You. My ex.

I guess I have to type my heart out. Yes, it's very very hard to move on. He cheated me betrayed my feelings yet I just can't let it go. Sighs. It's easy to say "I have moved on" when all you think about evryday is him and him. 

To his current gf, pls take care of him. (': and his family. No matter how much I hated him and his family, I still owe them a big lots. I forgave everything and everyone. (': 

This is the first photo we had. Our first official date. When he brought me to West Mall and eat. 

Made me teared whenever I thought about our past. 

Dear ex, pls take very good care of yourself. Cause I will no longer be the one rubbing your head and pat your back when you did a good job. I will no longer be the one rubbing your cheek and chin. I'm sorry I can't be the one for you. Sorry that we're not meant to be together. I tried my best to be the best gf ever . I pray that girl can be the best spouse of yours forever. 

To his gf currently, this is for you. I'm sharing this with you, cause I no longer with him, and only you now is taking care of him. 

He love bak kut teh. Bring him to bukit gombak to eat there. 

He smokes Pall Mall red. Pls control his cigarettes. Whenever he gets very tired, he smokes a lot. But you can distract him with food. 

Go buffet as many times as you can. Prolly once a month at least.

Don't force him to finish his food, once he's full, he's full. 

He loves bowling, the only thing he can release his mind off with. He's happier when he bowls. 

Make sure you dress properly, and if he ask you to change, you change, his taste of fashion is very good. 

At least once a week go out with him, to watch movie. Salted popcorn and hotdog with many many mustard. He loves mustard. 

He loves coke and trying to cut down but always failed. He prefers can coke not bottle coke. He don't like Pepsi. If there's no coke, just give him plain water. 

He loves latte. Go with him to Starbucks or Coffee Bean to drink that. McCafe should be fine as well. As long as it is Caramel Latte. Hot. 

When his throat craves for something, get it immediately. He won't ask for it again. If not he'll keep bugging you for it. 

He loves back hugs. Hug him behind his back all the times as and when you can do it, just do it. It makes him very happy. 

Whenever he did a good job, cheer for him and support him, he loves it a lot.

No phones when you're out with him, he wants your full attention. 

Share with him your story, your life story, he loves to listen, but you should listens to him too, his life story is very insteresting and he love it when ppl listens to his story. 

Clear off his wallet every month once, his wallet full if receipts and shits tat he doesn't bother to throw it. 

Always see his body, full of scratches. Nag at him and tell him to take care of himself. Not ruin yourself. 

Don't post selfies too much, he hates tat. He rather you post about him. 

When in public, show to the world that's he's yours. He loves it. 

He loves his family very much, he willing to die for them, and for you too. He put family first. He's the eldest. It's natural he behave tat way. Never argue with his family, he'll end up hating you, like he hating me now. 

Lastly, he'll love you more than anything in this world, and will die for you. 

At least that's how I felt when I'm with him. 

To ex. Your promises and everything, I'll just let it go. I'm sorry I wasn't as good enough as her. I'm sorry for getting you into trouble every single time. I'm out of your life now, I'm no longer by your side. You have someone else now doing my job. (': 

Just to let you know. That almost one year we've been through together was the toughest journey and decision I've made. But still I loved you very very much and probably the last person I loved. 

Though you're my biggest mistake in my life, I've never regret you coming into my life. It's a blessing in disguise and a huge major lesson for me. 

I'm moving on as fast as I can. (': perhaps no one can replace him but someday I know I'll find someone better. 

In Shaa Allah. 

May both of you last till Jannah. 

Amin.

To my next and future boyfriend/hubby don't worry, I will love you as much much more than anyone else I ever loved. If you ever read this post, don get jealous okay?

This is the end of everything. And my last post about him.