MIRA KITARA

SCHOOOOOOOOL !

2011-11-10T19:52:00.003+08:00

did i post about how fun i had for this year raya? hehe

2011-10-09T19:15:00.003+08:00

hehe im glad i have them in my life, and met them in my life. Don wan ask much, i love my poly life, love more than anything :)

ok mira, get moving!

2011-08-06T20:22:00.002+08:00

im not jealous of thin ppl around me, im not. its just, im always tired, which is why i have to get started to eat less, exercise more. but im always saying and no achievement. well now, its really time because attachment is coming soon and im onlt left with two weeks. i can do it!

my first upmost priority is to get my belly flat. yeah! i aim for tat.

go mira.

the day you went away.

2011-08-03T08:26:00.002+08:00

if only he knew his family whom he adores, live happily till now without forgettin him:)

if only he knew that im a student nurse, and im much a happier person now.

if only he knew how 'big' i became.

if only he knew that i have changed to a better person.

if only he knew that aliff is a big boy now.

if only he knew how happy my mum now.

if only he knew that we all love him and still remembers him after 14 years passed.

ilove you papa. and u will never be forgotten..

i remember the day u celebrate my only birthday wit me.

i remember the day when you hold my hands.

i remember how much you love me wholeheartedly.

i remember how fast i ran to you, when i saw you.

i remember how you watch me danicing and singing when im small.

i remember how you smile when you see me singing for the first time the national anthem.

i remember how you have treated me as your own daughter.

never, will i forget a kind soul like you. never. :')

Only 18, yet.

2011-07-30T21:45:00.003+08:00

take a gooooooooooooood look at this guy:) he's young and soon gonna be bulky. a very lovely, kind, generous, sweet, caring, and loving. He's all i need, and all i got, and wat i wan for the rest of my life. i believe, meeting him , and being wit him, starts my life afresh and to a better person:) i love him more than that very first day we met. he never fails to make me smile, to pamper me, to buy me stuff which i like, to console me when im down, to cheer me up and also to ease me when im angry. baby, you're the only guy i wan in this world, cuz no one else is like you. You're really the kindest person ive ever met, and i don wan any other gals to have you but only me. you change my life to a better one, you make me become a better person, and you brings up the real me. im me when im with you baby. i can finally share myself, my soul with you, someone like you, who love me as who i am, and who love me more than himself deserves a greater love. all i can give you is my pure sincereness towards my love for you, my faithfulness, and my support, my heart and also most importantly, my life. you're my life baby, and i really thank you that you came to my life. thank you so much my dear. thank you. im very grateful to have you.

ILOVE YOU BABY :)

hello!

2011-07-27T21:22:00.002+08:00

hello guys! it's beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen so long i din update my blog. kwangs:) hehehehehe! so tdy me n my classmates celebrate Nurses' Day and National Day:) hehehe it was awesome maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan! :) the foooood is nice and especially the cake. and i have put on weight! yeah ur right so happy tat im becoming a chubbier person! omg!

hahahaha oh wells, fasting month coming, and im gonna do sth abt my weigh man. /:

hehehe im still wit my darling precious bby love :) ILY BBY!

Nursing is my passion.

2011-07-16T21:01:00.005+08:00

MS YONG'S TREAT FOR US CUZ EVERYBODY PASS FOR SKILLS TEST!

POWERPOINT PROJECT LA GROUP 4 ONE LAAAAAA.

helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo people who read my blog :D hehehehe haven been like everytime post these days /: well, busy with life. hmm, anw! im sponsored by JH and im happppppppppyyyyyyyy! means, there is sth topush me thru all these 3 yrs in Nursing. hehe! attachment is like coming soon. 0.0 ITS LIKE ON THE 29 AUGUST LIKE OMGEEEE RITE? heh. /: anw, i really love school n been happy.Maybe tats why, i been putting on alot of weight. sheez. my kakak just told me just now, u put on so much weight! omg. hmm tats it! i must refrain myself from :

1. waffle

2. fast-food

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! tis is like torturing for me ): but wat to do! i cant seem to fit all my old clothes lately. ): and i have a bf who is a fitness trainer, training people to lose weight but ME? bad bad example. tats it, im gonna start running. shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. -.- i hate running! but why i jus love fitness guy? hmmmm /: well, opposite attracts. heh. problem wit him have yet to be solved, since his family doesnt really like him to be in relationship, i just don noe wat to do. i tried to keep it to myself how painful to see him suffering like tis. i want to ease his suffering by letting me go, and me letting him go bit by bit.. haix ): too bad i cant cuz i just love him too much. but i will try, cuz seeing his brother n sister hating me so much, i should just let go.. rite? i don noe, im still confused myself wat to do. perhaps, should just give me some time to settle. i love him very much tho. :)

okay, so tis coming monday got bioscience practical test! im all ready for muscle n heart but bones? errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr-.- why bonesssssssssssss?

n nursing theory test oso tis coming wed! so like it tested all the way tat had been taught from first day of school till now? /: maybe i should study it properly cuz its like gonna have attachment mah, so must noe the necessary stuff in hospital. hehe :) i somehow scared n oso cant wait to go attachment at AH. its like.. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! i wan i wan! but scared tat i cant be able to do anything /:

hehehe gonna mug for bioscience! chiong allll theeeeeeeeeee waaaaaaaaay!

when you love someone, nothing else matters.

2011-07-15T04:40:00.004+08:00

i love my life.

it's been 6years..

2011-07-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

Yepp, it has been 6 years and this blog, is still surviving.. Had read thru the pasts, and well, my past are history. Not gonna feel regret or wat, it's just my fate & luck. :)

All i know, im a much happier person now thanks to the surrounding.

I have sucha an awesome classmates, bf & family.

Where in the world can anybody replace them?

Seriously, i really love my life, and i would ask for anything more. i just wan these to continue and nothing change. hehe. well altho some people might change for a reason, well, at least, ive found true frenship n relationship tis year. A rabbit year, really a good year for monkey :) heh. okay, now on a serious note, i had important exams n test tis July and wit all the Semestral Exams in August plus my attachment in AH. ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan . O.O hhahahahaha.but im loving it to becoming a student nurse. i would not ask for more man! :D

hehehehehehehe! altho there are like many things going on in school, and everybody like stressssssssssss out , oh wells, NR1105 never fails to make my day! hhehehe plus my beloved bf! ph how can i live without them? :D

ILOVESCHOOL!

2011-07-01T14:57:00.003+08:00

MY NYP LIFE AS A STUDENT NURSE!

hehehe, coming to NYP has definitely put on my weight alot! heheh but tdy wit my consoling and supporting frens, manage to climb the stairs everyday without fail. :) HEHEHEE. nyp is an awesome school wit so much headache, laughter and true frenship.

It true that poly is fun!

My only regret in life is that i enter JC, and i shd knew in the first place i shouldn.

How's my course gg? Well, exams and presentations coming, and workin wit my awesome group, wah! motivation to coming to school is greater each day :) i just love tis people i met now. We all different age, different background, but we have same passion that keeps us tgt.

heh heh.

I LOVE NR1105!

how now?

2011-06-15T08:11:00.004+08:00

good morning dear blog :) its been so the very long ive had updated my blog man. hmmm. hehehehe! anws, my life is good, alhamdullilah, im wit him for 4 months alr and counting of course :D hehehe! my work life is okok, at least im not cashless :) hehe! love life, is simply awesome. anw, i wont be seeing him till sunday): gonna miss him very much tho. haix. hmm hehe anws! we both bz wit our life, he is wit his attachment, mine wit my sch holidays n how much i shd study now actually, cuz when sch reopens, my life will be super packed ! hehe anw im doing fine in school :) i got an amazing group and it was just plain awesome la :) hehe! i want to be like yanti, know everything n its like wow! hehe! hmmm :/ i must learn to read up more, and do myself more research so when school reopens, i will be just okay. hehe ive got A for bioscience n weeeeeeeeeeeeee! hehehehehe :D Sponsorship wise, i hope i get either NUH or JH. tis two hospitals are my only hope to work here :) i just went to JH interview n it turns out fine, next im making an interview soon to NUH, i hope my interview is next week. hehe! If i gotten JH, den its fine with me cuz the people there are simply awesome, maybe after 3 yrs bonding, i moved to NUH? hehe confirmed can one, cuz my mum been working there for like so the very long. haha. oh wells, my life is good, alhamdullilah . and ya :) me starting afresh wit my new school, new work, new guy in my life :)

assalamualaikum .

alhamdullilah, 3rd month already.

2011-05-14T20:36:00.003+08:00

happiest gal on Earth thanks to this guy above :)

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehooooooooooooooooo! LIKE WE CELEBRATED 3RD MONTHSARY TGT!

i love baby.

lotsa fun tgt! especially when i fetch him from work just now at jbp :) alalala! so cute!sucha small boy i fell in love wit, now and forever!

ok, im tired ah, hmm, CAUSE I HAD SOOOOOOOO MUCH FUN TODAY!

assalamualaikum.

work work work no pay.

2011-05-08T14:38:00.004+08:00

hello people! :)

im done wit the scripts! like yay! i hope its excellent work :) never wanna fail ICA man.

So yeah, i have been working in Pictureworks for a month now and the pay has yet to be in . Only on 15th May. sigh. :/

i think im quiting tis job tis June . And im not gonna teach tution.. Too tired. hehe! i noe im teaching good students and the family is good. But i still think of quitting. I hope i get my sponsorship from any hospital, so i can get money every month from the government(one of the good thing why PAP shd win cuz MOH is really gd) hehe! :)

my baby oso quitting his job! so we're finding tgt. i cant stand work tat makes sales. i hate it la. i don really like being under people. Yes, the people is nice, but they're all look so faked. hmm :/ nvm. hehe!

exam coming NEXT WEEK. n its BIOSCIENCE! woooohoo! i don wan history to repeat, so mira, better get crack n study now. its actually last min, a week before aru belajar, but yeah! i can do it! 50 MCQ and im gonna owned it man! :D

okay, er 7 more days to my 3rd monthsary wit baby :) da 3 bulan seh. lame pe. hehe!

assalamualaikum :)

poly is just so fun !

2011-05-05T10:59:00.003+08:00

and when i say fun, i really mean the word. it is REALLY FUN.

hehehehe

ilovemyclass and my classmates, super duper different from the class n frens i have last time.

it really shows and opens up who i really am. i wanna work hard so badly, to stay 3 yrs wit them.

hehe! im a treasurer in class so its like im really trusted by most of them and im glad about it :)

hehehe!

now im in school alr, and its still early, but oh wells, i love my school :)

IM IN DIKIR BARAT GRP. LIKE YAY! hehehe :)

and i got a good frens around me ! like ain, ira, yanti and wani!

weehooooooo!

those old frens of mine who wanna noe how i am.

IM GOOD AND HEALTHY ! :D

Assalamulaikum :)

im tired but happy .

2011-04-24T07:42:00.001+08:00

LIFE IS GETTING PACKED EACH DAY !

still im a happy gal :) hehehe weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

thanks to the guy of my life :) who everyday make my day withut fail. wooohooo!

okay, i want go eat.

tata!

2nf Month !

2011-04-14T10:28:00.002+08:00

Happy 2nd Monthsary Baby Izzi !

hehehehehe :) just the thought of him makes me smileeeeeeeeeeeeee.

like weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

today is OUR DAY !

no one shall gets our way !

im am sick again

2011-04-09T19:50:00.003+08:00

i hate it when im sick. like eeeerrrrggggggghhhhhhhhh /: wah, today work was effing fast but tiring siol. and at the end of the day, everybody seems to piss me off. when im home, i thought there was fooooood but guess wat? ALL MY FAMILY FELL ASLEEEEEEP. and i tried order mac, n damn TELL ME TO CALL BACK IN AN HOUR TIME. LIKE DAMN CB. kay, i want bathe n sleep.

work is tiring but was awesome okay

2011-04-08T20:26:00.002+08:00

ALOHA ! *shuffles*

hehehehe ! waaaah, today work is dammmnnnn tiring altho its kinda slack..

and i made no sales. 0 SALES. like OMG. haha.

sighhh. /:

hahaha i met new fren who name is Beatrice and SYAFIQAH ! hahahaha! LONG TIME NO SEE HER. my fb fren :) was happy to see her in my workplace. and she work in the same workplace as me ! like weeeeeeeeeeeee ! hehehehe :) SUCHA SMALL WORLD MAN.

work was like damn slack in science centre and boring but it worth the money. hehehe! for money sake man.. been working n wah my schedule super packed ttm. but no matter wat, me n bby still msg :) hehehe tmr am workng again and sunday too.. waaaahhh freaking tired.. den mon training n home tuition. fooooo! packed pe. hehehe i just cant wait for my anni wit bby. i wanna kisss him n hug him sooooooooooooooooooo badly ! :)

ytd i had a date wit him before i meet my mum and it was definitely the sweeeeeeetest memory ive ever have in my life (": hehehehe! ILOVEHIMSOMUCH!

will nvr forget all the times we spend tgt. hehe!

wooooooooooooooooooooots ! :)

happy gal !

assalamualaikum

sweeeeeeeeet life

2011-04-07T13:28:00.002+08:00

hehehehe ! i just got my pay for home tuition ytd.. hehehe they are so efficient la ! :)

one more week to go, and i will start my school. sigh. /:

hehehe i cant wait anyway ! yeah! hehe! :D

I LOVE MY JOB LA ! i love my job, i love my frens, i love my school, and i love my boyfren !

today super slaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack.

oh wells, i deserve it.. tmr gonna work -.- always working.. 3 days straight, fri sat n sun.

siggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggh.

ok byebye meeting baby soon ! like sooooooooooooooon after his work ! yeah !

assalamualaikum :)

And i love my life now.

2011-04-04T15:39:00.003+08:00

Hellooo readers ! :)

On Friday i went out wit my bestest n longest frenship ever, my 12 yrs frenship, Diana. Hehehe, up till now, i still rmbr our past :) yeeeaahhh! Great time wit her ! We walked around vivo and bugis and yeah ! awessssoomeee moments ! more times wit her !

And idk why these days i love smiling wit teeth. Guess im toooo happy wit life ! :D

hehehee:)

Currently im working at PictureWorks Science Centre. The work is slacky, and met many funny peoples and random oso.. but it was tiring and fun :) hehehe!

and baby fetch me from work on my 2nd day of work ! like woooohooooo! *shuffles*

hehehehe he sooooooooooooooooooooo sweeeeet la ! always melting whenever i see him:)

my life, my drug and my baby!

TODAY WENLONG TREAT ME PIZZAHUT SIA. tsk, rich kid. heheh!

oh wells, he's gg NS tmr so BON VOYAGE WENLONG ! u got my support man ! :)

hehehehe

im a much happier gal now, maybe its cuz my family din really quarrel much altho there is tension but it will be ok tmr.. and the most definite ans why im a much happier person now is ive found the most wonderful guy ever! he may not have everything, he may not be perfect, but he is the one who stole my entire heart, and whom i wan to spend the rest of my life with ! and i changed for the better becuz of him! awwwwww hehehehehe ILYSM BBY!

heheheheeh

happy happy gal

assalamualaikum :)

tired.

2011-03-31T20:55:00.003+08:00

If u wan, order okay. :) email me. aazmiraa@hotmail.com

hi people, im definitely worried abt my life rite now. i don know what my future lies.

i seems to really get tired. maybe im just tired of lazing around.

first day of work is tis coming sat, and it is in the morning, and im kinda worried n scared.

sigh.

baby, if only u knew every single day i wish to see you, every single day i wish to be by ur side. And as i type all this, tears coming out. idk why. i just feel helpless. like idk hu to tell to oso. i hate tis feeling. /: really. but ur always working n schooling n gg out wit u frens n family but nvr have time for me. idk. i so much want to bring the matter up but i just don wan to be selfish. tats all because idk. maybe i just have too much time of my own and always missing you. i shd just stop it rite? yeah. nvm, starting from tmr onwards, i will be bz wit my life, n i wont disturb u anymore.

i wont. i promise. n its just so hard to tell u by sms, really.

SIGH.

gotta go. i cant seem to do anything. so moody. bye.

assalamualaikum.

feel like screaming my lungs out tat i have THE BEST BF EVER !

2011-03-28T08:16:00.004+08:00

Itsssssss MONDAY PEOPLE !

hehehehe the day im seeing the mp ltr, n hmm :/ maybe i wanna go jp to pay my bill and look out for pri 3 stuff to tutor tmr. hehehehe :)

i jus woke up! and baby still sleeeeeping, soooo cute lah!

its been 1 month and 2 weeks we been tgt :) and still counting! years to come n future to come i'll be really his! hahaha mira mira, keep dreaming.. u noe gals like to dream of their prince charming and stuff like tat? hehehehe baby izzi is my prince who ive always dream to be with :)

LOVE is sucha wonderful feeling man. Yeah, we always quarrel and stuff but well, that's ups and downs in relationship. i wont mind gg thru all this wit him, because i really love him.

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

i have to enjoy sleeping and resting n having fun while i can before sch terms start ! hehehehe :)

and i want my baby! okay, i shall go sleeep wit my baby now.

assalamualaikum .

True frens :)

2011-03-25T08:00:00.004+08:00

Goooooooooooood Morning FRIDAY !

hehehehe, ytd i had my time wit yolanda! yeah again! and i must really thank her for getting me a good job wit awesome pay ! i will be working in Science Centre and also as a home tutor :)

yeah, so work, check, school, check, family matters, check, true frens, check, boyfren, check.

Complete my life to start of afresh in 2011 (:

One of the reasons why i wan to get iphone 4.

heheheehe :)

ehhh im so chubby OH MY.

okay but still, i look nice :)
yeah ! hearts them ttm ! hahahaha :) 6yrs of frenship and moving on! :)

wit them, im so myself. unlike in JCs, i don think i ever wanna go back there again. One of my most regret in my life is to come JC. so yeah . sighhh. nvm
At least i learnt alot of lesson thru it.. hehehe, im gonna start afresh in poly ! and tat time, i went to my sch wit my mum, was sooooo amazed by the size of the school and everything.. hehehe its just one problem, my student card my face SUX TTM ! oh my i look damn chubby ! nvm, tis semester in school, im gonna trained myself well, and changed my lifestyle. not forgetting my family and true frens and of course BABYYY IZZI! hehehehe :)
my guy whom i want spend the rest of my life with :)

i cant wait for school. really /:
Assalamulaikum.

him..

2011-03-23T20:04:00.002+08:00

he makes me feel proud of myself
he encourage me whenever im down
he will be there for me when i need him
he will take care of my everyday very well
he loves cuddling me
he loves me
he is my one and only
but the thing is,
am i being a good gal for him?
i have mood swings tat even my family cant take it.
i will always want attention ffrom the person i love,
i always want his attention to me.
i guess im being too selfish.
and tats y i tot maybe he deserve someone better
but now, as he is ignoring me, ignoring my explanation
i feeel like damn sad. damn regret. i shd have known, he will never want me to say all tis,
cause i must be proud of myself, must be strong,
and also think, tat im the best for him
i really seriously doesn want hurt him, because he doesn deserve to be hurt.
and im so hurt now. especially when he ignores me ):
i cant live without him.
i need him badly. and i cant imagine him wit another gal but ME.
yeah):
i nid u now bby.
sigh.
i noe u gonna ignore me for sure.

family matters

2011-03-23T08:17:00.003+08:00

o.O have i updated about the time i went USS wit my family?

hehehehehe it was AWESOME !

nyehahaha. my sis paid for our tickets. n yeah:)

ME !

look at my sis' make up n mine ! hahahaah! hers is totally thicker than mine!

As i look upon my family photos, i told myself, we've gone this far, we've suffered enough and this is it, we deserve wat we have now. Although now currently short of cash for my school, i know we gonna pull it thru cuz we gone thru tougher times than this. hehehe.

in 3 yrs down the road, i will be a successful. and in times to come, i will be a better person. in this 2 yrs back then, my life is like im living in a dark tunnel.. my frenship, my love , my family life everythng just messed up.

im glad, in 2011, im enlightened, alhamdullilah. my family stays strong tgt, we forgive n forget. my one true love is beside me every 24/7 365. ive found my true frens who really stick by me whenever i got my sorrows n happiness to share with.

so today, BY TODAY, all my sch stuff enrolment will finish and done. on monday, me n my mum plan to see the minister. :/ and every mon n tues, 730pm-930pm, i will be home tutoring.
and my driving shall be continued, aiming to get a licence by this year. yeah !

GO MIRA GO ! hehehehe ((:

assalamualaikum.

And i wish today's never ends.

2011-03-21T19:30:00.002+08:00

hey guys ! :)

today i have the time of my life wit my booboo izzi ! yayyyyyyyy! hehehehehe :)

okay first thing, we met at pioneer station, and i was engrossed wit my phone and he touches my cheeeek ! ouh was shocked by it! hehehe

and then we went to his schoooooool! so awesome pls especially when we have to take the LRT LIKE OMGGGGGGGG WOWWWWWWWWWWWW! HEHEHE.

thanks bbyyyyy! for letting me enjoy in the LRT. sooooooo coooooooool man i tell u. (Y)

and den we went to wudland mrt and met his fren. hhehehe i saw 2 of his frens alr. so cooool. reminds me of my frens toooo. it seeeems we had sooooo much in common (:

i studied! pri 5 science.. becoming a tutor/teacher is definitely not easy, u got to plan the lesson n everything. sighhhh. BUT im done wit my first lesson and bby help me check! he say ok! so ok! :)

otw back home wit bby is shioknessssssssssssss. i love long ride bus wit him :) hehehe and his shoulder is the best place to sleeeep and my best smelly pillow ever ! hehehe!

14 14 14 ! i love tat no n he love it tooooooooO!

OKAY, den send me home , a nice warmth hug and kiss simply ends my Monday wit a SMILE :)

ily lah bby!

Turning over a new leaf.

2011-03-19T00:38:00.002+08:00

As i look back to the past (i know i shouldn) , i realise how stupid and naive i were. How i took life so granted and din cherish those good times i have and oso not being serious in life.

i realised how much ive grown from 16 yrs old gal to 18. its beeeeeen 2 yrs, and my life chg horifically. OMG.

i noe ppl always say its not too late to turn to the right path, but i just feel tat my life is totally wasted. those 2 yrs before, my life is like a horror. A NIGHTMARE.

like, why don i realise my family has beeeeeen always supporting me be it financially or emotionally? why cant baby izzuddin rescue me 2yrs back? why cant i think maturely at tat moment point of time? why don i reflect myself and see how much evil ive became?

astafirlahalazim.

2009 and 2010 were horrofic. i don wan ever look at the past. so much betrayal, so much sigggghhhh. wat can i do? its alr the past and i cant chg it.

okay, tis yr, is 2011, and im starting my life afresh, im being the old mira again, the 16 yrs old last time who never have any stress and everyday life is just so happpyyy.

well, actually tis year, it started quite well, especially when ive met the love of my life. the one who understands me, the one who love me for who i am, the one who wants nothing from me but my sincere love. and i sincerely love him wit all my heart.

for him, i willing to change my life for the better, cuz of him, i see my once-upon mira. we share many things in common, and watever he has in him, i have it too in me. he make me reflect back of who i am.

alhamdullilah once again he came to my life.

i hope tomorrow medical check-up will be alright (as im really into of becoming a nurse) and hope the payment of school fees will be okay. and thus i can online enrol myself in nyp. and therefore live my life to the fullest, and study hard to become a passionate nurse in future. not forgetting my dear family and true frens and of course, my true love, baby.

its 12:54 am and i cant sleeeep still, i just cant help feeeling how much my baby has really changed me to my oldself, my real self, inside me is shine, like a firework.

cause baby you're my firework!

BABY IZZUDDIN IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT MIRA REALLY LOVES YOU ALOT, AND CAUSE OF YOU, I AM TO MY OLD SELF BACK AGAIN. I LOVE YOU WIT ALL MY HEART, NOW AND FOREVER. THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR COMING TO MY LIFE. ILYSM!

heheheehe i feeel much better after letting it out, i guess i shd join my baby sleep now.

assalamualaikum.

grandma tales

2011-03-17T12:03:00.002+08:00

hehehehe me n my forever webcamminggggggggg ;)

tdy gg nenek esah house again like YAYYYYYY!

cuz her foooooooooooood ROCKS ! its beeeeen so long since ive eaten wat she had cooked. heehheehe miss her ! so me n aliff planning to attack watever she cooked for us latr like YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY! HAHAHAHA.

wahh, tis nyp stuff like so many things to do, wth, im so stress up, paywat tuition grant la, haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa. tis sat some more gg medical examination. -.-

lucky is by 25 march.

soooo 15 april is my orientation! like phewwww not 14 april, or else baby goonnaa be really mad at me. hehehehe

ok, i have to go offf now, BYE PEEEEEEEPS.

assalamualaikum.

my life turns better all thanks to you

2011-03-16T12:47:00.004+08:00

Hello people! it's been looonnnnnngggg since i have a proper post, a long and sweet one.

i still rmbr how xinyi (my junior) love to read my blog, but wait, tat was 2 yrs ago.

hehehe if u guys take a look at my history, ive been such a blogger freak. hehe.

My life been good so far, 2010, is a tough year and 2011 is showing me some fruitful year.

ive entered jc, and my next life is poly. im still quite unsure whether to retake but i noe one thing tat my mum is giving me full support of me becoming a nurse.

SIGH.

watever it is, i know tis is my last chance to really show myself tat i can do better n be somebody in life. all my life, i love the atmosphere of the hospital, i hope my future is really working in a hospital. heh.

my frens in jc are like hmm, idk, come n goes, i wish them all the best in their uni days anw.

some people, can make it there fast, but some others takes time, n tats me.

i may be slow, but i never stops. and to whoever who like to see me down and ruined, well sorry to disappoint you, i get back up on my feet, and starting afresh in poly.

heheheehe these are some pics tat really makes my day, everyday. hehehe :)

well, if u look close enuf, my small lil bro has a crush on someone, he's growing!

snickers love posing herself.

hehehe my JC frens, once upon a time. missing tat times, but its gone now.

my sis like finally wear scarf,after years of wearing 'revealing' clothes. alhamdullilah.

we went USS on 14 march, a day i will never forgets, when aliff acts like himself (and not like a teen) and mama was soooo happy and suppoting in takin roller coaster, and pretty kakak, still look pretty wearing scarf.

hehehe, well, after 2 yrs i spent in JC, i find myself a stronger person, altho to me it was quite a waste to be in tat sucky school. but at least i noe how harsh life is in Singapore, its not about the qualification or how smart u are, to survive in singapore, it about how u never give up trying, and 'expose' urself to different type of ppl.

In jc, also, is where ive found tat frens come, frens goes. and in life, we don really need frens, all we need are family, and TRUE frens.

after graduating from tat sucky school, ive found myself,

FAMILY. TRUE FREN. and TRUE LOVE.

yeah, syukur alhamdullilah.

i hope my days forward will be much better.

NANYANG POLY HERE I COME !

hehehehe and i love my baby izzuddin so much ! i will NEVER find another guy like him.

been wanting so much to find my addiction, n he is my one most addictive thing ever ! hehehe :)

thank you my love, thank you so much !

kay, shall end my post here.

Assamualaikum.

because our 1 month is ruined

2011-03-13T12:10:00.002+08:00

haixxxxxxxxxx.

he's my one n only bf whom i looooooking forward to celebrate our first month.

And this happen.

but wat to do.

life still goes on.

n tmr its the day im gg USS.

n my dream, is to actually go USS wit him. /:

its ok, on the bright side, he understands me, and im gg wit beloved family(:

like baby baby baby ohh

2011-03-11T09:16:00.003+08:00

im not working. ive beeeeeen slacking for a month now. hehe. :)

well. i just hope next month i would start sch again, and start anew.

4 april siol. tats long.

but im oso waiting for my JC posting results as i wan to retake my Alevels again.

:/ haiya stress! one of the reasons whyyy im not finding job is cause im waiting for tis ijc to call me. ugh. whether approve or not. SIAN TTM.

i waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan !

2011-03-09T20:22:00.004+08:00

omgggggggggggggg ! i waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan !

kempunan seyyyyyy! smebody go wit me ! NOW!

bby, i cant help thinking of the past.

2011-03-08T09:10:00.003+08:00

back on track.

hehhehe :)

how are you?

2011-03-01T11:59:00.004+08:00

heheh (: my stuff.

okay, if u ask me how am i, well, im GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD :D

hahahahaah life's been awesome lately. REAL AWESOME.

hahahahahaha.

okay well.

my ALEVEL results on friday ! nyehahahah DIE ! but oh wells, passed or fail, my family alr make plans for me. (:

family life? its plain awesome la. my brothers sisters alhamdullilah, ever since snickers came to our life, our rezeki betol2 da jadi murah. thanks snickers (:

love life? hahahaha, i met the best guy in the world, and im lucky enuf to have him ! ahahaha.

work?

T.T don ask me tat, im not gonna find work till i got my A's results. :)

okie dokie ! im done here. overall, my life's good lately, n nothing to post alr, so

CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERS.

my bbyyyyy izzzziiiii !

2011-02-28T21:59:00.002+08:00

the love of my life !

my only one !

friendship never ends

2011-02-22T11:33:00.003+08:00

this year movies not bad uhhhh/:

watched Black Swan & Just go wit it alr. not bad sia !

hahahahahaha (:

awwww, how i miss old times.. hehe :p

n i missss my bby ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT !

IZZUDIN !

Memories meant to be left behind

2011-02-16T11:16:00.002+08:00

as i look upon my photos in the past, make me really miss those times.

n i tot to myself, oh mira, ur 18, its been a long journey & many things have happened.

hahahahahaha

sometimes, is either you're too happy or too sad or too stress wit ur life, tat hey, u forgot who you really are, n how strong u actually is.

when you're young, the world doesn matters

all tat matters is ur family.

n as u grow up,

u tend to forget tat

u go for love n seeeeeek love

eventually u lose urself.

tats my story,

however, im lucky, as i manage to turn back, and walk to the right side of the road.

as i met, a boy, who is one in a million.

nice is too simplistic, he's more than ive ever wanted.

n he's my true love.

thanks bby. he change me alot.

change me for the better .

Blessed

2011-02-15T11:34:00.003+08:00

heheeheheheheh new stuff to buy. no, i have to buy more stuff! which is

No 1 : MORE CLOTHES.

No 2 : SHOE

No 3 : CAMERA

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

kinda tight in cash but nehmind. always living happily.

anw, i m blessed. alhamdullilah.

i love my bby.

i love my family.

very very muchy!

ive found the right one. i don care wat ppl say, i wanna be with him forever.

he's mine, now n forever.

our love is strong !

OFF TO BBDC NOW! SIAN MUCH !

You make my heart smile

2011-02-13T08:41:00.001+08:00

if my heart would have a mouth, it will be smiling because of you!
hehe.
falling in love is sucha sweeeeeetest thing in the world.
man.
tis is how love feeeeels like. TRUE LOVE i mean.
hahahaha
in love wit izzudin very much.
never would i let go
of such a nice person like him (:

Love. True love. Love. Found.

2011-02-10T07:52:00.003+08:00

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
im in loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
n it feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeels
good .

Heartbroken yet again. Cb sia.

2011-02-04T09:24:00.002+08:00

i love you till i can give the world to you.

im so damn in love wit you.

and u treat me like fcuk?

i call, u din ans,

i msg, u din reply.

not one fcuking msg from u ytd.

n oh yeah

u got a new person coming in ur life eh?

How awesomely terrible you are.

hah

n i love u so blooooody much?

ck.

*tears rolling*

there, u make me cry again

n u promise not to make me cry.

and i bloody still love you.

Tell me you love me, den why did you leave me all alone?

2011-02-01T12:18:00.002+08:00

smile. is the easiest thing to do.

pain, is the hardest feeling to overcome.

love, is the simplest way to to murder someone.

Bby you rock my world

2011-01-30T21:31:00.002+08:00

I think, i am sure, ive found my right one (:

Firstly, he has the same background as me. I love him so bloody much.
Secondly, he love me for who i am.
Thirdly, he has the responsibility.
Fourthly, he is the only one make me feel assured, that he is not two-timing me.
Lastly, i love him so much.

Muacks. To my bby.

just you wait, one month.

2011-01-07T14:31:00.003+08:00

starting from TODAY onwards, i cut down my intake.

Have to chg myself completely ~

head to toe.

i make sure u go woooo.

bye ppeeps ! till next month 7 feb !

before you judge people, think of their feelings.

2011-01-06T08:05:00.003+08:00

One of the reasons why my mood and my attitude seems fucky nowadays is thanks to this lil gal in her blog for ACCUSING me wrong stuff.
yea/: but i'll get over it.

i want to work . i wan to work so freakin bad/: .

Pls, let me work on this 10 Jan. Pls let me. Pleasssssssssssssssssssssssssssse.

i want to work my hearts out.

Cause by 10 feb i have to achieve my target/: so pls i hope tdy's interview wont screw up.

yeah. pls pls pls.

Amin.

things to do today! im busy ! :D

2011-01-05T10:54:00.005+08:00

AM DETERMINED TO ACCOMPLISH WAT SUPPOSED TO BE ACCOMPLISHED :D

today, 05/01/2011

i am going to shopping at jurong point, MYSELF. and buy healthy stuff for my healthy diet today (:

den oso have to buy presents for my mum /: yeah it's a must.

Starting from next week on (pls let me have a job) i shall STOP eating faaaast foooooood. n get on wit my healthy diet. i must be determined to lose 10kg this month. yeah (: till 10 feb.

tdy shall go gym and check out my current weight (confirm is a shocking news)

HeH~

and also need to study for my driving. yeah. and also prepare myself mentally for an interview tmr :D

yyyyyeeeeeaaaaaaaaahhhhh HAPPY HAPPY (:

tis sunday got work anw T.T

and its from 6pm to 12am. KNS MUCH? -.-

i kind of unsure when's my payday but definitely gonna pay my phone bill once ive received it. so yeah.

today im not emo, jus wanna spend quality time wit myself and shopping alone (: wit only 70 bucks on my hand? tsk ~ kns man T.T

but HeH ~

ok, i gotta go bathey now !

cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer people ! :D

confused much wit life rite now?

2011-01-04T23:05:00.003+08:00

wat should i do? had an interview tdy at TTSH and it kinda screwed up /: HeH~ anw, im actually kinda happy alrdy at home (: but still need to work ma?

yeah, tis thurs is another interview at harbourfront ~

sianz, when can i ever stop being interviewed? kinda a sucky feeling when all you do is keep rejecting job offer n job rejected you and all your friends like working alr ~

oh did i mention the word 'friends' ? sux man, they come and they go and they show off. ~

i hate these kind of people. really. i do.

Moving on .

2011-01-03T11:23:00.002+08:00

oh well, a new day! and an awesome one(: heh~

tdy plan is to go bbdc & enrol & book training. have to be determined to get myself a driving licence man~ HeH

meeting lily later to take my resume cuz tmr ive got an interview at TTSH in seek of position of PSA. heh~ i hope things are well tmr, i really hope i get this job, a job tat i been waiting for and also link to my future dream job :D heh.

i feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel tired man but oso i had a wonderful rest la basically (: HeH~ this sunday gonna work again in hotel from 6pm-12pm. i noe sian diao~ by working 4 days i earn myself 150 bucks? well~ okok la.

pay day on 10 or 11 jan. gonna take it and save it man, by month of jan, i shd be able to earn myself more than 5oo bucks. yeah (:

hmmm/: nothing else to say so

BYE! :D

smile always

2011-01-02T17:28:00.003+08:00

Both retards (:

HeH~ SO, it's the 2nd day of 2011 and kinda feeling gooooood cause nothing's happening YET. haha i noe my only disastrous day will be my RESULT DAY. KNS MUCH?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHHAHA.

i love me.

cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerS!

A spark feeling in just the starting of the year.

2011-01-02T03:03:00.002+08:00

Firstly, i would like to say..

HAPPY NEW 2011 YEAR PEEEEEEPS! :D

HeH~

hmmm/: i have yet to upload my pictures on the 31dec thingy and how i enjoyed working wit my new colleagues (: heh, my leader was jason lim and group members were hmm /: huda, omar, darren, lukman, syafiq, lucas and those aren't my group like JUNTING AND IFFAH! HeH~

I was a food runner man and it sucks. i hated it. heh. But it was fun (: and oso met this very cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee boy who's only 16 and oso my dreaaammmmm person. *dreaming* HeH but neh din ask for his anything tho only only ask his school n name. how awesome. T_______T sian, now i jus wish i may bump into him or nvr. SIAN. he's the guy who exceptionally concern abt me, ask me whether im ok or not, and the best part, we wish tgt HAPPY NEW YEAR twice. cute. *sigh* shd hav ask his email. DAMMIT. gah.

ok, New year's resolution been made, and i'll take note. so yeah (:

cheer up people.

My quote of the year : I just wanna live like everybody else does.

peace!

many many love~

2010-12-26T17:30:00.000+08:00

glad to have them .

harsh but good.

2010-12-23T18:33:00.003+08:00

i'll make sure is blood to blood.

i'll seek revenge.

i will.

now i know how it feels like to be in darkness.

welcome me,

HELL.

life change,

2010-12-22T10:11:00.003+08:00

one thing about us :

we cant smile.

(: had a gd time wit my bro. awesome (Y)

primary school reunion(:

2010-12-21T01:13:00.002+08:00

PRIMARY SCHOOL OUTING SIOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.!

woohooohooooo^^ have awesome time with them(: really happy to see them having fun and talking to each other.

frenship never ends.

many many love

JC PROM

2010-12-07T00:23:00.003+08:00

prom was sedimentary (:

Atok was uber cute! he sang on the stage and upon seeing me watchin him, he wave at me! so sweeet!

After tonight, i shall change cuz my wish has fulfilled.

HEH i learnt to let go, and start anew & start afresh.

So tmr, wat's next? JOB INTERVIEW!

haha shall update my tis loved blog more often now. see ya

nite guys!

the earth is moving, but i cant feel the ground.

2010-11-25T15:46:00.002+08:00

Been waiting for you more than a year, a few weeks should be nothing ba :/

giving up?

2010-11-09T11:01:00.002+08:00

this morning, as i woke up to study my chem, i tot to myself, if only ive done my tutorials, n practice regularly, and done well for prelims , all my prelims,maybe i wouldn have freaked out like i am now. if only, i listen to my teachers, if only i don take every exam for granted, if only i don and fool around, if only im more serious wit my schoolwork, if only i know wat i plan ahead for my future early, if only i just focus& do my work, if i only i work hard starting from day one. if only, if only..

but it's too late now.in 2 hours time, im officially having my Alevel Chem paper 3. how time flies. i just finished my entire notes, but i felt is not enough. felt super disappointed man. thinking abt yesterday of how my mum giving me support, altho im late for my paper. im damn touch. im abt to cry. but i know i gotta be strong for my paper. it's my last and only chance. today, 30min to memorise all those formulas & organic chem stuff. i think im half prepared but i gonna give my shot anyway.

ytd geog? was just ok. i don expect much. i jus berserah. tats wat im goin to do. jus berserah. cume Allah swt yg tau how my life works. 18 years ive been living in this world, i felt like centuries & u noe wat? ive been living in a dark world. haha. i have so much love actually. my mum, my late dad, my bros and my sis plus my grandma. now wat am i lacking? nth beats family's love. really. nothing. i have friends tat stick wit me, n im so grateful.

im on the verge of giving up. but im not going to give up. i know im mentally tired. physically tired. am so tired. but the support. its more den i ever wish to have. my brother givin me a sign of not to give up & jus give my best shot. "try ur best mira" ): thinking of it. i feel so sad. i suddenly tot of my responsibility towards this family. my family din give up. so why shd i give up? jus like tat? no way. 444 dollars my mum paid this cert of mine. why shd i give up? unless Allah swt stops me and wish me to repeat so i could do better, tats a different thing. i shdn give up now. mira don give up. don give up. 9 more papers to go. u can do it.

yes i can do it. heh . i can do it. not gonna give up. my family don give up. why shd i waste her time & effort? yeah, 2 years. u go mira.

im worried for my results.

i want to REALLY start now.

2010-11-03T08:14:00.001+08:00

im willing do anything. from now onwards, i wont be the same anymore.

2010-11-02T07:00:00.001+08:00

I WILL WORK HARD!

FCUK MUCH?

2010-10-24T22:33:00.003+08:00

DON BOTHER MSG ME. I CHG MY NO. ONLY MY LOVED ONES SHALL NOE.

I HAD ENUF OF PPL CONTROLLING MY LIFE. THANKS.

hmm/:

2010-10-17T09:15:00.003+08:00

i cant blog after this post. it's 3weeks time to my ALEVELS. YYYYEEEAAAAAAHHHH (:

anw, i noe who is the nicest guy in this world. n i think im setting my eyes on him. n he's smart ): im not. tats it, i wan work hard, n score alevel. so at least, i can share my awesome result to him. n get a topic to talk about. hmmm /: before any gals got him, i wanna get him first. i think only him has opened my heart. yup. him. not isk anymore. but him. isk is just too perfect for me. i dislike perfection n im tired of his egoness. yeah(y) him is better (y) like like LIKE!

n he replied my msg n he helped me in chem. so thankful. know wats a good guy now. yeah. he cant run away from me, im chasing him. n i will! :D

MOOD IS BACK. thanks to pineapple boy. (:

is it me?

2010-10-16T08:16:00.002+08:00

is it me or im just being sensitive that everyone surrounds me seems to neglect my existence? ): haix. nehmind. it's just 3 more weeks to alevel. never gonna let that affect me. (Y) mira go go go! jia you!

)): haix.

alevel :/

2010-10-13T13:03:00.002+08:00

im not confident for my alevel. i know i have yet to finish revising n time is not helping me. im scared :/ i have so much sins dirtied on my hands. so many sins. it's me alone, to improve myself. im scared. :( ya allah, tolong la aku. i feel so distracted lately n i know this is not the right time to be. but i cant help it. my heart filled so cold & numb. n im sick T___t i hate myself, i know ppl all round keep reminding me to study): haix, im gg out wit mama ltr. i jus need companion. ): 2 more weeks to A's. wat am i gonna do??

haix. ):

JIAYOU MIRA. JIAYOU MIRA. I MUST BE CONFIDENT OF MYSELF. (Y) YEAH. i can do this.

Problems after one another.

2010-10-09T23:05:00.003+08:00

i hate myself like really. tis year, jus pass very fast. i'll miss everything. ):

gonna chiong my way till alevel. really chiong. haix. other problems i shall jus put aside, gonna focus focus n focus. determination!

i am determine to do WELL for a's. yeah. (Y)

COME ON MIRA, JIA YOU JIA YOU! :D

):

2010-10-06T21:45:00.001+08:00

aku totally no mood for anything.

life

2010-10-06T15:06:00.001+08:00

1 month time, im having my ALEVEL. this is it. this is my cert which im gonna take. tis is it. Jia you mira. (:

why? just why?

2010-10-01T04:32:00.002+08:00

): haix. guys i'll change my no soon cause i hate using the current no. will give to those i really know.

This year, 2010 ): tough luck. k bye!

Many things in life are beyond our control— particularly the behavior of other people. Rather than stressing out over them, focus on the things you can control such as the way you choose to react to problems.

life, wat a joke?

2010-09-29T04:00:00.002+08:00

i'll change my no soon. only my closest friends shall know about it. i really love my this no, but am gonna change it soon. yeah. ((:

no use crying over spilled milk. im gonna pull through this. i am. mira, uve gotta face this problem urself. ur life, ur exam is coming. u can do it. GIVE UP IS THE WORSE THING EVER TO DO THAT IN LIFE. never regret, cuz if so, den how u grow? things happen for a reason. im gonna face the music & shall live my life fulfillingly till the end when i heaved my last breath.

im a muslim person, i shall stay true to myself. im strong & i can do this. i can do this. im 18, a grow up person. i can do this. (:

2010-09-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU FOR RUINING MY LIFE LIKE THIS.

mira? azmira? who?

2010-09-27T00:08:00.002+08:00

truly speaking,

i don know who am i anymore.

i don see my reflection.

i don believe my life.

seriously,

im not sure wat i wan.

im indecisive.

im naive.

im foolish.

i don know. i don know.

only thing i hold on to,

is my religion,

pls keep me strong to survive this ordeal.

pls. show me e rite person the rite way.

PLS.

frens,families, him! wat more can i ask?

2010-09-25T08:04:00.002+08:00

I LOVE ALL MY IJC FRENS! MWAH MWAH! SO GONNA MISS THEM AFTER A'S.

*SIGH*

happy day!

2010-09-24T18:40:00.001+08:00

i met booboo & i LOVE HIM ((:

happy 18th to me! ((:

2010-09-20T23:14:00.010+08:00

20 SEPT IS HERE! & in abt 40 min time, my birthday will end. ((: LOVE TODAY.

first of all, i wanna thank my family for a happy family & celebrating my birthday wit KFC meal & oreo CHEESECAKE. ((:

Secondly, i would like to thank thank my friends who wishes me thru smses(especially rite late in the nite while waiting for 12am of 20sept) & FB.. ((: love you guys. thanks for that warm wishes.

Thirdly, i would like to thank kirin & yunyi for your cake OREO CHEESECAKE! YUMS! ((: n of course my awaiting & expecting present from you guys ((: hehs.

Fourthly, to my shisha, derder & lala, thank you for such a wondeful pinky box ((: i much appreciate that you guys put effort on it((: LOVE IT ALOT SEH.

five, thank you Allah s.w.t for making me live in this world for 18 years alrdy ((:

Summarise for today ((:

my pinky boxy ((:

from : derder, shisha, lala

love their cheesecake! #1 cheesecake

#2 cheesecake from kirin & yunyi OREO!

Yunyi's letter ((:

cute rite?

my sis bought this frm body shop (:

#3 cheesecake OREO! HAHA ((: family love

heheheh i know i willl have more presents coming up! cannot wait! ((: hehe anw those who makes me smile today, thank you sooo much! ((: much love man! :D

hahahahahahahhahahahahahaahha.

ive had so much love from family & friends. wat more can i ask? heh heh ((:

Life is a bliss, if u see urself tat way ((:

i don feel like tmr is my birthday ):

2010-09-19T08:42:00.003+08:00

im hurt, im in pain, im crying, do you care?

i think im a fool, i feel like im a foolish, do you care?

i think im stupid, do you care?

i think im an idiot, do you care?

yeah, all you care is about you, YOURSELF.

all you care about is yourself.

Oh god, why do i land myself in such a mess?

Why on earth did i say yes?

Why i met you?

Meeting you is like good & bad.

i think bad ones outweigh the goods.

i hate you. but do you care?

you seems not to care about anything,

n i seems a stupid fool, who cares alot.

i care others too much instead of myself.

i cant even take care of myself, yet i can take care of others.

never would i have thought to be so selfless.

i think this world doesn pay to be nice.

It's time to be selfish.

cough, flu, fever sux. my mum said, being sick, wash away my sins, im glad im sick.

FCUKED UP.

2010-09-18T11:59:00.004+08:00

fcuked up. like seriously. fcuked up! fcuked up!

damn fcuking angry wit someone rite now, n damn i knw my bro not gonna trust me anymore. really fcuk sakk. don know why im in this trap hole. fcuk fuck fcuk FCUK LA. cb.

CHICKEN.IM SICK. LIKE ANOTHER WTFFFFFFFFFF SAK. fcuk. FUCK!

GGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

i cant even mug or study. fcuk ttm. jus fcuk. fuck. fcuk! -.-

im neither your gf or your wife or someone fcuking related to you!

n damn im fcuking sick now! gaaaahhh! need see DOC ASAP.

FCUUUUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

*SIGH* nvm, nice rite my collage? love it loads. heh.

k bye.

im sick. awesome kan?

2010-09-17T22:08:00.003+08:00

aiyo, i feel so stress. stress until ive gotten sick :/ im sick. yeah, im sick. NO! my birthday coming((: must try get well soon baby! :D yeah. hahahaha.

k physic paper was :/ speechless. nvm, gotta focus on chemistry now! yeah! (Y)

im really tired waiting for someone. i really don wish to continue waiting, i think i just go along with wat i have now. yeah, one should always be thankful and grateful ((:

haiya, gonna take medi & sleep.

nite!

.......

2010-09-16T14:29:00.002+08:00

YOU, forget about me missing you.

...

2010-09-15T14:24:00.001+08:00

OFFICIALLY TIRED.

im so proud ive got true friends, do you?

2010-09-14T08:21:00.004+08:00

an old pic. but i loved it. ((: remembering the times, when my love for math is strong. & now, im trying to get tat momentum, i love math, and will get A or B for it. ((:

today! im not sure :/ i think i study math whole day & abit of chem. heh. have to score for chem paper1 &2. if not, i die. hahahaha

kla, don wanna waste more time, i love my life, i aint gonna give up!

so many things to do after A's.

ive gotta work. ive gotta take driving licence. ive gotta go out wit friends (pri/sec/jc) ! yay! hahahaha. cant wait.

k chao.

p.s still waiting for someone to msg me, but haix, im just gonna put that off.

i've found true friendship, have you?

2010-09-13T18:52:00.003+08:00

thank you wong yy for giving me such a love card ((: really really make my day. :D n giving presents to my two other bestfriends today really ease me((: n meeting my another bestfriend really make my day((: im happy today, alhamdullilah. hahah so in love wit my bestfriends, i've found true friendship man! after waiting for 18 years ((: they are all ive got, n im gonna stay strong. stay strong mira! Lige goes on! Move it move it! HAHA ((:

yeah! just now papers was ok. cant finish tho but oh well ive tried my best (:

tata! time to study math! COMPLEX! haha

thanks for waiting

2010-09-12T08:52:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO THIS DEAREST OF MINE ((: LIKE SERIOUSLY.

i cant live without her. :D

nyehahahahahahah one of the person whom i cant live without is her! ((:

she's the best. always thought of others before herself.

as nonsensical as me.

as kind-hearted & easily-to-forgive person as me.

see? mostly her character is like me!

so tats why WE CLICK

altho the first time we met. we seems to don really like each other :/ hahahaha. wat a joke! ((:

so kirin, sth is awaiting for you, and no amount of words can tell you how much i love you. so yeah, i love you & hope you have a great day today! :D

SELAMAT HARI JADI KEPADA TEMANKU YG ISTIMEWA ((:

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so today? heh, i will mug Atmo, Hydro & Litho. One more day for miracle to happen. i shall pray & hope tat i can do the first paper tmr . ((:

insyaallah.

a new beginning where i realized to cherish (:

2010-09-10T06:50:00.006+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN :D

To all my beloved families &bestfriends & friends ((:

today plan (hahaha kirin gonna so roll eyes when i type tat) PLAN! first thing first, go visit my father's grave and shall pray for him (: den, go eat with family! den, visit my grandma's house & get to see all my cousin! weeehooo! :D

haha lastly,i love my life & shall live life to the fullest day by day ((:

insyaallah i get to achieve my desired result for Alevel :D

THANKS EVERYBODY WHO LOVE ME & TREAT ME LIKE THEIR OWN KIND. ((:

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTFRIEND ANG LILY! ((:

she never fail to advice good stuff to me. she never fail to accompany me home( cuz we both live same area, JURONG) she's one of my perfect bestfriend list, n she's like no other. her "elder sis" character is so amazing. she may be small but her heart is BIG AND GIGANTIC! LOVE HER TO THE MAX :D

HOPE TODAY IS YOUR BESTEST 18TH BITHDAY :D

sth is waiting for you :D get it on mOn k? Enjoy today lily ang! :D

P.S lily is the gal on the right. Like duh-.- rite. i know but some ppl stil mistaken it.HAHAH :D

:)

2010-09-09T16:19:00.002+08:00

i dont get jealous when i see my ex with another girl, because my mum taught me to share my old toy with the less fortunate.

-md.fir.

((: happy! syukur alhamdullilah. (:

cherish

2010-09-09T13:23:00.004+08:00

today i come school ((:
i look around, and walk around.

i thought to myself, why do i come here? why am i landed in this place? and then, i think about wat ive done all this time in IJC. questions mentioned still lingering in my head.

n den, i come to the school library. the librarian smiled at me ((: and they were all very nice. im the only one in the library, i feel peace & quiet. i feel at ease. The quiet place makes me feel calm. I like the atmosphere. i like libraries. ((: i settled myself down on a table, 2nd floor. it was horrendously quiet cause im the only student there :D i love it. haha. i tot to myself, wat am i supposed to do? Oh consultation later so i prepare myself for that.

Few minutes later, a pretty bubbly beautiful, once a hello-goodbye fren, n a parade square neighbour, nurul came to my desk & studied with me. never would i have thought she would. tats when i realised, im not alone. tats when i realised, everybody else is reaching out to their success. The library is cold, but her company was warm. Its amazing, how so much effect it can be, just that when she came to my side, i feel warm. it's friendship. n tats when i realized, friendship brings courage. I never told her my problems ive had, my sorrows, eventually, it is all gone. it seems i forgotten about yesterday the yesterday the yesterday news, n eventually looking forward to the present. ((:

ive also realized to not always expect your bestfriends to be there for you. Actually, anybody, anyone can give you a smile ((: she may not know how much impact she gave me, but truthfully, im not close to her but thanks to her, my heart once again revived, n i love school ((: yeah, i used to give up on school. but no more :D

thank you nurul humairak. im not sure whether you'll read this, but u make my day. im so geared for prelims now. yeah!

So, let me answer those questions mentioned above. why i come IJC? Because i want to attain an ALEVEL cert. why am i landed in this place? Because i had a chance in attaining that cert. wat i've done? been wasting time, been failing, been skipping class, been procrastinating, been complacent, been good, been rude, been all my bad side. hahah, but im good now. i am.

but know wat?

i need time, to heal this pain still.

i need time, to change myself.

i need time, to be ME.

did i do anything wrong? ):

2010-09-09T05:23:00.004+08:00

things had happened and i cant erase it. )): i feel like a sucker. seriously D: today is the last day of puase yet i cant seem to enjoy it.

i feel cheated & guilty & regret. & ): really. been crying & i really don noe who to turn to. i don wan them know the stupidity in me. im so stupid. hell really stupid.

he got feelings for u but y is it so hard for me to tell him that i do have feelings for him? in fact, i turn & shut myself off. misery or wat. )): n up till now, he din reply. i seriously has nth to say...i think im jus too kind. very kind. i don noe. )): but i noe we're so not mean to be..

fren, why u don reply me? i feel miserable know. so sad & been crying. where are you my fren? at least reply me, if u just reply me, i will do anything. like really.

im hurt & no one can see. im sad & no one can help. im miserable & no one knows how i feel.

)): I think im just angry wit myself, tats why i feel miserable.

i don mind. i just gonna live my life happily((:

2010-09-08T18:21:00.000+08:00

((:

you can hear me cry again

2010-09-08T14:23:00.001+08:00

i hate you! aku benci kau!

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.

why am i doing this?

2010-09-07T22:25:00.004+08:00

it's irony tat.. nehmind. it's just irony.

I just wanna go school, do my stuff, do my exam and go back home. ): i just felt neglected these days. sigh. i seriously am confused & lost. Im like drowning in the ocean. )): i just need someone to take my hand to get out from this obstacles. Whenever it's near Hari Raya, i would think of my late grandpa and of course, stepfather. No one is ever as nice as them. Come to think of it, i seriously don know who to turn to although i reach out my hand to everyone who needs me. But when i have a problem, i really don know who to turn to. Really.

I just feel used & tires of social life. Today, ive studied Complex No (part 1 & 2) only & abit of hydro and organic chem. Guess tmr, i must level up my amt of work. Been skipping alot of lessons lately, well :/ i really have no mood to come to school every now & then. I just wanna stay home & become caveman & mug like hell.

Been mugging, worrying, sickly, saddening & busy spring-cleaning the house. Just wanna help my mum(: next week monday is physical paper & chem paper 3. i must prepare for that.

jiayou mira! don let them look down on you!

trust me, im different now thanks to you.

2010-09-07T09:36:00.002+08:00

Im empty.

No substance, no flavour.

tat's why u despised me.

Fine, i'll get out from your way.

Go, & have a safe journey.

i will change myself.

And let you see

tat i have substance,

i have fruitful flavour.

And i deserve to be your fren, fren.

i need to do this.

2010-09-06T09:02:00.003+08:00

Life, what's life without problems? What's life without regrets? What's life without plans? What's life without religion? What's life without with the one you love? What's life without family? What's life without dreams? What's life wtihout food? What's life without goals? What's life without amibition? N lastly, what's life? What is my purpose in life?

The last question is what i have been pondering & probbing about for 18years of my life. I was born as a Muslim who have to obey & continue to regard Allah s.w.t as my God. He gave me life. He gave me chance & hope to experience the life on Earth. Challenges & obstacles are what He had given me. This is my belief & what i believe. Basically, what i have been taught since young. Yes, religion keeps me strong.

This year i faced many challenges. I fought with my family & bestfriends. I behave like as though the world is in my hand, i take love for granted. I don bother bout people who love me, who wants the best & good for me. I heck them. My first ex bf will never leave me alone although i have told him MANY times to go away. he jus wouldn. haix. wat can i do? I shall just mute about it. My second, had moved on with his life & im happy for him((: really, but still i just despised his character now. i see him, i jus cant believe myself falling for tat kind of guy again. NO WAY. haha. my third, was a play. Its just an act, our love is a PLAY. like there' director who cut our show after one month. What a waste of time. Few things ive regret in life but i don wan mention it, cuz i really regret & just wanna forget about it.

I have a family whom i love very much & ive studied all the way for them. Actually i don know why, but i wan to live alone. nevertheless, i know im a malay girl, a malay person is known to love the family very much, and take care of them. I do love them, i do want to take care of them, it's just certain small situation tat me make it up a big one caused me to lose confident wit myself to take care of them. haixxx.

I had many friends. From pri to JC to new friends. And they were all just awesome. Ive found extremely best buddies in JC (: i guess one of the greatest thing i come JC is to meet those awesome fren and gradually become BESTFRIENDS((:

I have a crush in my school. A huge big crush, a crush tat lasted for more than a year. hahaha but i'll get over it, cuz i know we're not meant to be. I have confessed & i feel better. he smiled at me in school ensure that i don do anything wrong. ((: we're friends. although nothing is said, but i knew we're friends((:

I met many new friends recently, which like awesome((: haha, but cant get sooo distracted, ive got ALEVEL. recent one is very decent, i have no idea wat i feeling now, but i know, he's my fren,

ALEVEL ALEVEL ALEVEL. i cant afford to fail this. Cuz my mum paid $444 FOR THIS. UGH. GAH! so i must work hard! been procastinating & sleeping & always sick. i must take care of myself well. Prelim 2 is next week. First paper, phy geog n chem paper 3. yyyyeeeaaaahh mira JIAYOU!!

*sigh like lily* i feel good now((: tthx bloggy!

i think my heart is beating once again.

2010-09-06T08:36:00.004+08:00

So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my fate -
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know..

haix. im sick :/ bye guys.

YOU

2010-09-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

The sky is full of stars but the moon is you. The earth is full of people but the special person is you. To forget me is up to you but to forget you, I will never do:))

-Afiq Roslim

life's short, rite?

2010-09-05T15:24:00.002+08:00

she's pretty but im cute ((:

HAHAHAH love her TTM! MY COUSIN WHOM I NEVER SEE FOR 117126171837213 YEARS! WOOOOOOOO!

hahahah yeah, life's short, i shouldn probe myself further. im neh a problematic gal. hahahah((: someone today make me pissedd! pffffftttt but is tat someone who cheers me up((: thx prince :D hahaha k uhh. cannot spend so much time on comp. time to revision! ((:

*wink*

back! :D

2010-09-05T06:58:00.003+08:00

*WINK*

yeah, i know, so much for deactivating my fb acc. *kwangs*

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

cant help it la.

met my cuz & her bf ytd. SUPER HAPPR TO SEE HER. ((: we still look the same as we were 10years back ^^

love her cuz! photos will be uploaded in fb as per norm

byes!

bon voyage

2010-09-03T09:58:00.004+08:00

yes, the amount of work for now.

hey readers!

thanks for reading my blog frequently((: will miss you guys out there!

im now preparing for my Prelim 2 Alevel.

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

don worry, i'll be back on my 18th birthday((: to update! hahaha

love you guys!

n anything jus text me owite! misses ((:

bye! tc!

HAPPY 18TH EMELY!

2010-09-02T23:57:00.002+08:00

((: hahaha just came back from emely's house to give her a SURPRISE BIRTHDAY((: she's ssooooooooo sweeeeeet la ((: hahaha ^^

gonna skip sch tmr ((:

byes!

he's got everything i ever wanted, but?

2010-08-31T23:23:00.001+08:00

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i still find to find my place in his diary

2010-08-30T17:37:00.003+08:00

((:

haha after 121281263928372 years i haven met them. All things hae changed & grown ((:

to be loved by someone is much better.

2010-08-26T05:34:00.003+08:00

someone said : "kau ni syg dier bnyk sgt uhh, dier mane kesah ngan kau.."

i said : "aku tau, aku memang syg dier like no other, but don worry, aku give up. it's such a torture, such a pain. aku surrender, aku tak nak chase after dier. aku give up.

MIRA, THX FOR LIKING AN ASS LIKE ME.

2010-08-25T05:41:00.002+08:00

): it was ytd, u showed me who you are. i don believe myself who u actually are. but i know im sooo blinded by you. it's time to finally give you up. ): i wish you never exists. or maeb jus wish tat you never had to bang on me ytd. n u din even apology. ): let alone look at me. you don give a damn ): you don.