a burning heart

WEEHOOO! WENT OUT TO LIB DATE WIT YOYO!

miss her so much & love her so much!!!

so i manage to study n get momentum for Organic Chemistry. Jus tat i din manage to complete studyin but ccan be continued today((: AM SO GONNA SCORE FOR BLOCK TEST! ((:

uh-huh. someone help me. im so crazily in **** wit him!

till...

-i willing to die for him

- i wan to look good & lose weight for him (to attract hiiim)

- i wan be effin SMART n super good in studies for him

- finally, i wan be wit him (which i cant -.-..sadded)

oh well, in short, i wanna change FOR HIM. cuz YA! i love him very de very much! sadded. i wish im famous in sch(which i hate it) but famous jus to catch his attention TO ME! =( n i gotta strong feeling his frens, doesn like me. =(

anw, went badmintoon trainin yest, was damn awesome la pls. Nizam played SUPER WELL. he's good(: hahas. lena's gd too. n many are good! i wanna be AS FANTASTIC AS THEM. in 2months time, i gotta train hard now. heh heh heh. ((:

kk, gotta go (:

cheers~

i miss u.

miss lookin u walk to sch.

miss u in the class.

oh man.

u had made such a great impact in my life.

when the table turns (:

the day before anythin else ((:

HELLO WORLD ((:
had a great & awesome tim on 22-23jan. heh. shiha hope ur happy sygg ((:
well, basically, me n haider had been plannin to make a surprise birthday bash for my darl shiha ((; at vivo. n tell u it was a BASH. haa((: so after sch (&hmecomin) on fri, me haider, lala n zeek meet up at jp n went city hall(: to find shiha's stuff. ended up, go hme late. at 12. hahs. my mum is owite wit it cuz noe why? she met them hahs. LOL. kk, enuf abt fri. the next day, was AWESOME. haahs. i hope shisha really enjoy it really. (:
overall, had an awesome time with them tis two whole nights.
went home (luckily shiha's aunt gave me a car ride back home cuz its pretty late at 1am. n i saw many BANGS. eek.

my photo album(:

aunt n shisha

the 3 noisy kids
n shisha's aunt treat us dinner ((:

heh ((: yay!

happy 18th ((:

more on facebook(: dee took pic many more la sey. DEE QUICK UPLOAD!! haahaa((: best time tgt. best time shootin pic tgt. best time hang out tgt ((:
Once again,


HAPPY YG KE 18 BIRTHDAY LA FASHIHA((:

New Year Resolution!

• Balance Sports & Studies well
• Become a certified badminton player
• Lost 20kg of weight
• Increase 10cm of height (currently : 154cm )
• Obtain a Silver medal for NAPHA
• Be a top student for math in the cohort
• Get a B for chem startin from prelims to Alevels
• Be the top in class for GP
• Get an A for geog from prelims to Alevels
• Score for physic in Alevel
• Be at best in last year in Innova
• Forgive, but don forget those peeps (revenge)
• Finish learning Muqadam
• Preparation of Alevel
• Learn to be optimistic
• Win Isk heart (heh)
• Start on driving license after gettin a job once Alevel over

cheers (:

...

FUCK EVERYTHING.

again, gals are jus gals.

GALS??? WAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOIN?

when i read about the past abt how much gals were being discriminated, i think i know why.

seriously speakin, i prefer boys to girls.

why?

cuzz

(1)guys wont gossip like gals

(2)guys take things easy

(3)guys forgive & forget

(4) guys don like segregrating class

(5) guys HECK abt wat u are as long as we treat them nice n respect

...

..

.

LOTS MORE. like goddamit. i jus hate it. really. i hate till i must do sth abt it.

tats it, im gonna do it

REALLY!

ERGH. anw, had a nice day today(:

cheers.

your frens rite,

mayb im a bitch.

im such a fucker.

really an ass.

mayb u shdn be even look at me.

cuz im ashamed of myself

let me find my true self.

n also i will never turn back.

im here if u ever need me.

(pic above is a mentos squashed by Nestor to a heart shape)

Seriously, today was exhaausted but his smile make my day . like REALLY. heh.

i was a tour guide for the day ((: i made many3 frens.

hahs. im happy cuz im able to sell the school n one gal actually told me she wan go my sch ((: awww so effin sweet when "he" actually smile at my joke. awww really melted me. like hey?? seriously. hahs. anw i had fun ((: real fun bein a tour guide . met many new frens. haahaa. shafiq was a fuunny person nia. haahs. ((: the Musician club did awesome. really. haider & suharyanto was AWESOME. btw, haider, i felt in love wit shisha. haa! oh man. oh man. haahs.

wahhhh really happy to be a tour guide. the principal talked to me!! wee((: i noe her she noe me. we noe each other n i talked to ISK! happiest day of my life. really felt in love wit u isk. ((:

like really.

cheers.

Nobody is perfect.

im nobody.

Nobody is perfect for you.

im nobody.

seriously, u make me fall for you.

stupid plain bad habit

WHOEVER WHO TOOK MY $150 WHICH I DROPPED, YOU'LL BETTER GIVE IT TO THE NEEDY OR YOU BEEN CURSED TO HAVE A MISERABLE LIFE.

u turn a year older each new year

FAMILY OUTING ONCE AGAIN (((:

HAPPY 47TH BITRHDAY MAMA ((:

went to Seoul Garden to Causeway jus to celebrate my mum's birthday ((: heh. i haven gotten her present yet tho. nvm. will get it asap!

*more pic uploaded at facebook tho cuz im reallly2 lazy to upload it in blog. effin SLOW. hahs*

hahah. omgshhhh. two more days till SCHOOL. am excited yet scared n not freakin READY FOR THE STRESS LEVEL. die. mira. u gonna die. PE?? on the first day?? die once again. but since my resolution is to CHANGE. i must do it. heh, so by the end of tis year, all of you (especially those who puts me down shall be awed by me. heh. mira say onli. but YES, IM GONNA DO IT. SUPPORT ME PEOPLE! ((:

hahas. wat a joke nia. sch comin. homeworks haven finish, yet, im thinkin if change. eh wait NO HEY! i will change everythin of me, my style, my attitude & especially my charisma. heh3. nah u'll get wat i meant (:

so...

CHEERS. :D

dey sch starts next week ahh?

.TIME FLIES.

wattt???? school starts nexttt week? wat have i done? oh well, i only finished geog physic & math. CHEMISTRY IS A BIG TORTUREEE LAAA.. anybody out there can giv me a free chemistry tuition? ahhhh.. chemistry is NEVER FINISH FOR ME. one word. jus one word. DIE.

watever it is. well then, today i visited my friendster acc n gosh i saw alot of OLD PHOTOS. hahs. here are a few of them ((:

kids under the blk

i look funneh

<3

<3

tis one i really REALLY REALLY MISS.

tak le angs langsung. i really miss the olden days but wat to do? Life goes on. so tmr is my mum's birthday! oh man wat to buy??? DIEEEE.

heh. LOLS.

anw, i bought a new specs. its really make a change in my face so my frens in IJ don laugh at me. ahahs.

im soooo NOT READY FOR SCH.

the tot of PE for first day is makin me sick. i wanna skip pe. can i?

HAIX! but since my resolution for tis year is

CHANGE!

so i gotta keep my word.

CHANGE!

i wanna take revenge.

revenge. revenge. revenge.

don blame me for doin tis

don call me a bad gal

or bitchy

cuz tis is jus unforgivable.

see wat see?

Cant stand the banglas man.

wtf.

i wish i can take out their eyes when they see girls. fuck man. small gals also not spare.

THE BANGLAS SUX BIG TIME LA.

shit ass.

Go. and. Die.

dare to look at me.

i report police IMMEDIATELY.

foreigner here , noe where u stand ah.

idiotic pervertic sick.

n to other foreigners,

TIS IS MY COUNTRY.

don u dare hold ur head up high

In MY COUNTRY.

and again i saw u there

random but true : (1) saw ashid only ashid everytime at jp one! don noe why

(2) saw farhan only farhan everytime at mrt one! don noe why

but believe me ppl, several times alrdy see tis two dude at the same place!

i jus went for consultation wit Mr chan n he told me a shockin news tat he's not going to teAch us aagain. wth. imagine me go for math Alevel w/o him?? eeyeerr no wayy!! MR CHAN COME BACK. UR A GREAT MATH TEACHER. wonder if i can even do e paper itself. :( some J2 teacher ???? mrs chia ??? will take over. sadded. real sadded. D:

my bro, aliff is a big boy now. went his sch yest. was effing big! hahs n saw one super cute guy ok fine he's really cute. like ally like tat. awwww.. but nah, my isk better. x100000 better ((:

wateever mira.

so school's comin. am definitely not prepared for tat. oh well tat it

cheers ((:

I MISS YOU ALOT.

u , u noe hu u r.

yes you.

i miss you.

twice bitten, thrice shy.

when you look me in your eyes.

i felt pain in my heart.

i rmbred the day u walked away frm me.

the day u really hurt me sooo badly.

and wat u said all tat

my heart sank but

no it cant be true

cuz im so usedd to ur lies

even numb by tat.

sry salikin.

i cant go back to you.

my heart no more open for all tis.

especially you

after u had hurt me so much.

alot..

till i cant forgive you.

n i will never.

sorry.