Appreciate those who loves you.

Standing proud and alive, current 24 years old me.

today I'm on my last night duty but i just cant sleep. i was busy browsing my old posts in this blog. as i was reading i could literally feel my heart cracks. 

and so it has been 3 years? I've moved on for sure but i think the hurt, is still fresh. 

a month back i literally thought i found someone, but i guess i wasn't that attractive enough to be with that someone or maybe i just wasn't ready? cause i find myself brushing him off. i was surprised i manage to survive 3 dates with him. and somehow we click but theres just something in him that is so broken. and i find myself I'm just like him so i decided to brush it off and stop myself from developing feelings for him. but then again i think i did the right thing by doing so cause he is just another flirty fellow who flirts with the girls on his fb. i did feel the hurt but i think i was just being sensitive. i protected my heart too much. 

i used to chase people whom i like though they don't like me hahaha (shameless i know) but that was before when i had the energy. i guess I'm tired. tired of people not appreciating my existence. 

i am definitely there for him but i know he doesn't need me. (sad right i know, cry now)

and so starting from now, i will appreciate those ppl who had been appreciating me and realise my existence. although there are some one that i rejected, to whom it may concern, I'm so sorry but i think we just cannot be together. you know who you are, the one i did not reply you on fb messenger,  forget me. I'm sure you'll get a girl thousand times better than me. 

I'm sure. 

i just want to appreciate the time i have right now with my friends family and my pet. 

and just let things go by nature. cause i find it pointless to be the one always making the move. if want to date me, just ask, i will make time for you no matter what. like how I'm trying to slot in my time with my family friends and my pet haha. 

and erm, i still haven't lose any weight HAHAHAHAHAHA I SUCKS I KNOW. 

okay bye . i will start my diet next week k. 

thanks for reading, may you have a good day. :)

WAY TOO LONG

HEY ALL READERS (:

it's been so long, i think more than a year i updated my blog.

when i log in, i saw a few commented on some of my post. haha made me smile when i look who commented, obviously they are my best friends. thank you wen long and xue ting if you guys reading this. haha. it could be one of the handsomes also. thank goodness i have a few best friends around me.

and i too was posted in a great ward in Ng Teng Fong where i met great colleagues.
wells, it has been 3 years isn't it i had been a staff nurse?

still have no intention to further studies though. haha. guess I'm not ready yet. it's not easy as it seems to study and work at the same time ya know?

okay so yesterday i went trekking, it was for freaking 3 hours and i survived. totally should do this more often, hey i have life okay beside work eat sleep tv shows all day everyday. haha. and yap i feel like in a tourist yesterday hahaha that bad.

so everyday after work when i come back home i'll see these 2. haha. my nieces. little durian and little pineapple. something that i should cherish everyday.

so it has also been 3 years since i dated anyone. but for now i have no plans as of yet. i guess it is still hard to open up. and my self esteem need to improve also.

nevertheless, I've gotten myself a new Macbook air and i think I'm gonna blog more often now. (:

stay tune!