'' yeeah..i managed to write dat long fer 1hour. cool huh?

i wrote very big faizmira dat khairul was tempted to see. he took it away while im in toilet. wah lau. i was like scoldin him n he indeed gave me back. hmm..strange..

i like the 2nd floor girls toilet!! everytym recess i will go there...it so strange..haa

on my way back home, at 642 there, a grp of small boys were playing soccer. the ball nearly kena me sia!!! i was like, wah lau. den dey laugh cuz they think i scared. pls lor, im not scared. i jus scared it will kena my file. wah lau. my box file gg to pecah one fine day.

den, fer revenge, i played wit them..surprisingly im able to kick the ball high! woo..there. revenge is sweet.

A math n chem test today. hmm..so bad..

k guys.
tata
muack