he's got everything i ever wanted, but?

...

i still find to find my place in his diary

((:

haha after 121281263928372 years i haven met them. All things hae changed & grown ((:

to be loved by someone is much better.

someone said : "kau ni syg dier bnyk sgt uhh, dier mane kesah ngan kau.."

i said : "aku tau, aku memang syg dier like no other, but don worry, aku give up. it's such a torture, such a pain. aku surrender, aku tak nak chase after dier. aku give up.

MIRA, THX FOR LIKING AN ASS LIKE ME.

): it was ytd, u showed me who you are. i don believe myself who u actually are. but i know im sooo blinded by you. it's time to finally give you up. ): i wish you never exists. or maeb jus wish tat you never had to bang on me ytd. n u din even apology. ): let alone look at me. you don give a damn ): you don.

starts now!

ok, let's begin THE REVISION.

i will prove to you, tat i deserve you.

done nothing today! went out! ((:

don worry i will start, i know its near, i will not get distracted. i promised to myself. (Y)

what is my aim in life?

Me, Mira Kitara had been hit by love 3 times & many times failed. HAHAHA. joke or wat, but seriously, im tired of love. nyehahs. yeahh. i realise guys change heart soo easily, yet seems hard for a girl to. :( wth. haha. oh well, it's life. Life has always been unfair towards the girls. For example, India & China where the girls are often being discriminated. Also include, Afghanistan. okay, im sooo into GEOGRAPHY rite now. haha, well, you know sometimes i really wanna be a clone, someone wit no feeling, wit the heart soo numb, tat even one could never feel anything, let alone happiness.

I observed them, well, my previous ex. And i thought to myself, was i really happy back then? Was it meant to be? Why does things happen this way? haha. wtf, in one moment, he can say, he love you & forever be with you, in another, he fall for someone else. why does girls always have to suffer? No matter what, girls suffer the most in relationship. why cant guys understan that? haix.

i like him. i really really like him. i like him like no other. i like him till i can forgo other guys for him. i never felt tis way before, yet i know, he's not meant for me, if we are meant to be, we will be meant to be. My previous ex'es, i really has nth to say. All i can say is,

"cuz we were both young, when i first saw you"

Sometimes, i feel like the past is no longer important to me. I feel like im heading and getting nearer & nearer to my aim. i wish to work in hospital, now that i had my Alevel cert coming, i shall aim on my degree/diploma. i shall find someone with the same level as me. yeah. ^^ haha. haiya random. PRELIM 2 IS NEAR! hahah effing near. but oh well, putting as much effort as i can! i will focus! ((:

i feel extreme sad for my fren, lily, i really hope she is okay, n YY, pls take care, do cramp your brain wit tooo much stuff okays. kirin? hahaha, she's always by my side, so i need not worry hahah((: i have not been seeing my other frens lately, but im sure & ive made a promise to go out & spend the lost time tgt.

after A's, im going confess my feelings for him. rumours have been moving around, i bet he don noe whether its true or not, nevertheless, i will try & do it! hahs. Prom nite im sssoooooo looking forward!! i really like hiM! HAHAHA, I WANNA CHANGE FOR HIM. HAHA eating SAKURA wit the sept babies DEFINITELY WORTH MY TIME. ((:

Im going to mug & just drown myself in studies. I gotta be focus, especially in achieving my career. ^^ haha, ive got aim, ive got family, ive got awesome frens, life's too good for me, & definitely ive got life ((:

thanks to you you & you people who make me smile ((:

Seriously, you can love anybody, but really no one will love you the way i do.

my fav boy in ijc

everyone needs a shoulder to cry on,

everyone need a fren to rely on,

oh when your whole world is gone,

i'll be there when you need a shoulder to cry on,

i'll be there when you need a fren to rely on.

i will.

all i ask, is to give me a chance to be by ur side and your permission to let me stay.

things are ok. My family is awesome. Frens are gereks much! Studies is coping & struggling hard & well enuf. Love? hmmmm i just want to know, who he likes, and then, i give him up. is tat sooooo difficult? ): haiz. all i wan is to get over him, well, maybe i do, but maybe im not. )): sian ttm ahhhh i see him in school everyday oso i never get sian. haixxxxxx...who u like mann...

AHHHHHH TMR MATH TIMED TRIAL. YEAH, WISH ME LUCKS.

Chaos.

do you know?

do you know?

when you're sad, im sad too.

do you know?

when you're broken, im broken too.

do you know?

when you're smiling, im smiling too.

do you know?

when you're in front of me, i feel im the happiest gal in the world, altho is just by lookin at you.

do you know?

when you glum, i glum too.

do you know?

i feel shy, whenever you look at me.

do you know?

when you're around, i feel like i am an attention seeker.

do you know,

when your frens are wit you, makin you laugh, i feel at ease & same time laugh at ur joy.

do you know?

when you're not around in school, i will look for you.

do you know,?

when you missing someone else, here i am missing for you.

do you know?

i love you very much, maybe as much as you love her.

do you know?

i pray so we will be meant to be.

do you know?

im waiting for you.

tata, time to mug!

MUGGING DAY!

): ive made a vow.

now i need to fulfill it.

SAVE THE EARTH PEOPLE

so poor thing.

im glad i studied Advanced Geography.

or not, i am ignorant about how the Earth suffers like you guys.

panic!!!!!

ok, now is the time to get PANIC!

OMG ALEVEL IS NEAR ALEVEL IS NEAR ALEVEL IS NEAR ALEVEL IS NEAR ALEVEL IS NEAR ALEVEL IS SOOOOOO FREAKING NEAR! THAT'S IT MIRA, NO PHONE NO SMS NO FACEBOOK.

ok maeb, phone jus listen to music, don sms alot. facebook? maybe once per week. maybe every sunday! every sunday when i've done everything for the week. yeah.

den i think is time to start on prelim papers & tys. yeah. n getting mindmaps done, n consolidate, all in 2 months time till

ALEVEL! OMG IS NEEEEAAAARRRRRR!

THOSE WHO READ MY BLOG, WAKE UP WAKE UP! NO MUCH TIME LEFT!! GO PLAN NOW!

things to be done from now till Alevel :

1. Pay FULL attention in tutorials & lectures

2. Complete work to be done before going to lectures & tutorials.

3. Plan ahead for the week.

4. ((: Smile more often & get close touch wit teachers.

5. Consolidate my learning & make sure i understand clearly.

6. Practice more & don waste any precious time now!

PRELIM 2! final chance!

never expect it, cuz it wont be expected.

someday, i'll find someone who deserve my heart, n who deserve my life. someone's worthwhile.

im not gonna wait anymore.

i got my life to focus on.

focus focus & just focus!

tis is just for my inspiration ((:

i must focus! i must.easier said than done, but oh well, i manage to craft my study timetable alrdy ((: maeb, tis is alrdy my 28132623123723086 times of planning but i really hope i follow it along the way. Its only 3 MONTHS. yeah. *wink* ((:

I LOVE ME! so im gonna chg my habit & control my diet, i must control & adopt a healthy lifestyle (: its fasting month le! wooooohooo! ((: i believe i can do it! ^^ yeahs!

Prelim 2 is near, & GP prelim 2 is NEARER. haven really doone anything for GP yet, well, now its time to buck up! not too late but not too much time left. yeah, bear tat in mind, from now, every min, every sec, every tick-tock is CRUCIAL. ahahaha. who giv a damn bout my surrounding, all i know now, i must ace it all ((:

Insyaallah, i can make it to course which i FAVOUR next year.

Amin

To all Muslims out there!

SELAMAT BERPUASE DALAM BULAM RAMADHAN INI. SEMOGA DOA-DOA KAMU SEMUA TERCAPAI ((:

18 years and still counting

HAPPY 45TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY EVERYBODY!

i, nur azmira bt mohd jalil am proud to live as a pure Singaporean in Singapore for the past 18years of my life. Although life for me has been ups & downs, i will never give up for i know my family & friends are here living safely in Singapore.

Thanks to her, there's NO war, earthquake hurricanes cyclones (except flood la) HAHAHA. I LOVE YOU SINGAPORE! N I PROMISE TAT I WILL WORK FOR THE SOCIETY! ((: and we can all foresee that in future there will be many aged people, aged singaporeans, i more than willing to take care of them ((: i will serve my country.

i shall aim myself as a radiographer & work in hospital to serve SINGAPOREANS patients ((:

since young, i LOVE to smell the atmosphere of the hospital & i told myself that someday i will be working in hospital to help patients and cure people. I have my own profession & i shall show to others that i can make it! i can make a difference!

In 3 months times, ALEVEL will come, my focus shall only be ALEVEL. i will exercise my brain & myself to produce AWESOME results so that im able to get into the courses i've been wanting(:

This is home, where my family lives for years, where my forefathers lives. We are not immigrants for this is where we belong. The sand, the soils belongs to us. Singaporeans not immigrants. HAHAHA.

I LOVE MY COUNTRY. THIS IS MY COUNTRY.

when you're right, no one remembers, but when you're wrong, no one forgets.

for the past 2 days of holidays, ive been doing math!

today, i shall start on my chemistry! topic : ionic equlibrium.

apart from tat, i oso will be doing some of geog tut!

yyyyeeeeaaaaaahhhh(:

ytd went to watch THE LAST AIRBENDER wit my brother. It was JUST AWESOME. HAHAHA looking FORWARD TO BOOK TWO : Earth. *wink*

k bye!

i want you, but u like her and i don want him.

:/ was shocked when saw mr lee jk cried just now. oh well, i can really tell now, he really had tried his best . sianx. HAHA, nvm mr lee, we, the 0924A will make you proud de! ((:

ok, today! whole day spent with stupid filling! damn! so many workshits sia. damn! n i realise i got not enuf file :/ sian ttm. haiyaaaaaaaahhh hmmph!

i must get started to getting serious for my A's not too late, but not much time left. yeah!

sooooooo gonnnnnaaaaaa score!

(well we shall see k)

*wink*

you are not with me but her ):

so much truths i noe. :/ im soo hurt & sad & depressed.

nobody can talk to me about it.

im sick again :/ my throat damn pain sia when i cough. sick of this man. ):

haix, stress gonna take medi n sleep.

good nites ppl.

i know wat to do in life now.

Everybody has a secret. And tat secret you never know. yeaaahhhh ((:

today the 6 institutions came my school and im sooooo interested in radiographer & occupational therapist. hell yeahh gonna work hard for it! ((: altho is at NYP, i don giv a damn for my face as long as i gotten my cert^^

HAHA ((: tats it, im gonna spend my life working in the hospital! :D my aim!

yyyyeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh((:

tonight! gotta crap math the whole night. HAHA, ok i noe math need my attention but i kinda love geog alot now. gowri ROCKS TO THE CORE. HOT MAMA YYYEEAAAAHHHH(((:

workin n struggling hard for CHEM! OMG! :S

i must score le. tis time Prelim 2 is a NO-NO PLAY PLAY LE. nyehahaha, call me nerd or watever, i wannna be the tops.

^^

n stupid guys, if i catch ur the one hu bully my BESTFREN, JUS WATCH OUT! stupid uncultured childish boys.

he looked at me :/ n i sooo want to smile at him, but i gotta control myself in case he got the wrong idea. tough, yeah, but i reallly wannna chase him after my A's. other guys aside, shall jiu him only!!! hahaha, crazy nia me. yeah i am :/ never jiu any guys in my life before, definitely he's the first, n i really seriously truly, L him.

k gotta chiong for math now!

*wink*

people are so faked now. F IT.

Back then was O's. Now is freaking A's.

Fcuk it, my standard for math is getting lower & lower. F man. damn bullshit, i must must buck up le. shall think of a way to improve. for those whoever looks down on me, look down as much as you wan, but i assure u it wont be for long.

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My family.

Thankfully, i got mama, nenek, abg, kakak, adik n snickers. the way my brought up is not for anyone to decide. I know myself perfectly whether or not im in the wrong or right. i know myself whether my frens are sincere in their helping hands. i know myself who are my right & best frens. I know myself wat i am. I know myself my weakness, my strength. So u don have to put me down that way. u don know me, my family, my background, my past, my upbringing, so don judge me OR don put anybody in my shoes. cuz its MINE. get it? MINE. F U.

k im done here. damn pissed by some fakers. actually many fakers.

*pissed*

i don need you anymore

gonna start crackin NOW! ((: