Cause I'm happy 😊😊

Pretty or not? Pretty right? Hehe. So far my life has been awesome. To my readers wala!! It's been 5 months since I'm single and not dating around and has only been working and working till almost reach my limit. But I love my patients. I love my job. That's why I willing to give my 101% to my nursing profession.

"You're a staff nurse, there's nothing to lose". 

Hahaha I wonder how is the shameless couple now. I wonder how is he. Is he eating right? Is he sleeping well? Or working his ass off again? 

What are you readers thoughts if I were to go back to him? Like should I give him a chance?

"No one loves him better than you do and he knows it" says one of my fren. 

But oh wells he doesn't wan cherish me so I most likely say No Hahahah 

Bleah but I hope he's eating well, sleeping well and I guess there are so many scars and scratches now due to work. K better don talk about my ex.

It just shows that i haven't moved on 

Just stayyyyyy strong 😬😬

I believe in this. So believe in this. What you've done to someone else's daughter, eventually your own will suffer the same. Just waiting for the right moment. Karma will happen. 

Anyway, I'm happy with my single life now. (: good frens and family supporting me. Being single is awesome lah!

Work is no joke these days. All I kept doing is work and work. Since I've finished my leave, that's why i will only have a 3 days off per 2 weeks. Sighs. 

But nvm. A chance to lose even more weight! 💪 hehe. 

Okay today is my only precious day off. And then 6 days of work all over again. Go out with family to celebrate my adik's birthday! Hehe(: he's 17 already!! Aren't time pass so fast. Sighs. 

K lah, i realize now, no rush to find a partner. I have to make sure that partner, my next upcoming boyfriend, is my last. And will be my future husband. In Shaa Allah. 

Keep calm and nurse on. 

(Argh work is driving me crazy!) 

You. My ex.

I guess I have to type my heart out. Yes, it's very very hard to move on. He cheated me betrayed my feelings yet I just can't let it go. Sighs. It's easy to say "I have moved on" when all you think about evryday is him and him. 

To his current gf, pls take care of him. (': and his family. No matter how much I hated him and his family, I still owe them a big lots. I forgave everything and everyone. (': 

This is the first photo we had. Our first official date. When he brought me to West Mall and eat. 

Made me teared whenever I thought about our past. 

Dear ex, pls take very good care of yourself. Cause I will no longer be the one rubbing your head and pat your back when you did a good job. I will no longer be the one rubbing your cheek and chin. I'm sorry I can't be the one for you. Sorry that we're not meant to be together. I tried my best to be the best gf ever . I pray that girl can be the best spouse of yours forever. 

To his gf currently, this is for you. I'm sharing this with you, cause I no longer with him, and only you now is taking care of him. 

He love bak kut teh. Bring him to bukit gombak to eat there. 

He smokes Pall Mall red. Pls control his cigarettes. Whenever he gets very tired, he smokes a lot. But you can distract him with food. 

Go buffet as many times as you can. Prolly once a month at least.

Don't force him to finish his food, once he's full, he's full. 

He loves bowling, the only thing he can release his mind off with. He's happier when he bowls. 

Make sure you dress properly, and if he ask you to change, you change, his taste of fashion is very good. 

At least once a week go out with him, to watch movie. Salted popcorn and hotdog with many many mustard. He loves mustard. 

He loves coke and trying to cut down but always failed. He prefers can coke not bottle coke. He don't like Pepsi. If there's no coke, just give him plain water. 

He loves latte. Go with him to Starbucks or Coffee Bean to drink that. McCafe should be fine as well. As long as it is Caramel Latte. Hot. 

When his throat craves for something, get it immediately. He won't ask for it again. If not he'll keep bugging you for it. 

He loves back hugs. Hug him behind his back all the times as and when you can do it, just do it. It makes him very happy. 

Whenever he did a good job, cheer for him and support him, he loves it a lot.

No phones when you're out with him, he wants your full attention. 

Share with him your story, your life story, he loves to listen, but you should listens to him too, his life story is very insteresting and he love it when ppl listens to his story. 

Clear off his wallet every month once, his wallet full if receipts and shits tat he doesn't bother to throw it. 

Always see his body, full of scratches. Nag at him and tell him to take care of himself. Not ruin yourself. 

Don't post selfies too much, he hates tat. He rather you post about him. 

When in public, show to the world that's he's yours. He loves it. 

He loves his family very much, he willing to die for them, and for you too. He put family first. He's the eldest. It's natural he behave tat way. Never argue with his family, he'll end up hating you, like he hating me now. 

Lastly, he'll love you more than anything in this world, and will die for you. 

At least that's how I felt when I'm with him. 

To ex. Your promises and everything, I'll just let it go. I'm sorry I wasn't as good enough as her. I'm sorry for getting you into trouble every single time. I'm out of your life now, I'm no longer by your side. You have someone else now doing my job. (': 

Just to let you know. That almost one year we've been through together was the toughest journey and decision I've made. But still I loved you very very much and probably the last person I loved. 

Though you're my biggest mistake in my life, I've never regret you coming into my life. It's a blessing in disguise and a huge major lesson for me. 

I'm moving on as fast as I can. (': perhaps no one can replace him but someday I know I'll find someone better. 

In Shaa Allah. 

May both of you last till Jannah. 

Amin.

To my next and future boyfriend/hubby don't worry, I will love you as much much more than anyone else I ever loved. If you ever read this post, don get jealous okay?

This is the end of everything. And my last post about him. 

Crying all over again for this shit

Dreamt about our past. Dreamt about your promises. Dreamt about our dreams. Dreamt about my sacrifices for you. Dreamt about how much I gave my all to you. Dreamt about how sincere I was to you. 

Yet I woke up and realized the reality. 

You betrayed me and cheated my feelings.

I hate you Indra Hidayat. 

I hate you now and forever. 

We promised to fight but look what you've done. 

I'll never ever want you back again. 

MOVED ON :)

this is my sister's business, SOFAZ services. pls support my sister and her fiancé. 

hehe.

SO HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN MISSING ME? (': 

I see my number of viewers drop. cause I've been too busy and occupied with work lately.

so how have i been?

very good. alhamdulilah. 

been single for 5 months already, meaning it has been 5 months..THEY been in a relationship.

i guess some ppl can really find a replacement very fast. and maybe i was too busy for him tats why he decided to leave me for her..BUT WHATEVER IVE MOVED ON. 

but tho i been saying tat, whenever i see those couple pictures, my heart felt betrayed yet again. idk why. i moved on but the feeling of betrayal is still there. it really do hurts a lot whenever i see their photos. but then like what my best friend told me, "delete all of him, hate all of him" hahahaaha

i forgave him for cheating me. i halalkan sume makan minum and hopefully he does to. yes, he used to be my world, but i guess we are just not fated. I'm happy that my bestfren went back to his ex fiancé. i mean, they deserved to be together. I'm happy whenever i sees couple going back together, cause it shows one thing, forgive do exist. 

he's happier without me, what reason for me to live not happily without him? kan kan kan? hahaha i wanna thank my family, #thehandsomes and my best friends for being my world, for being there for me. i was so lonely depressed and they never fail to lift me up. i thank Allah swt for letting me open up my eyes and see his true self. and also for giving me the best of everything. 

Abang had a good marriage. 

Kakak is getting married next year.

Mama's burden lifted after all these years thanks to my pay raise. 

Adik has been extremely wise and good kid. 

Nenek has been healthy.

and all my best friends have been sticking by me thru all these times. 

how can i not be thankful enough.

and work, nursing is the greatest decision i made in my life. my life totally changed when i started working. i met SOOOOOO MANY people in my life. hahaha wow. totally an eye opener. will post about my work someday. 

i remember someone told me that she enjoyed reading my blog. i hope you guys too. promise to update more often ok! but before tat, i wanna own MACBOOK AIR BY THIS YEAR PLS.

and iphone 6.

and yes, finally NUR AZMIRA BTE AZLAN

HAS MOVED ON FROM INDRA HIDAYAT BIN MZ 

so to the gf he's with now, no more stalking me, YOU STOLE HIM FROM ME, so why worry? you won him, so enjoy tat reward. i forgave you for that too. 

i will just keep chilling. haha (:

Assalamualaikum. have a good day everyone!

Bestfren.

I really really love this photo of me and my bestfriend. Thank you for coming to my bang's wedding bro! Even though it was super awkward gile but hehe you manage to adapt. Proud of you lah. Okay more post of my brother's wedding coming soon! 

Betrayed.

There was a time when you told me not to betray your love. But look who betrayed me now. Just cannot believe the fact that you just give your heart and arms to someone else. While I've been giving you mine the whole time. Our promises everything. Everything is over.

Catch a grenade for ya.

You know I'll catch a grenade for ya. 

But no. Even if I catch it, I turned back, you will be with someone else protecting her instead of me. 

Who am I now to you?

Just who am I.

You know I can't let you go. 

Yet you take that for granted. 

What happen to our love?

What happen to us. 

Fuck you for ending everything. 

You just ruined everything 

Cause you change heart. 

All good things must come to an end. 😔

Hi there everyone. I'm walking around my neighborhood aimlessly. I'm sad frustrated and heartbroken. The guy I'm supposed to live for the rest of my lives is now with another girl. He moved on. He cheated my feelings. He doesn't love me anymore. I can't move on. All these it seems so unreal. Seems like a dream. I loved him so much. Yet he did this to me.😔😪 he's with someone else now. I have to let him go. And let him be happy with her.

this post is for you my love

rmbr this photo sayang? this is when we had our first official movie date. 

as i remembering back the times when we first know each other, i feel like crying abah. i don know why. haha i miss those times. BUT. haha i want to move on. every single day with you is so precious my dear. i really wish for many many happy and sad days with you abah. since the first day i met you, i knew that you are gonna be someone so important in my life. someone im gonna take care forever. someone who is gonna take care of me forever. abah, umi chan love you so much, deeper than any of the girls you met before. and you know that yourself sayang. 

i fell in love with you again and again each day. just wan to let you know, im proud of whatever you're doing now abah. just dont stop and never give up sayang. im always here behind you supporting you. people may look down on you, but not me. i will never look down on you. 

i swear i hate those people who look down on you. they can say it infront of you, but not infront of me. i will protect you till the day i die. and i will love you till my very last breath. 

i want the world to know how unique you are, and how strong you are. 

you're indeed the most amazing guy i have ever met. 

you amaze me each time, with all the surprises and everything. 

i love it when you are yourself. and i know you especially behave like yourself when you're with me. 

people dont know your story, only i do. and that's why no one has the right to judge you. no one. not even me. abah, continue to be strong. for me mama, and the kubs. 

dont ever give up abah, even if i leave this world before you,

never give up on life. 

paham? 

Countless Seoul Garden treats

Thanks for the treat abah. Me love you always. 

 

   

4 more weeks and 5 more days

 in 4 weeks and 5 days time PRCP will end and then i'll graduate and be a good staff nurse that i promise myself to be. 

not forgetting going to poor countries to help out. 

whenever i feel like giving up in life,

i think of this job, think of my patients. 

think of how far ive gone through. 

not gonna give it up tat easily. 

You're a Jedi. 

and a Jedi motto is: 

Peace over anger. Honor over hate. Strength over fear. 

Assalamualaikum. 

May Allah protect you guys always. 

Amin.

Insecure insecure

The 4 most important words in my life now. Thank you Indra hidayat. 

He's mine.

Definitely the one for me. 

Abahkushhhhhh

Isn't he cute? And ugly at the same time. But damn I love him so much. As much as he love me. I love how much he tries to do anything to make me happy. The love of my life. My last. My only. The one I'm gonna annoy forever . I love you Indra hidayat. You are the best lah okay HAHAHAHA 

I got a freaking 2 days offfffffffffff! I'm gonna slackkkkkkk HAHAHAHA k bye 

Pampered by him today❤️

So my baby brought me to date at pastamania. He surprised me with care bear which I've been wanting for so long and of course pampered me all other stuff which I wanted. Thank you love. Muah😘😘 I love you so much! 

Thank you for working so hard for me my dear. Thank you. And I'm worth it you know .hahaha

thank you readers.

my 3rd off day today. this post is meant for you readers out there. 

whoever you guys are, i wanna thank you deep down, much appreciate for reading this humble blog of mine. it has been 7 years and still going strong. the url name stays the same and i hope my loyal readers will continue reading. cause to read my blog meaning spending some of your time to read.

so i wanna thank you guys. muah love you all! 

my life has its ups and downs. i had lived without a father for 18 years now and i came from a broken family. im proud to say that im gonna be a staff nurse soon. im gonna make my family proud of me. 

i was so touched when my abang told this to his fiance, "i have 2 sisters, one is a teacher and another is a staff nurse" . i can see that he is very proud. and i had the most awesome siblings in the world. we lived with society that looks down on us but yet still standing strong without anyone help. 

and my little brother is gonna follow my nursing line. proud of him. 

and my mum is standing strong with her work, same goes to my grandma. 

7 more bloody weeks for me to graduate. and work full time.

my aim is to renovate the house, cause we have been living in this condition for 10 years now, with so many broke stuff everywhere.

i promised myself that im gonna fix everything of this house that my mum spent all her life paying. 

im bad at lying. people can spot me if i lie. so i don wan to lie that i love this guy very much. more than anything in this world. im gonna make sure he changes his life for better. 

whenever i sees him, i sees myself. i see myself in him that no one ever knows. i see deep down how much he has been tolerating nonsense from this cruel world, how much he wants to give up in everything. 

to me, selfish people are the worst people on earth. and liars. if you only think for yourself to be happy, with the expense of someone else sadness, your're pure evil. hahaha

i believe everything happens for a reason. every single shit happens for a reason.

and if you're not happy with me, come straight to me and meet me, i like it that way more. 

we both are working hard for our loved ones, that is why we share the same dream. 

not for materialistic stuff, but for our loved ones. 

and you witch, dont let me see your face in my hospital. or else i will give you the pain-est injection that you will never forget. heh *evil smile*

or ya, we nurses love taking bloods, so i can also poke you all over and pull out your bloods. hahahaha kidding. evil sia mira.

and readers, i hope yoou guys enjoy the songs i played. 

to LIARS

hmm.. something crack me up today. hahahhaha there's this person add me on fb, and it's obvious that the person just created the account.. so.. i did not confirm of course..
the weird thing is..
i went in to my bf account and add that person, apparently that person accept.
so my first suspect is who else lah kan? that wicked witch.
So i suggest that person to become wicked witch fren.
Suddenly wala, wicked witch post on her status saying she don know.
but the weird thing is.....
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ITS SO FUNNY CAUSE OBVIOUSLY SHE'S LYING AND IT'S HER.
Kimak bodoh sia.

she made my day. try again to stalk me ok. *flips hair*

blessed and what more can i ask for

Hello guys! today is my off day! and 2 more days off days! yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

and 2 more days to my mum's birthdayyyyyy.

so now is midway to PRCP and damn it's just so awesome. im halfway getting used to life as a staff nurse. Passing report is still a challenge to me but in shaa allah i can do it. 

this is the pic of everybody whom im working with. and i fell in love with each one of them.

since he posted in his blog my whatapps vid, i shall post his whatapps vid too. hahaha. this is the vid that i find the cutest one of all lah. hahaha

isn't he cute? alalalala hahaha cute lah. my love my only one.

everyday i look forward to his texts. every single day. and im still feeling all butterflies in my stomach whenever i meet him. hehe is this love? yes im sure it is. 

yesterday he showed me this chain of his that he said he shall often wears it now hahaha the very first person who did such thing to me. how can i not love him even more.

i guess life is really full of things that we can never expect to happen. he is something i never expect to meet. burning my heart each day without fail.

and yesterday he gave me a good advice regarding my work. hahahaah why so cute.

i bet yat gonna say "i told you so redbull give you wings" 

so i shall start to drink redbull whenever i work night shift. 

and im gonna be focus and work harder and be 10 times better than others. 

need to show alot of people and prove to them, im awesome. just like how he is working hard to do so.

k lah. got to go and enjoy my off day, will be doing some spring cleaning. my room is a mess. 

Happy 2014!

Happy New Year everybody its 2014! 

So i went with my love at Henderson Waves to countdown with him. I swear i will never forget that. 

the way he works hard just for me.

the way he willing to give up his world just for me .

im in love with him every single day.

 So my only resolution this year 2014 is to eat happily. hahah

so my little brother got into nursing and im proud of him. Cant wait to take picture with him with his new uniform. hahha yayyyyyy!

today i work night shift. 

so i better get alot of rest today.

okay guys!