SELF-REFLECTION

hey guys. yeah. the title says it all.
i got self-reflection to do.


As i woke up tis mornin, i looked thru the window.
Sun shine brightly at me.
Its another day for me living in tis world.


i have been living in tis world for the past 17years of my life.
Yet things aren't getting better.
Oh mira, why things always goes bad for you?

I rmbr when i was born, life was not good.
My mum suffers and many things happen.
Ups & downs,
I managed to survive and live innocently.


I went pri sch, wher life begins.
I began to venture out places wit my frens , i began to make good frens.
But good frens are not always by ur side,
there will be bound to be a day, whereby u had to seperate wit them and start makin a new good fren.


I went sec sch, wher hell life begins
PMS is always my problem
Loads of trouble day by day
but i always got a good fren stand by me
but like wat i jus said, good frens will not be wit u all the time
you tend to seperate and begin to make another good fren.
but as i graduated from tat sch, im no longer an ordinary gal, not who i am.not innocent as i was.
i belonged to someone else. And tat is my first ever boy who chg me for the worse.


tat boy chg me to challenge my family and frens.
he chg me entirely till i betrayed my good frens.
he made me walked to the wrong path.
i was ignorant.
till Olevel results came, i reflected.


i was lucky tat i can make it to JC tho im behaving like a bitch.
im determined to chg my life & Allah let me found an angel, mayb a good soul who freed me away from my stucked life.
but i was stupid. i din cherish him enuf. love betrayed me and him. i stil love tat bad boy.

And then we went seperate ways, i stil cant forget. but i noe myself, i aint an innocent gal.
i rmbr how much pampered i was. and then i realised, i don noe wat love is. i don noe tat love had destroyed my life entirely.

JC started, i starts made another good frens and things were fine till he came back in my life again.
mayb she's right. i am a ****
but i don noe.
i don noe wat i wan
i don noe wat i need
im lost confused.
till i did badly for exams.
and then i reflected.
I DON NEED HIM ANYMORE IN MY LIFE.

my laziness conquer me.
my attitude irks me.
i hate myself.
but i love deep inside me.
im contradicting.
but thats my life.
is contradiction.

Thruout my life, 17 whole years, i believe its love tat chg me.
i wanna go back, back to the past, and then i chg everything.
but its impoosible.
however, its possible to self-reflect, & do watever i shd.

i need to change. mira. you hav many supporters. if im falling, ther ppl ard u to catch u.
i lost many things in life.
tis year, i lost many things in sch. Yet, i do not learnt my mistakes.
but i guess,
i learnt tis time.

I had LEARNT many things in life.
MORE than Others had.

its up to me to accept it.

i. don. wan. be. a. bad. gal.

MISSING PHONE

Don miss me, frens.

CURRENT LIFE

i love sch.

i love teachers.

i love frens.

i love good frens.

i love 0924A

i love JC life.

NO REGRETS! :D

hey guys update((:

firstly, i would like to thank all my frens for givin me support & good encouragement. i felt damn touched and lucky to hav u guys. (u noe hu r)

yest was self-reflection day for me.

im quite prepared for the worst. im sure i had done and tried my best.

so yeah. heh (;

to my darl new fren : u noe wat? ur soo sweet plus understandin n baikk gilerrr & i noe we can be a better than frens(:

thx for makin me smile oso((:

heh. kk enuf mira.

tomo sch and im so not lookin forward. instead im worry abt PW and malay now. hmph. okay fine. i better get started..

if i hav a wish, i wish i had met them sooner. i love you guys <3

i failed miserably for all my exams..

die.

i think i retain.

i feel so ashamed of myself.

i may be smiling.

but deep down

i feel terrible. :(

im in shocked.

im in despair.

im disappointed.

im angry

yet confused

and afraid

that things will not flow the way i wanted.

im in a state that nobody noes.

GOOD DAY PEEPS :)

hey, its been very long i updated. heh. as in proper update. rite? hah. miss u guys(:

well, MCE was over n now jus focus on PW & Malay Alevel tat is to come:)

today's plan is :

meet yunyi ( supposed to meet to jog but today's weather sux mann! )

do PW at lily's house.

so, yunyi went to my hoouse to chill for a while & then went to JP to shop & (let pic talk abt tis k?)

den, meet michael & steph and together we go lily's house.

To sum up, i had my day (:

heh

*open big big*

den we went to dressing room...

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love my hair

:* yeh

i look fat.

hah

haik!

yahh.

heeee

yuppss

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OHHHHH
dizzyyy & stresss

let it out.

SEE MY EYES
SEE US

HAD LOTS OF FUN.

cant wait for tomo, it will be me, kirin & yunyi celebrating natasha's birthday(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASHA!! (((::

Mic is right, i had my mates still. today we finished OP slides. im glad for all of us. lily house is damn ncie though it can be quite stuffy. heh but its ok (: jurong mah. hah. pity steph. she always the last to reach home. aww.. haahaks.

cant wait for tomo. YUNYI, i love you :D

die for geog. been killed by chem.

forget about gettin a PASS for physic.

Not an A for math

screwed up malay & gp

i realise my days are not great lately. and my heart is not stable at all.i realised im feelin too much and too sensitive. time for me to stand on my feet & respect myself so ppl wil respect me. yup2. i must pass my PROMOS wit flying colours and completely change myself. yup yup. im determined man!


my hair is long now. so loved it (: haahaks.

he's cool

im cool

WE'RE SCREWED!!

my promo starts on 7oct. my bro psle oso 70ct. wow.

good luck and all the best for both of us ("


we can do it!

im a bad gal rite now. watever i do its jus not rite. im not wat u think. i forbid myself to surrender to love. i don deserve any love except my family. i began to think. he came back ruining my life. now, i came back to him ruinin his life next.



i seek avenge. he ruins my life my entire life, my entire family life badly. bear tat in mind azmira. never forgive him.

yes. true. i love you. but you ruin my life. i wont forgive tat. and ikin, karma is on to ur way.

i'll do what i can to ruin ur life. i swear.

A-Math

A- Geog

A- PhYsic

only aim :p