Standing proud and alive, current 24 years old me.
today I'm on my last night duty but i just cant sleep. i was busy browsing my old posts in this blog. as i was reading i could literally feel my heart cracks.
and so it has been 3 years? I've moved on for sure but i think the hurt, is still fresh.
a month back i literally thought i found someone, but i guess i wasn't that attractive enough to be with that someone or maybe i just wasn't ready? cause i find myself brushing him off. i was surprised i manage to survive 3 dates with him. and somehow we click but theres just something in him that is so broken. and i find myself I'm just like him so i decided to brush it off and stop myself from developing feelings for him. but then again i think i did the right thing by doing so cause he is just another flirty fellow who flirts with the girls on his fb. i did feel the hurt but i think i was just being sensitive. i protected my heart too much.
i used to chase people whom i like though they don't like me hahaha (shameless i know) but that was before when i had the energy. i guess I'm tired. tired of people not appreciating my existence.
i am definitely there for him but i know he doesn't need me. (sad right i know, cry now)
and so starting from now, i will appreciate those ppl who had been appreciating me and realise my existence. although there are some one that i rejected, to whom it may concern, I'm so sorry but i think we just cannot be together. you know who you are, the one i did not reply you on fb messenger, forget me. I'm sure you'll get a girl thousand times better than me.
I'm sure.
i just want to appreciate the time i have right now with my friends family and my pet.
and just let things go by nature. cause i find it pointless to be the one always making the move. if want to date me, just ask, i will make time for you no matter what. like how I'm trying to slot in my time with my family friends and my pet haha.
and erm, i still haven't lose any weight HAHAHAHAHAHA I SUCKS I KNOW.
okay bye . i will start my diet next week k.
thanks for reading, may you have a good day. :)
