Everything happens because of Allah swt

hello readers! 

syukur oh syukur ya rabbi alamin.

alhamdulillah, syukur ya allah. 

im so glad that my family is stabilised now. my mum no longer having financial difficulties to raise us. my abang and his family will have his own house soon in July this year. my kakak and her family already have her own house and already moved out. both my nieces are taken care of well by their bibik (maid) and my grandma is enjoying her retirement age, reading Quran and eating out happily at coffeeshop. my mum just have to work for my little brother and the house we currently living, which I'm helping her sharing the burden as well. all in all, things in my family going smoothly and i only have Allah swt to be grateful and thankful with. those old days when we are not in good terms, where we are all in a confusion state, when we are all not in stable moment, where we suffer financially, we manage through it all with Allah swt, and my mum strength. 

how can i make myself suffer from stupid things when all i see is only blessings in life? to those who hurt me, betrayed me, cheated me with my feelings, may allah swt blessed you too. :) 

this is Sarah Yamin, my first niece. my abang's daughter.

Lia Qistina, my second niece. My kakak's daughter 

Lia Q.

Sarah Y.

both my nieces have their own maids, lucky much? my mum have 2 maids now. LOL.


So today I've met my old friend. she and me have the same fate. but now, we both are happy with our lives. thank you Allah swt.

so after meeting my old friend, i went to visit my sister's house and got to eat her cooking which was exactly the same as my mum's.

so apart from family, my career is fine too. just that i have yet to study degree cause of I'm still saving up. but my boss sign up my name for some sponsorship tho. i hope i can get it (: in shaa allah. in any case, I'm working in NTFGH and i have served the society as a staff nurse for 3 years, and I'm proud. 

and 3 months back, someone added me in fb and started chatting with me via fb messenger. (: and things just started to spark. especially the first time i met him.

he's a great friend, a great companion.

and i thank Allah swt for making me and him cross path together. 

what else can i ask for in life. 

and now, i need to catch up with theHandsomes and my close colleagues. it's been way too long. 

nevertheless, i am thankful and grateful for everything right now. 

i just want my family to be healthy and happy always. 

my loved ones.

thank you for reading readers!

unlucky march.

hais i is suffering from hives now. and i hate it. currently my hands are all swollen and my lips are swollen too ):
so currently right now, i have to avoid fast food completely, no oily foods. no eggs, and only porridge and vegetables ):
at least for a month. from tomorrow onwards.
at least till 24th. cause i is have a date on 24th. haha. so i have 9 days, 9 days to eat right, eat clean.

it's gonna suck cause for the past 24 years, i have been eating good food. sigh. well, time to change my lifestyle huh? no more procrastinating already. heard exercise is good too for my skin problem.

so stress right now, but my mum is even more stress seeing my condition like this. i totally have no appetite to eat. totally.

why so many things has been happening to me lately?

i need a break, like seriously a good break. but that only can happen when I'm really cured.
argh it sucks, when you love to eat and this happens to you, so you need to control what you eat.

2017 doesn't seems the year for me.

my heart is dead

walking alone around jurong point doesn't help me anymore like it used to.
i am worried, it has already been a week, idk. i am so stress. somebody save me.

siberia

i guess whenever i met someone in my life whom i instantly click with, is definitely not the one for me. i have failed, almost twice. meeting such someone. 

been under a lot of emotional stress lately i guess this is why my period delayed this month, been in denial, been flashing the days in past. not healthy. 

it's just so sad that whatever effort you've made it all gone to waste. and now you're just seeing that someone giving the effort to another. ): 

im so tired. tired. of loving.