Raya 2012

HELLO WORLD! 

It's been sooooooooooooooooooooooooo LONG since ive updated my blog. (: haha was browsing thru tho especially the past photos that really made my day. im pretty sure my time worth to post stuff like this in the blog is worth as all the memories stays with me, each and every special memories. (: 

So, for this year Raya 2012, my family and I make OUR VERY OWN KUIH and not buy from bazaar or wat. hehe (: and it was SOOOO GOOD. YUMMY. 

i prayed terawih for almost 20 days. :) alhamdullilah. insyaallah if i can celebrate another Ramadhan, i will do the same and more and make it as perfect as possible. (:

So, this year marks 15 years celebrating without arwah papa, and 2 years without arwah atok. Al-fateha. Insyaallah mereka berada di tempat-tempat orang yang beriman. Amin. Tomorrow morning insyaallah, will visit arwah papa grave first thing first before we celebrate hari mulia ini. (:

For the first day, i will be enjoying kuih, and will be sambut people who come visit our house, but we will not keluar. We will only keluar AFTER MY EXAMS. ugh. EXAM WHYS OF WHYSSSSSSS MUST U EVEN EXIST?

 yup, this is me and my lil bro doing our job. (: so today we had kemas our house! YAYYYYY BIG BIG HURRAAAYYYYY!  (pardon my fat face there, i agree that ive really grown very very fat now)

maybe cause im really happy with life now as im really blessed with family, close friends, siblings, and boyfriend. :)

Insyaallah, i WILL TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT, HAHAHHAAHAA

Adios, :)

Alone

I know im not alone, i have many friends, i have boyfriend, i have family, i have Allah s.w.t.
But idk why, i feel empty inside. Why am i not happy?
I find myself so complicated, so dumb. I realised i been increasing weight way way too much. yet, i don do anything about it. I just don know. Somebody pls slap my face.
I just miss my childhood, when i worry nothing.

I feel so stress in school, i really feel like i cannot cope, but i have to keep moving on. i already failed my journey in JC and disappoint my family. I have to make it this time. To earn Diploma Of Merit at least. I have to. I wish to be  good nurse, and be able to teach future student nurses. At least i have an aim. And to find someone who can tolerate me, and adjust to my job style..
I want izzi to be my last, at least thats wat i hope for. And i really wan to lose weight.
But how?
Well, im gonna run and run.For at least everyday now. Im tired of people calling me names, and making fun of me. i have to be determined this time. Sigh.

I know i have the bestest things in the world, i just couldn find the reason of my unhappiness inside me. I really don know.
Maybe its cause im pms but sometimes i don feel tat way.. i don know..

i wonder who will even read this blog of mine, its like so dead. HAHA

H for Happy

HELLO LOVE! 

Sneak peek from Penny's house to bake walnut banana cake and egg mayo sandwiches! 

yes, and more food to come. this BBQ has ALOT ALOT OF FOOOOD.

 Yummmmmyyeeehhh jelly! 

 My beloved classmates, NR1105. Hearts them all to bits and pieces. 

Hello world! It's been long since ive updated my blog. So yesterday NR1105 had another exciting BBQ outing! hehe you guys see some of the photos ive uploaded here right? i knoe some of u may be thinking, "omg is tat mira/azmira? so fat now!" haha thanks eh. its cause im happily attached to someone who never fails to feed me and im a happy girl! but okay, i promised myself start from 30April onwards, i shall start my diet!

ok chaos! Assalamualaikum.I need to study! Year 2 is not easy!

the best ive ever had

Spend time with them today(: Had a good bowling exercise hehe (: and it was definitely FUN! hehe :D my baby brothers are such a ncie people, i really wished and hoped they found a good girlfriend and their future is bright. They are going NS too also but it will be on May. yap today we celebrate for bby before he go NS this thurs. Wish bby all the best in NS my love! I promised i wait for bby and promised to do all my promises! ((:

Assalamualaikum(:

Saturday hurray!

hello people! back to updating my blogggggggggggg! ((: today i went Arab Street with kakak and mama. I went to eat at Zam Zam restaurant and it was AWESOME. SUPERRRRRRRRRRRB! hahahaha i ate thosai n chicken chop! fuh!

Yeah tats me above. chubby rite? chubby ttm rite? damn! i must start my exerciseee! 2 more weeks to attachment . this time in surgical ward. so far, my holiday has been good (: but my bby boy going NS PRETTY SOOOOOOOOOOOOON. D: sad or wat? le sigh.

BUT i can do it, im strong, im independent and I CAN WAIT FOR HIM! yeah. hehe

tired le from arab street. gonna finish my whole of krorean drama. and i starting to eat less now! GOOD JOB MIRA! yeha keep it on! ((: i can dress up abit now. but my hair now, i just don knoe how to like, make it nice n style. AND I STILL HAVEN PUT ON MAKEUP. KWA KWA KWA! haha will soon, maybe on my 21st birthday as i officially become adult. heeeeeee(:

oklah, i gtg. see you guys!

Assalamualaikum (:

Been attached for a year now.

So my bby finally will go NS in 8 March.. Somehow my heart sank when the date getting nearer.. But i have to be strong.. oh wells, im in fact memang strong.. living for like single for quite some time before i was attached.. but my heart still aches . its not that i cant live without him, its sense of somebody not there to text you all day when he used to.. but i guess i can pass my time each day with exercising n watching drama plus praying..

he cant see me altho he's going in soon, the only time we can spend time is on 6 march.. le sigh.. when im single, i used to think n hope for a stable relationship, one who is faithful with me.. now as im in relationship, i really wan to be recognised by his family, n my family to see him.. i feel so awkward being with a guy so long yet no nothing about family.. its like le sigh.. no wonder my mum expectations of a guy is so high and many.. to have someone as responsible as my late father is not easy to find.. and maybe now is still not the time to get serious..

i envy those couple who knows each other family, and the family will bring them out to family outing and all sort.. we even have to hide ourselves.. and to date with someone younger than you is tougher.. i love him, and i noe he loves me alot, its just i feel so unfair.. i told my mum i went out with him, yet he told his mum other things.. i felt bad, like a not a gd gal. le sigh. i never tot i will feel this way, i guess im not a typical teenager girl anymore who willing to hide her relationship and continue with it without parents consent.. i guess im now a responsible person and mature.. i don wanna lie and hurt my family, also not to other people family. its just, le sigh.

he promise me he will meet mama when he go ns, or after ns.. yes, he's been buying stuff for my family and all, like big box of chocolates and all, but still, le sigh. i cant expect too much from someone who is younger than me. sometimes i feel sick myself for scolding him too much.

my bf is kind, caring, sweet, loving, handsome..but his weakness is his family. n my weakness too. maybe i expect too much from him, but i really cant accept this. i got the guts feelings his family wont like me, and my family wont like him.. le sigh, after a year being together, this question still pondering in my mind..is he the one for me?

Assalamualaikum.

It's been so long huh?

Been MIA for so long alr, here are the pictures, quick glance to see what my life has been. (:

My kakak love Wani sis wedding (: and these girls are my gangs, closest frens in poly :D

Do you know i had ended the Year 1 Nursing ? Hehe , my groups members were simply awesome :) i will never forget the fun we have in year 1. n how we all first met.

and us? we still tgt tho. we're now 1 year. and this guy gonna be a man soon. 8 march to NS!

It's been so long since i last updated huh? Wells, been too busy with life, and so many things going on, i cant possibly write it all out. Haha but for those out there who wanna know how i am right now, im fine and never been happier. I learnt to appreciate life, and living happily every single day ever since i became a student nurse.

Im 19 now. N soon gonna be in my 20s. Haha can u believe it? I been keeping this blog of mine for many years alr.. since im sec 2. hehe how cute. i became much chubbier(fatter) now. really, seriously, mum been nagging at me to take care of myself before i became like a bomb, hmm like a 200pound lady. OMG. i cant see myself like tat. haahhaahaha while reading this, u guys wil think like LOL rite? ((: haha.

Sometimes, i wanna know who are my previous enemies, and how they are now. wait, in the first place, who are my enemies? HAHA. nah, i don think people will like reminiscence the past tat are meant to be forgiven, & forgotten.

While reading back my previous posts, i laughed at myself, really, why am i so dramatic last time? No wonder im such an unsocialable girl. hehe. im still plain look like, not using any makeups til now, im proud of tat tho((: as my future job will discourage me to do tat either.

okay, but for today onwards, i promised myself to update my blog! and and tmr onwards shall go exercise!