many many love~

glad to have them .

harsh but good.

i'll make sure is blood to blood.

i'll seek revenge.

i will.

now i know how it feels like to be in darkness.

welcome me,

HELL.

life change,

one thing about us :

we cant smile.

(: had a gd time wit my bro. awesome (Y)

primary school reunion(:

PRIMARY SCHOOL OUTING SIOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.!

woohooohooooo^^ have awesome time with them(: really happy to see them having fun and talking to each other.

frenship never ends.

many many love

JC PROM

prom was sedimentary (:

Atok was uber cute! he sang on the stage and upon seeing me watchin him, he wave at me! so sweeet!

After tonight, i shall change cuz my wish has fulfilled.

HEH i learnt to let go, and start anew & start afresh.

So tmr, wat's next? JOB INTERVIEW!

haha shall update my tis loved blog more often now. see ya

nite guys!

the earth is moving, but i cant feel the ground.

Been waiting for you more than a year, a few weeks should be nothing ba :/

giving up?

this morning, as i woke up to study my chem, i tot to myself, if only ive done my tutorials, n practice regularly, and done well for prelims , all my prelims,maybe i wouldn have freaked out like i am now. if only, i listen to my teachers, if only i don take every exam for granted, if only i don and fool around, if only im more serious wit my schoolwork, if only i know wat i plan ahead for my future early, if only i just focus& do my work, if i only i work hard starting from day one. if only, if only..

but it's too late now.in 2 hours time, im officially having my Alevel Chem paper 3. how time flies. i just finished my entire notes, but i felt is not enough. felt super disappointed man. thinking abt yesterday of how my mum giving me support, altho im late for my paper. im damn touch. im abt to cry. but i know i gotta be strong for my paper. it's my last and only chance. today, 30min to memorise all those formulas & organic chem stuff. i think im half prepared but i gonna give my shot anyway.

ytd geog? was just ok. i don expect much. i jus berserah. tats wat im goin to do. jus berserah. cume Allah swt yg tau how my life works. 18 years ive been living in this world, i felt like centuries & u noe wat? ive been living in a dark world. haha. i have so much love actually. my mum, my late dad, my bros and my sis plus my grandma. now wat am i lacking? nth beats family's love. really. nothing. i have friends tat stick wit me, n im so grateful.

im on the verge of giving up. but im not going to give up. i know im mentally tired. physically tired. am so tired. but the support. its more den i ever wish to have. my brother givin me a sign of not to give up & jus give my best shot. "try ur best mira" ): thinking of it. i feel so sad. i suddenly tot of my responsibility towards this family. my family din give up. so why shd i give up? jus like tat? no way. 444 dollars my mum paid this cert of mine. why shd i give up? unless Allah swt stops me and wish me to repeat so i could do better, tats a different thing. i shdn give up now. mira don give up. don give up. 9 more papers to go. u can do it.

yes i can do it. heh . i can do it. not gonna give up. my family don give up. why shd i waste her time & effort? yeah, 2 years. u go mira.

im worried for my results.

i want to REALLY start now.

im willing do anything. from now onwards, i wont be the same anymore.

I WILL WORK HARD!

FCUK MUCH?

DON BOTHER MSG ME. I CHG MY NO. ONLY MY LOVED ONES SHALL NOE.

I HAD ENUF OF PPL CONTROLLING MY LIFE. THANKS.

hmm/:

i cant blog after this post. it's 3weeks time to my ALEVELS. YYYYEEEAAAAAAHHHH (:

anw, i noe who is the nicest guy in this world. n i think im setting my eyes on him. n he's smart ): im not. tats it, i wan work hard, n score alevel. so at least, i can share my awesome result to him. n get a topic to talk about. hmmm /: before any gals got him, i wanna get him first. i think only him has opened my heart. yup. him. not isk anymore. but him. isk is just too perfect for me. i dislike perfection n im tired of his egoness. yeah(y) him is better (y) like like LIKE!

n he replied my msg n he helped me in chem. so thankful. know wats a good guy now. yeah. he cant run away from me, im chasing him. n i will! :D

MOOD IS BACK. thanks to pineapple boy. (:

is it me?

is it me or im just being sensitive that everyone surrounds me seems to neglect my existence? ): haix. nehmind. it's just 3 more weeks to alevel. never gonna let that affect me. (Y) mira go go go! jia you!

)): haix.

alevel :/

im not confident for my alevel. i know i have yet to finish revising n time is not helping me. im scared :/ i have so much sins dirtied on my hands. so many sins. it's me alone, to improve myself. im scared. :( ya allah, tolong la aku. i feel so distracted lately n i know this is not the right time to be. but i cant help it. my heart filled so cold & numb. n im sick T___t i hate myself, i know ppl all round keep reminding me to study): haix, im gg out wit mama ltr. i jus need companion. ): 2 more weeks to A's. wat am i gonna do??

haix. ):

JIAYOU MIRA. JIAYOU MIRA. I MUST BE CONFIDENT OF MYSELF. (Y) YEAH. i can do this.

Problems after one another.

i hate myself like really. tis year, jus pass very fast. i'll miss everything. ):

gonna chiong my way till alevel. really chiong. haix. other problems i shall jus put aside, gonna focus focus n focus. determination!

i am determine to do WELL for a's. yeah. (Y)

COME ON MIRA, JIA YOU JIA YOU! :D

):

aku totally no mood for anything.

life

1 month time, im having my ALEVEL. this is it. this is my cert which im gonna take. tis is it. Jia you mira. (:

why? just why?

): haix. guys i'll change my no soon cause i hate using the current no. will give to those i really know.

This year, 2010 ): tough luck. k bye!

Many things in life are beyond our control— particularly the behavior of other people. Rather than stressing out over them, focus on the things you can control such as the way you choose to react to problems.

life, wat a joke?

i'll change my no soon. only my closest friends shall know about it. i really love my this no, but am gonna change it soon. yeah. ((:

no use crying over spilled milk. im gonna pull through this. i am. mira, uve gotta face this problem urself. ur life, ur exam is coming. u can do it. GIVE UP IS THE WORSE THING EVER TO DO THAT IN LIFE. never regret, cuz if so, den how u grow? things happen for a reason. im gonna face the music & shall live my life fulfillingly till the end when i heaved my last breath.

im a muslim person, i shall stay true to myself. im strong & i can do this. i can do this. im 18, a grow up person. i can do this. (:

I HATE YOU FOR RUINING MY LIFE LIKE THIS.

mira? azmira? who?

truly speaking,

i don know who am i anymore.

i don see my reflection.

i don believe my life.

seriously,

im not sure wat i wan.

im indecisive.

im naive.

im foolish.

i don know. i don know.

only thing i hold on to,

is my religion,

pls keep me strong to survive this ordeal.

pls. show me e rite person the rite way.

PLS.

frens,families, him! wat more can i ask?

I LOVE ALL MY IJC FRENS! MWAH MWAH! SO GONNA MISS THEM AFTER A'S.

*SIGH*

happy day!

i met booboo & i LOVE HIM ((:

happy 18th to me! ((:

20 SEPT IS HERE! & in abt 40 min time, my birthday will end. ((: LOVE TODAY.

first of all, i wanna thank my family for a happy family & celebrating my birthday wit KFC meal & oreo CHEESECAKE. ((:

Secondly, i would like to thank thank my friends who wishes me thru smses(especially rite late in the nite while waiting for 12am of 20sept) & FB.. ((: love you guys. thanks for that warm wishes.

Thirdly, i would like to thank kirin & yunyi for your cake OREO CHEESECAKE! YUMS! ((: n of course my awaiting & expecting present from you guys ((: hehs.

Fourthly, to my shisha, derder & lala, thank you for such a wondeful pinky box ((: i much appreciate that you guys put effort on it((: LOVE IT ALOT SEH.

five, thank you Allah s.w.t for making me live in this world for 18 years alrdy ((:

Summarise for today ((:

my pinky boxy ((:

from : derder, shisha, lala

love their cheesecake! #1 cheesecake

#2 cheesecake from kirin & yunyi OREO!

Yunyi's letter ((:

cute rite?

my sis bought this frm body shop (:

#3 cheesecake OREO! HAHA ((: family love

heheheh i know i willl have more presents coming up! cannot wait! ((: hehe anw those who makes me smile today, thank you sooo much! ((: much love man! :D

hahahahahahahhahahahahahaahha.

ive had so much love from family & friends. wat more can i ask? heh heh ((:

Life is a bliss, if u see urself tat way ((:

i don feel like tmr is my birthday ):

im hurt, im in pain, im crying, do you care?

i think im a fool, i feel like im a foolish, do you care?

i think im stupid, do you care?

i think im an idiot, do you care?

yeah, all you care is about you, YOURSELF.

all you care about is yourself.

Oh god, why do i land myself in such a mess?

Why on earth did i say yes?

Why i met you?

Meeting you is like good & bad.

i think bad ones outweigh the goods.

i hate you. but do you care?

you seems not to care about anything,

n i seems a stupid fool, who cares alot.

i care others too much instead of myself.

i cant even take care of myself, yet i can take care of others.

never would i have thought to be so selfless.

i think this world doesn pay to be nice.

It's time to be selfish.

cough, flu, fever sux. my mum said, being sick, wash away my sins, im glad im sick.

FCUKED UP.

fcuked up. like seriously. fcuked up! fcuked up!

damn fcuking angry wit someone rite now, n damn i knw my bro not gonna trust me anymore. really fcuk sakk. don know why im in this trap hole. fcuk fuck fcuk FCUK LA. cb.

CHICKEN.IM SICK. LIKE ANOTHER WTFFFFFFFFFF SAK. fcuk. FUCK!

GGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

i cant even mug or study. fcuk ttm. jus fcuk. fuck. fcuk! -.-

im neither your gf or your wife or someone fcuking related to you!

n damn im fcuking sick now! gaaaahhh! need see DOC ASAP.

FCUUUUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

*SIGH* nvm, nice rite my collage? love it loads. heh.

k bye.

im sick. awesome kan?

aiyo, i feel so stress. stress until ive gotten sick :/ im sick. yeah, im sick. NO! my birthday coming((: must try get well soon baby! :D yeah. hahahaha.

k physic paper was :/ speechless. nvm, gotta focus on chemistry now! yeah! (Y)

im really tired waiting for someone. i really don wish to continue waiting, i think i just go along with wat i have now. yeah, one should always be thankful and grateful ((:

haiya, gonna take medi & sleep.

nite!

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YOU, forget about me missing you.

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OFFICIALLY TIRED.

im so proud ive got true friends, do you?

an old pic. but i loved it. ((: remembering the times, when my love for math is strong. & now, im trying to get tat momentum, i love math, and will get A or B for it. ((:

today! im not sure :/ i think i study math whole day & abit of chem. heh. have to score for chem paper1 &2. if not, i die. hahahaha

kla, don wanna waste more time, i love my life, i aint gonna give up!

so many things to do after A's.

ive gotta work. ive gotta take driving licence. ive gotta go out wit friends (pri/sec/jc) ! yay! hahahaha. cant wait.

k chao.

p.s still waiting for someone to msg me, but haix, im just gonna put that off.

i've found true friendship, have you?

thank you wong yy for giving me such a love card ((: really really make my day. :D n giving presents to my two other bestfriends today really ease me((: n meeting my another bestfriend really make my day((: im happy today, alhamdullilah. hahah so in love wit my bestfriends, i've found true friendship man! after waiting for 18 years ((: they are all ive got, n im gonna stay strong. stay strong mira! Lige goes on! Move it move it! HAHA ((:

yeah! just now papers was ok. cant finish tho but oh well ive tried my best (:

tata! time to study math! COMPLEX! haha

thanks for waiting

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO THIS DEAREST OF MINE ((: LIKE SERIOUSLY.

i cant live without her. :D

nyehahahahahahah one of the person whom i cant live without is her! ((:

she's the best. always thought of others before herself.

as nonsensical as me.

as kind-hearted & easily-to-forgive person as me.

see? mostly her character is like me!

so tats why WE CLICK

altho the first time we met. we seems to don really like each other :/ hahahaha. wat a joke! ((:

so kirin, sth is awaiting for you, and no amount of words can tell you how much i love you. so yeah, i love you & hope you have a great day today! :D

SELAMAT HARI JADI KEPADA TEMANKU YG ISTIMEWA ((:

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so today? heh, i will mug Atmo, Hydro & Litho. One more day for miracle to happen. i shall pray & hope tat i can do the first paper tmr . ((:

insyaallah.

a new beginning where i realized to cherish (:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN :D

To all my beloved families &bestfriends & friends ((:

today plan (hahaha kirin gonna so roll eyes when i type tat) PLAN! first thing first, go visit my father's grave and shall pray for him (: den, go eat with family! den, visit my grandma's house & get to see all my cousin! weeehooo! :D

haha lastly,i love my life & shall live life to the fullest day by day ((:

insyaallah i get to achieve my desired result for Alevel :D

THANKS EVERYBODY WHO LOVE ME & TREAT ME LIKE THEIR OWN KIND. ((:

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTFRIEND ANG LILY! ((:

she never fail to advice good stuff to me. she never fail to accompany me home( cuz we both live same area, JURONG) she's one of my perfect bestfriend list, n she's like no other. her "elder sis" character is so amazing. she may be small but her heart is BIG AND GIGANTIC! LOVE HER TO THE MAX :D

HOPE TODAY IS YOUR BESTEST 18TH BITHDAY :D

sth is waiting for you :D get it on mOn k? Enjoy today lily ang! :D

P.S lily is the gal on the right. Like duh-.- rite. i know but some ppl stil mistaken it.HAHAH :D

:)

i dont get jealous when i see my ex with another girl, because my mum taught me to share my old toy with the less fortunate.

-md.fir.

((: happy! syukur alhamdullilah. (:

cherish

today i come school ((:
i look around, and walk around.

i thought to myself, why do i come here? why am i landed in this place? and then, i think about wat ive done all this time in IJC. questions mentioned still lingering in my head.

n den, i come to the school library. the librarian smiled at me ((: and they were all very nice. im the only one in the library, i feel peace & quiet. i feel at ease. The quiet place makes me feel calm. I like the atmosphere. i like libraries. ((: i settled myself down on a table, 2nd floor. it was horrendously quiet cause im the only student there :D i love it. haha. i tot to myself, wat am i supposed to do? Oh consultation later so i prepare myself for that.

Few minutes later, a pretty bubbly beautiful, once a hello-goodbye fren, n a parade square neighbour, nurul came to my desk & studied with me. never would i have thought she would. tats when i realised, im not alone. tats when i realised, everybody else is reaching out to their success. The library is cold, but her company was warm. Its amazing, how so much effect it can be, just that when she came to my side, i feel warm. it's friendship. n tats when i realized, friendship brings courage. I never told her my problems ive had, my sorrows, eventually, it is all gone. it seems i forgotten about yesterday the yesterday the yesterday news, n eventually looking forward to the present. ((:

ive also realized to not always expect your bestfriends to be there for you. Actually, anybody, anyone can give you a smile ((: she may not know how much impact she gave me, but truthfully, im not close to her but thanks to her, my heart once again revived, n i love school ((: yeah, i used to give up on school. but no more :D

thank you nurul humairak. im not sure whether you'll read this, but u make my day. im so geared for prelims now. yeah!

So, let me answer those questions mentioned above. why i come IJC? Because i want to attain an ALEVEL cert. why am i landed in this place? Because i had a chance in attaining that cert. wat i've done? been wasting time, been failing, been skipping class, been procrastinating, been complacent, been good, been rude, been all my bad side. hahah, but im good now. i am.

but know wat?

i need time, to heal this pain still.

i need time, to change myself.

i need time, to be ME.

did i do anything wrong? ):

things had happened and i cant erase it. )): i feel like a sucker. seriously D: today is the last day of puase yet i cant seem to enjoy it.

i feel cheated & guilty & regret. & ): really. been crying & i really don noe who to turn to. i don wan them know the stupidity in me. im so stupid. hell really stupid.

he got feelings for u but y is it so hard for me to tell him that i do have feelings for him? in fact, i turn & shut myself off. misery or wat. )): n up till now, he din reply. i seriously has nth to say...i think im jus too kind. very kind. i don noe. )): but i noe we're so not mean to be..

fren, why u don reply me? i feel miserable know. so sad & been crying. where are you my fren? at least reply me, if u just reply me, i will do anything. like really.

im hurt & no one can see. im sad & no one can help. im miserable & no one knows how i feel.

)): I think im just angry wit myself, tats why i feel miserable.

i don mind. i just gonna live my life happily((:

((:

you can hear me cry again

i hate you! aku benci kau!

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.

why am i doing this?

it's irony tat.. nehmind. it's just irony.

I just wanna go school, do my stuff, do my exam and go back home. ): i just felt neglected these days. sigh. i seriously am confused & lost. Im like drowning in the ocean. )): i just need someone to take my hand to get out from this obstacles. Whenever it's near Hari Raya, i would think of my late grandpa and of course, stepfather. No one is ever as nice as them. Come to think of it, i seriously don know who to turn to although i reach out my hand to everyone who needs me. But when i have a problem, i really don know who to turn to. Really.

I just feel used & tires of social life. Today, ive studied Complex No (part 1 & 2) only & abit of hydro and organic chem. Guess tmr, i must level up my amt of work. Been skipping alot of lessons lately, well :/ i really have no mood to come to school every now & then. I just wanna stay home & become caveman & mug like hell.

Been mugging, worrying, sickly, saddening & busy spring-cleaning the house. Just wanna help my mum(: next week monday is physical paper & chem paper 3. i must prepare for that.

jiayou mira! don let them look down on you!

trust me, im different now thanks to you.

Im empty.

No substance, no flavour.

tat's why u despised me.

Fine, i'll get out from your way.

Go, & have a safe journey.

i will change myself.

And let you see

tat i have substance,

i have fruitful flavour.

And i deserve to be your fren, fren.

i need to do this.

Life, what's life without problems? What's life without regrets? What's life without plans? What's life without religion? What's life without with the one you love? What's life without family? What's life without dreams? What's life wtihout food? What's life without goals? What's life without amibition? N lastly, what's life? What is my purpose in life?

The last question is what i have been pondering & probbing about for 18years of my life. I was born as a Muslim who have to obey & continue to regard Allah s.w.t as my God. He gave me life. He gave me chance & hope to experience the life on Earth. Challenges & obstacles are what He had given me. This is my belief & what i believe. Basically, what i have been taught since young. Yes, religion keeps me strong.

This year i faced many challenges. I fought with my family & bestfriends. I behave like as though the world is in my hand, i take love for granted. I don bother bout people who love me, who wants the best & good for me. I heck them. My first ex bf will never leave me alone although i have told him MANY times to go away. he jus wouldn. haix. wat can i do? I shall just mute about it. My second, had moved on with his life & im happy for him((: really, but still i just despised his character now. i see him, i jus cant believe myself falling for tat kind of guy again. NO WAY. haha. my third, was a play. Its just an act, our love is a PLAY. like there' director who cut our show after one month. What a waste of time. Few things ive regret in life but i don wan mention it, cuz i really regret & just wanna forget about it.

I have a family whom i love very much & ive studied all the way for them. Actually i don know why, but i wan to live alone. nevertheless, i know im a malay girl, a malay person is known to love the family very much, and take care of them. I do love them, i do want to take care of them, it's just certain small situation tat me make it up a big one caused me to lose confident wit myself to take care of them. haixxx.

I had many friends. From pri to JC to new friends. And they were all just awesome. Ive found extremely best buddies in JC (: i guess one of the greatest thing i come JC is to meet those awesome fren and gradually become BESTFRIENDS((:

I have a crush in my school. A huge big crush, a crush tat lasted for more than a year. hahaha but i'll get over it, cuz i know we're not meant to be. I have confessed & i feel better. he smiled at me in school ensure that i don do anything wrong. ((: we're friends. although nothing is said, but i knew we're friends((:

I met many new friends recently, which like awesome((: haha, but cant get sooo distracted, ive got ALEVEL. recent one is very decent, i have no idea wat i feeling now, but i know, he's my fren,

ALEVEL ALEVEL ALEVEL. i cant afford to fail this. Cuz my mum paid $444 FOR THIS. UGH. GAH! so i must work hard! been procastinating & sleeping & always sick. i must take care of myself well. Prelim 2 is next week. First paper, phy geog n chem paper 3. yyyyeeeaaaahh mira JIAYOU!!

*sigh like lily* i feel good now((: tthx bloggy!

i think my heart is beating once again.

So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my fate -
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know..

haix. im sick :/ bye guys.

YOU

The sky is full of stars but the moon is you. The earth is full of people but the special person is you. To forget me is up to you but to forget you, I will never do:))

-Afiq Roslim

life's short, rite?

she's pretty but im cute ((:

HAHAHAH love her TTM! MY COUSIN WHOM I NEVER SEE FOR 117126171837213 YEARS! WOOOOOOOO!

hahahah yeah, life's short, i shouldn probe myself further. im neh a problematic gal. hahahah((: someone today make me pissedd! pffffftttt but is tat someone who cheers me up((: thx prince :D hahaha k uhh. cannot spend so much time on comp. time to revision! ((:

*wink*

back! :D

*WINK*

yeah, i know, so much for deactivating my fb acc. *kwangs*

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

cant help it la.

met my cuz & her bf ytd. SUPER HAPPR TO SEE HER. ((: we still look the same as we were 10years back ^^

love her cuz! photos will be uploaded in fb as per norm

byes!

bon voyage

yes, the amount of work for now.

hey readers!

thanks for reading my blog frequently((: will miss you guys out there!

im now preparing for my Prelim 2 Alevel.

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

don worry, i'll be back on my 18th birthday((: to update! hahaha

love you guys!

n anything jus text me owite! misses ((:

bye! tc!

HAPPY 18TH EMELY!

((: hahaha just came back from emely's house to give her a SURPRISE BIRTHDAY((: she's ssooooooooo sweeeeeet la ((: hahaha ^^

gonna skip sch tmr ((:

byes!

he's got everything i ever wanted, but?

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i still find to find my place in his diary

((:

haha after 121281263928372 years i haven met them. All things hae changed & grown ((:

to be loved by someone is much better.

someone said : "kau ni syg dier bnyk sgt uhh, dier mane kesah ngan kau.."

i said : "aku tau, aku memang syg dier like no other, but don worry, aku give up. it's such a torture, such a pain. aku surrender, aku tak nak chase after dier. aku give up.

MIRA, THX FOR LIKING AN ASS LIKE ME.

): it was ytd, u showed me who you are. i don believe myself who u actually are. but i know im sooo blinded by you. it's time to finally give you up. ): i wish you never exists. or maeb jus wish tat you never had to bang on me ytd. n u din even apology. ): let alone look at me. you don give a damn ): you don.

starts now!

ok, let's begin THE REVISION.

i will prove to you, tat i deserve you.

done nothing today! went out! ((:

don worry i will start, i know its near, i will not get distracted. i promised to myself. (Y)

what is my aim in life?

Me, Mira Kitara had been hit by love 3 times & many times failed. HAHAHA. joke or wat, but seriously, im tired of love. nyehahs. yeahh. i realise guys change heart soo easily, yet seems hard for a girl to. :( wth. haha. oh well, it's life. Life has always been unfair towards the girls. For example, India & China where the girls are often being discriminated. Also include, Afghanistan. okay, im sooo into GEOGRAPHY rite now. haha, well, you know sometimes i really wanna be a clone, someone wit no feeling, wit the heart soo numb, tat even one could never feel anything, let alone happiness.

I observed them, well, my previous ex. And i thought to myself, was i really happy back then? Was it meant to be? Why does things happen this way? haha. wtf, in one moment, he can say, he love you & forever be with you, in another, he fall for someone else. why does girls always have to suffer? No matter what, girls suffer the most in relationship. why cant guys understan that? haix.

i like him. i really really like him. i like him like no other. i like him till i can forgo other guys for him. i never felt tis way before, yet i know, he's not meant for me, if we are meant to be, we will be meant to be. My previous ex'es, i really has nth to say. All i can say is,

"cuz we were both young, when i first saw you"

Sometimes, i feel like the past is no longer important to me. I feel like im heading and getting nearer & nearer to my aim. i wish to work in hospital, now that i had my Alevel cert coming, i shall aim on my degree/diploma. i shall find someone with the same level as me. yeah. ^^ haha. haiya random. PRELIM 2 IS NEAR! hahah effing near. but oh well, putting as much effort as i can! i will focus! ((:

i feel extreme sad for my fren, lily, i really hope she is okay, n YY, pls take care, do cramp your brain wit tooo much stuff okays. kirin? hahaha, she's always by my side, so i need not worry hahah((: i have not been seeing my other frens lately, but im sure & ive made a promise to go out & spend the lost time tgt.

after A's, im going confess my feelings for him. rumours have been moving around, i bet he don noe whether its true or not, nevertheless, i will try & do it! hahs. Prom nite im sssoooooo looking forward!! i really like hiM! HAHAHA, I WANNA CHANGE FOR HIM. HAHA eating SAKURA wit the sept babies DEFINITELY WORTH MY TIME. ((:

Im going to mug & just drown myself in studies. I gotta be focus, especially in achieving my career. ^^ haha, ive got aim, ive got family, ive got awesome frens, life's too good for me, & definitely ive got life ((:

thanks to you you & you people who make me smile ((:

Seriously, you can love anybody, but really no one will love you the way i do.

my fav boy in ijc

everyone needs a shoulder to cry on,

everyone need a fren to rely on,

oh when your whole world is gone,

i'll be there when you need a shoulder to cry on,

i'll be there when you need a fren to rely on.

i will.

all i ask, is to give me a chance to be by ur side and your permission to let me stay.

things are ok. My family is awesome. Frens are gereks much! Studies is coping & struggling hard & well enuf. Love? hmmmm i just want to know, who he likes, and then, i give him up. is tat sooooo difficult? ): haiz. all i wan is to get over him, well, maybe i do, but maybe im not. )): sian ttm ahhhh i see him in school everyday oso i never get sian. haixxxxxx...who u like mann...

AHHHHHH TMR MATH TIMED TRIAL. YEAH, WISH ME LUCKS.

Chaos.

do you know?

do you know?

when you're sad, im sad too.

do you know?

when you're broken, im broken too.

do you know?

when you're smiling, im smiling too.

do you know?

when you're in front of me, i feel im the happiest gal in the world, altho is just by lookin at you.

do you know?

when you glum, i glum too.

do you know?

i feel shy, whenever you look at me.

do you know?

when you're around, i feel like i am an attention seeker.

do you know,

when your frens are wit you, makin you laugh, i feel at ease & same time laugh at ur joy.

do you know?

when you're not around in school, i will look for you.

do you know,?

when you missing someone else, here i am missing for you.

do you know?

i love you very much, maybe as much as you love her.

do you know?

i pray so we will be meant to be.

do you know?

im waiting for you.

tata, time to mug!

MUGGING DAY!

): ive made a vow.

now i need to fulfill it.

SAVE THE EARTH PEOPLE

so poor thing.

im glad i studied Advanced Geography.

or not, i am ignorant about how the Earth suffers like you guys.

panic!!!!!

ok, now is the time to get PANIC!

OMG ALEVEL IS NEAR ALEVEL IS NEAR ALEVEL IS NEAR ALEVEL IS NEAR ALEVEL IS NEAR ALEVEL IS SOOOOOO FREAKING NEAR! THAT'S IT MIRA, NO PHONE NO SMS NO FACEBOOK.

ok maeb, phone jus listen to music, don sms alot. facebook? maybe once per week. maybe every sunday! every sunday when i've done everything for the week. yeah.

den i think is time to start on prelim papers & tys. yeah. n getting mindmaps done, n consolidate, all in 2 months time till

ALEVEL! OMG IS NEEEEAAAARRRRRR!

THOSE WHO READ MY BLOG, WAKE UP WAKE UP! NO MUCH TIME LEFT!! GO PLAN NOW!

things to be done from now till Alevel :

1. Pay FULL attention in tutorials & lectures

2. Complete work to be done before going to lectures & tutorials.

3. Plan ahead for the week.

4. ((: Smile more often & get close touch wit teachers.

5. Consolidate my learning & make sure i understand clearly.

6. Practice more & don waste any precious time now!

PRELIM 2! final chance!

never expect it, cuz it wont be expected.

someday, i'll find someone who deserve my heart, n who deserve my life. someone's worthwhile.

im not gonna wait anymore.

i got my life to focus on.

focus focus & just focus!

tis is just for my inspiration ((:

i must focus! i must.easier said than done, but oh well, i manage to craft my study timetable alrdy ((: maeb, tis is alrdy my 28132623123723086 times of planning but i really hope i follow it along the way. Its only 3 MONTHS. yeah. *wink* ((:

I LOVE ME! so im gonna chg my habit & control my diet, i must control & adopt a healthy lifestyle (: its fasting month le! wooooohooo! ((: i believe i can do it! ^^ yeahs!

Prelim 2 is near, & GP prelim 2 is NEARER. haven really doone anything for GP yet, well, now its time to buck up! not too late but not too much time left. yeah, bear tat in mind, from now, every min, every sec, every tick-tock is CRUCIAL. ahahaha. who giv a damn bout my surrounding, all i know now, i must ace it all ((:

Insyaallah, i can make it to course which i FAVOUR next year.

Amin

To all Muslims out there!

SELAMAT BERPUASE DALAM BULAM RAMADHAN INI. SEMOGA DOA-DOA KAMU SEMUA TERCAPAI ((:

18 years and still counting

HAPPY 45TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY EVERYBODY!

i, nur azmira bt mohd jalil am proud to live as a pure Singaporean in Singapore for the past 18years of my life. Although life for me has been ups & downs, i will never give up for i know my family & friends are here living safely in Singapore.

Thanks to her, there's NO war, earthquake hurricanes cyclones (except flood la) HAHAHA. I LOVE YOU SINGAPORE! N I PROMISE TAT I WILL WORK FOR THE SOCIETY! ((: and we can all foresee that in future there will be many aged people, aged singaporeans, i more than willing to take care of them ((: i will serve my country.

i shall aim myself as a radiographer & work in hospital to serve SINGAPOREANS patients ((:

since young, i LOVE to smell the atmosphere of the hospital & i told myself that someday i will be working in hospital to help patients and cure people. I have my own profession & i shall show to others that i can make it! i can make a difference!

In 3 months times, ALEVEL will come, my focus shall only be ALEVEL. i will exercise my brain & myself to produce AWESOME results so that im able to get into the courses i've been wanting(:

This is home, where my family lives for years, where my forefathers lives. We are not immigrants for this is where we belong. The sand, the soils belongs to us. Singaporeans not immigrants. HAHAHA.

I LOVE MY COUNTRY. THIS IS MY COUNTRY.

when you're right, no one remembers, but when you're wrong, no one forgets.

for the past 2 days of holidays, ive been doing math!

today, i shall start on my chemistry! topic : ionic equlibrium.

apart from tat, i oso will be doing some of geog tut!

yyyyeeeeaaaaaahhhh(:

ytd went to watch THE LAST AIRBENDER wit my brother. It was JUST AWESOME. HAHAHA looking FORWARD TO BOOK TWO : Earth. *wink*

k bye!

i want you, but u like her and i don want him.

:/ was shocked when saw mr lee jk cried just now. oh well, i can really tell now, he really had tried his best . sianx. HAHA, nvm mr lee, we, the 0924A will make you proud de! ((:

ok, today! whole day spent with stupid filling! damn! so many workshits sia. damn! n i realise i got not enuf file :/ sian ttm. haiyaaaaaaaahhh hmmph!

i must get started to getting serious for my A's not too late, but not much time left. yeah!

sooooooo gonnnnnaaaaaa score!

(well we shall see k)

*wink*

you are not with me but her ):

so much truths i noe. :/ im soo hurt & sad & depressed.

nobody can talk to me about it.

im sick again :/ my throat damn pain sia when i cough. sick of this man. ):

haix, stress gonna take medi n sleep.

good nites ppl.

i know wat to do in life now.

Everybody has a secret. And tat secret you never know. yeaaahhhh ((:

today the 6 institutions came my school and im sooooo interested in radiographer & occupational therapist. hell yeahh gonna work hard for it! ((: altho is at NYP, i don giv a damn for my face as long as i gotten my cert^^

HAHA ((: tats it, im gonna spend my life working in the hospital! :D my aim!

yyyyeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh((:

tonight! gotta crap math the whole night. HAHA, ok i noe math need my attention but i kinda love geog alot now. gowri ROCKS TO THE CORE. HOT MAMA YYYEEAAAAHHHH(((:

workin n struggling hard for CHEM! OMG! :S

i must score le. tis time Prelim 2 is a NO-NO PLAY PLAY LE. nyehahaha, call me nerd or watever, i wannna be the tops.

^^

n stupid guys, if i catch ur the one hu bully my BESTFREN, JUS WATCH OUT! stupid uncultured childish boys.

he looked at me :/ n i sooo want to smile at him, but i gotta control myself in case he got the wrong idea. tough, yeah, but i reallly wannna chase him after my A's. other guys aside, shall jiu him only!!! hahaha, crazy nia me. yeah i am :/ never jiu any guys in my life before, definitely he's the first, n i really seriously truly, L him.

k gotta chiong for math now!

*wink*

people are so faked now. F IT.

Back then was O's. Now is freaking A's.

Fcuk it, my standard for math is getting lower & lower. F man. damn bullshit, i must must buck up le. shall think of a way to improve. for those whoever looks down on me, look down as much as you wan, but i assure u it wont be for long.

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My family.

Thankfully, i got mama, nenek, abg, kakak, adik n snickers. the way my brought up is not for anyone to decide. I know myself perfectly whether or not im in the wrong or right. i know myself whether my frens are sincere in their helping hands. i know myself who are my right & best frens. I know myself wat i am. I know myself my weakness, my strength. So u don have to put me down that way. u don know me, my family, my background, my past, my upbringing, so don judge me OR don put anybody in my shoes. cuz its MINE. get it? MINE. F U.

k im done here. damn pissed by some fakers. actually many fakers.

*pissed*