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hi people, im definitely worried abt my life rite now. i don know what my future lies.

i seems to really get tired. maybe im just tired of lazing around.

first day of work is tis coming sat, and it is in the morning, and im kinda worried n scared.

sigh.

baby, if only u knew every single day i wish to see you, every single day i wish to be by ur side. And as i type all this, tears coming out. idk why. i just feel helpless. like idk hu to tell to oso. i hate tis feeling. /: really. but ur always working n schooling n gg out wit u frens n family but nvr have time for me. idk. i so much want to bring the matter up but i just don wan to be selfish. tats all because idk. maybe i just have too much time of my own and always missing you. i shd just stop it rite? yeah. nvm, starting from tmr onwards, i will be bz wit my life, n i wont disturb u anymore.

i wont. i promise. n its just so hard to tell u by sms, really.

SIGH.

gotta go. i cant seem to do anything. so moody. bye.

assalamualaikum.

feel like screaming my lungs out tat i have THE BEST BF EVER !

Itsssssss MONDAY PEOPLE !

hehehehe the day im seeing the mp ltr, n hmm :/ maybe i wanna go jp to pay my bill and look out for pri 3 stuff to tutor tmr. hehehehe :)

i jus woke up! and baby still sleeeeeping, soooo cute lah!

its been 1 month and 2 weeks we been tgt :) and still counting! years to come n future to come i'll be really his! hahaha mira mira, keep dreaming.. u noe gals like to dream of their prince charming and stuff like tat? hehehehe baby izzi is my prince who ive always dream to be with :)

LOVE is sucha wonderful feeling man. Yeah, we always quarrel and stuff but well, that's ups and downs in relationship. i wont mind gg thru all this wit him, because i really love him.

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

i have to enjoy sleeping and resting n having fun while i can before sch terms start ! hehehehe :)

and i want my baby! okay, i shall go sleeep wit my baby now.

assalamualaikum .

True frens :)

Goooooooooooood Morning FRIDAY !

hehehehe, ytd i had my time wit yolanda! yeah again! and i must really thank her for getting me a good job wit awesome pay ! i will be working in Science Centre and also as a home tutor :)

yeah, so work, check, school, check, family matters, check, true frens, check, boyfren, check.

Complete my life to start of afresh in 2011 (:

One of the reasons why i wan to get iphone 4.

heheheehe :)

ehhh im so chubby OH MY.

okay but still, i look nice :)
yeah ! hearts them ttm ! hahahaha :) 6yrs of frenship and moving on! :)

wit them, im so myself. unlike in JCs, i don think i ever wanna go back there again. One of my most regret in my life is to come JC. so yeah . sighhh. nvm
At least i learnt alot of lesson thru it.. hehehe, im gonna start afresh in poly ! and tat time, i went to my sch wit my mum, was sooooo amazed by the size of the school and everything.. hehehe its just one problem, my student card my face SUX TTM ! oh my i look damn chubby ! nvm, tis semester in school, im gonna trained myself well, and changed my lifestyle. not forgetting my family and true frens and of course BABYYY IZZI! hehehehe :)
my guy whom i want spend the rest of my life with :)

i cant wait for school. really /:
Assalamulaikum.

him..

he makes me feel proud of myself
he encourage me whenever im down
he will be there for me when i need him
he will take care of my everyday very well
he loves cuddling me
he loves me
he is my one and only
but the thing is,
am i being a good gal for him?
i have mood swings tat even my family cant take it.
i will always want attention ffrom the person i love,
i always want his attention to me.
i guess im being too selfish.
and tats y i tot maybe he deserve someone better
but now, as he is ignoring me, ignoring my explanation
i feeel like damn sad. damn regret. i shd have known, he will never want me to say all tis,
cause i must be proud of myself, must be strong,
and also think, tat im the best for him
i really seriously doesn want hurt him, because he doesn deserve to be hurt.
and im so hurt now. especially when he ignores me ):
i cant live without him.
i need him badly. and i cant imagine him wit another gal but ME.
yeah):
i nid u now bby.
sigh.
i noe u gonna ignore me for sure.

family matters

o.O have i updated about the time i went USS wit my family?

hehehehehe it was AWESOME !

nyehahaha. my sis paid for our tickets. n yeah:)

ME !

look at my sis' make up n mine ! hahahaah! hers is totally thicker than mine!

As i look upon my family photos, i told myself, we've gone this far, we've suffered enough and this is it, we deserve wat we have now. Although now currently short of cash for my school, i know we gonna pull it thru cuz we gone thru tougher times than this. hehehe.

in 3 yrs down the road, i will be a successful. and in times to come, i will be a better person. in this 2 yrs back then, my life is like im living in a dark tunnel.. my frenship, my love , my family life everythng just messed up.

im glad, in 2011, im enlightened, alhamdullilah. my family stays strong tgt, we forgive n forget. my one true love is beside me every 24/7 365. ive found my true frens who really stick by me whenever i got my sorrows n happiness to share with.

so today, BY TODAY, all my sch stuff enrolment will finish and done. on monday, me n my mum plan to see the minister. :/ and every mon n tues, 730pm-930pm, i will be home tutoring.
and my driving shall be continued, aiming to get a licence by this year. yeah !

GO MIRA GO ! hehehehe ((:

assalamualaikum.

And i wish today's never ends.

hey guys ! :)

today i have the time of my life wit my booboo izzi ! yayyyyyyyy! hehehehehe :)

okay first thing, we met at pioneer station, and i was engrossed wit my phone and he touches my cheeeek ! ouh was shocked by it! hehehe

and then we went to his schoooooool! so awesome pls especially when we have to take the LRT LIKE OMGGGGGGGG WOWWWWWWWWWWWW! HEHEHE.

thanks bbyyyyy! for letting me enjoy in the LRT. sooooooo coooooooool man i tell u. (Y)

and den we went to wudland mrt and met his fren. hhehehe i saw 2 of his frens alr. so cooool. reminds me of my frens toooo. it seeeems we had sooooo much in common (:

i studied! pri 5 science.. becoming a tutor/teacher is definitely not easy, u got to plan the lesson n everything. sighhhh. BUT im done wit my first lesson and bby help me check! he say ok! so ok! :)

otw back home wit bby is shioknessssssssssssss. i love long ride bus wit him :) hehehe and his shoulder is the best place to sleeeep and my best smelly pillow ever ! hehehe!

14 14 14 ! i love tat no n he love it tooooooooO!

OKAY, den send me home , a nice warmth hug and kiss simply ends my Monday wit a SMILE :)

ily lah bby!

Turning over a new leaf.

As i look back to the past (i know i shouldn) , i realise how stupid and naive i were. How i took life so granted and din cherish those good times i have and oso not being serious in life.

i realised how much ive grown from 16 yrs old gal to 18. its beeeeeen 2 yrs, and my life chg horifically. OMG.

i noe ppl always say its not too late to turn to the right path, but i just feel tat my life is totally wasted. those 2 yrs before, my life is like a horror. A NIGHTMARE.

like, why don i realise my family has beeeeeen always supporting me be it financially or emotionally? why cant baby izzuddin rescue me 2yrs back? why cant i think maturely at tat moment point of time? why don i reflect myself and see how much evil ive became?

astafirlahalazim.

2009 and 2010 were horrofic. i don wan ever look at the past. so much betrayal, so much sigggghhhh. wat can i do? its alr the past and i cant chg it.

okay, tis yr, is 2011, and im starting my life afresh, im being the old mira again, the 16 yrs old last time who never have any stress and everyday life is just so happpyyy.

well, actually tis year, it started quite well, especially when ive met the love of my life. the one who understands me, the one who love me for who i am, the one who wants nothing from me but my sincere love. and i sincerely love him wit all my heart.

for him, i willing to change my life for the better, cuz of him, i see my once-upon mira. we share many things in common, and watever he has in him, i have it too in me. he make me reflect back of who i am.

alhamdullilah once again he came to my life.

i hope tomorrow medical check-up will be alright (as im really into of becoming a nurse) and hope the payment of school fees will be okay. and thus i can online enrol myself in nyp. and therefore live my life to the fullest, and study hard to become a passionate nurse in future. not forgetting my dear family and true frens and of course, my true love, baby.

its 12:54 am and i cant sleeeep still, i just cant help feeeling how much my baby has really changed me to my oldself, my real self, inside me is shine, like a firework.

cause baby you're my firework!

BABY IZZUDDIN IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT MIRA REALLY LOVES YOU ALOT, AND CAUSE OF YOU, I AM TO MY OLD SELF BACK AGAIN. I LOVE YOU WIT ALL MY HEART, NOW AND FOREVER. THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR COMING TO MY LIFE. ILYSM!

heheheehe i feeel much better after letting it out, i guess i shd join my baby sleep now.

assalamualaikum.