Been attached for a year now.

So my bby finally will go NS in 8 March.. Somehow my heart sank when the date getting nearer.. But i have to be strong.. oh wells, im in fact memang strong.. living for like single for quite some time before i was attached.. but my heart still aches . its not that i cant live without him, its sense of somebody not there to text you all day when he used to.. but i guess i can pass my time each day with exercising n watching drama plus praying..

he cant see me altho he's going in soon, the only time we can spend time is on 6 march.. le sigh.. when im single, i used to think n hope for a stable relationship, one who is faithful with me.. now as im in relationship, i really wan to be recognised by his family, n my family to see him.. i feel so awkward being with a guy so long yet no nothing about family.. its like le sigh.. no wonder my mum expectations of a guy is so high and many.. to have someone as responsible as my late father is not easy to find.. and maybe now is still not the time to get serious..

i envy those couple who knows each other family, and the family will bring them out to family outing and all sort.. we even have to hide ourselves.. and to date with someone younger than you is tougher.. i love him, and i noe he loves me alot, its just i feel so unfair.. i told my mum i went out with him, yet he told his mum other things.. i felt bad, like a not a gd gal. le sigh. i never tot i will feel this way, i guess im not a typical teenager girl anymore who willing to hide her relationship and continue with it without parents consent.. i guess im now a responsible person and mature.. i don wanna lie and hurt my family, also not to other people family. its just, le sigh.

he promise me he will meet mama when he go ns, or after ns.. yes, he's been buying stuff for my family and all, like big box of chocolates and all, but still, le sigh. i cant expect too much from someone who is younger than me. sometimes i feel sick myself for scolding him too much.

my bf is kind, caring, sweet, loving, handsome..but his weakness is his family. n my weakness too. maybe i expect too much from him, but i really cant accept this. i got the guts feelings his family wont like me, and my family wont like him.. le sigh, after a year being together, this question still pondering in my mind..is he the one for me?

Assalamualaikum.