June Hols Break (: :(

i really really had a good break for June Holiday until i din manage to finish my studyin. F chi bai. Haha. fcukin hell sia. Sch reopening and when i saw my timetable, is jus another piece of chi bai shit. yeah i sounds damn vulgar now bbut who cares. im still the nice innocent mira tho.. XD WELL, TATS WAT MOST PEOPLE THINK.

haix, damn my bf, all he does is sleep and sleep. doesn he know tat i nid him so badly now? well, i understand how he is so stress now, but im stress too and i cant seem to talk to anyone. :( well, im angry wit myself tat i don take my prelims seriously. i hate myself for not givin my best. i know everyone thinks i have potential, i knw myself, but its jus i don bother to take action about it. why? think im gonna land in STARS. yet again. but i don mind la. i think i really need scoldings from someone. Not my mum, not my teachers, but just someone. who really can wake me up from all this lalaland of mine. :( haix. i jus need someone to talk to, to console me. but its jus everybody has their own life to worry about. who am i to interupt their life wit my sorrowness & stupidity? i sux. i really sux.

In few months time, tm taking Alevel. Alevel, the cert which my mum paid with her hard-earned money. Fcuk myself. i really hate myself. Why cant i jus study? tat's it, 4 weeks flew off jus like tat. tat's it, kinda too late to study. And tmr, im gonna spend full 3hours of my life vomitting out on Geog paper. But not gonna be the same for Chem paper. Chem really sux one kind. i jus hate tat subject.

Predicted result for Prelim 1
Math : D
Chem : U
Geog : D
Physic : D
GP : S

confirm guarantee chop chop X10 plus warranty card im gonna get tis result. Eff man. (believe me, i can predict my result well de) as my result only reflected on my effort. tis is my effort. sux rite? F hell la.

Tat's it Mira, u know u sux. So u gotta change. Really change liao. Cannnot slack slack liao la. Mira, u gotta prove to ur "sister" tat u can do better and prove to ur mum tat her money is worth it ^^

i really really really REALLY REGRET THIS TIME for not studying the past 4weeks. Since 28May, ive been sleeping, going out & watching movie & having the time of my life. seriously, u gotta stop wat ur doing Mira. Stop it now.

:( effing sad nw but no use crying over spilled milk rite? haix. :(

k now, im gonna CHIONG for GEOG PAPER 1 tmr. don mention chem to me.

chao.